Monday night, i couldn't sleep. Kept thinking how would it feel like when i was at the airport at 5 am. I told myself, it'd be all fine. I know it will be a teary goodbye, but i told myself that i'd hold back those tears no matter what(:

Tuesday morning, my dad was late in sending us to the airport. I was kinda panicky at Ricky's call, i was afraid he'd call me and tell me that he had to enter the departure hall already. Nevertheless, we reached at 5.30. Chatted and took lots of Polaroid. I felt kinda okay seeing his smile and all. Everything seemed kinda.. normal? I doesn't feel like he's leaving. Up till the point he went into the departure hall, i felt okay. Although i admit that i wish i could hug him a little tad longer:S

On the skytrain, i was trying to stuff my stuffs into the bag, meanwhile, Zara and Jiaqi already started reading the letter. After i read the letter, i totally couldn't control myself. I could totally imagine him tell me those words. It's as though he was there. Up till now the words are like etched in my mind. Cried a little, but i had to be strong. Now i'm wondering i be strong for what use! Maybe cause i saw Zara's red eyes and teary face, i remembered Ricky's words to take care of her. Mood's kinda horrible after that. As much as we try and cheer up and talk, there just feels like a horrible feeling aura around. While on the bus home, unknowingly, i cried, cause i thought of the letter again): Sigh. 

It's gonna take awhile. Then i told Zara, i wonder how ZhenBang can take it, how he can resist those tears and still come and comfort us! If it's her leaving now, I jitao will cry on the spot, hug her and cry out loud, whole week stay at home reminscene on our memories.I really pei fu Zhen Bang alot.

Then again, i'm gonna stay strong, cause i'm Arina(:

Okay, maybe i'm not that strong afterall):

 

Cute pig we've got here!