School's been more boring as the day go by. Though banding ended today, i don't feel happy at all. Have been having migrain for the past few days for reasons that i don't even know.

Apologies for my mood swings nowadays. Seems like they fling from one end to the other very quickly. I have no idea why too. Just feel very demotivated nowadays. Can't even seem to get hyper very easily. Seriously miss everything in sec2.

All the times when i get so hyper so easily. All the times when i feel that friends matter more than anything else. All the times when i can quarrel with sengie and be fine the next moment. All the times when i could ton through the entire night just to pei #. All the times when i chatted on the phone with # till wee hours. Even all the times when i shed my tears for #, i can show my emotions so easily. When i was treated like a princess by those around me. And, lastly, stress-free. Everything is so carefree. But, just like how all good things will come to an end, mine came to a bad ending.

Everything ended. In a bad way, in the worse, in the most undesirable way. The friendship ended up in double stabbing one another.

Anyway, practical paper tmr, in the first shift, after school got Dnt, then at 4.30, got full dress rehearsal for student council investiture):

Relationship with # became worse than strangers. I even have problems looking into his eyes now.忘了你，是最好的办法 260805。可是就是忘不了你。只好忍受着忘不了你的痛苦。What happened to us? What i want, is something that you're able to give, but, i shan't ask more, i shan't probe more. Maybe, just maybe, this is the way it is destined for us to end.

姗珊， 忘了他吧。把有他的回忆删除掉吧。这一句话在我脑海里已经快要2年了。要到什么时候才能真的实现? He's moved on, why can't you. Why do you keep running back to that time? Who are you to him now? Who are you to want him to remain by your side? Wake up and move on please my dear arina.