Change

LET’S FACE IT, WE’VE CHANGED. WE’VE ALL CHANGED. SOMEWHERE BETWEEN SCHOOL ENDING AND SCHOOL STARTING. WE’VE ALL GONE IN OUR OWN DIRECTIONS. HEARTS WERE BROKEN AND FRIENDSHIPS WERE FUCKED OVER. NEW LOVES STARTED, AND NEW PEOPLE CAME INTO OUR LIVES. WE NO LONGER TALK FOR HOURS ABOUT NOTHING AT ALL. WE’VE ALL CHANGED. SOME FOR THE BETTER AND SOME FOR THE WORSE.

But, i'm thankful for you guys(: I'm glad most turned for the better(:

Thankful for so many things, so many memories before these changes started taking place.

Just look at how different we looked

How much we changed.

How close we used to be.

How hypocrisy didn't exist yet.

Before things fell out of place.

When we were just a few classes away from each other.

When we sat right beside each other.

When true happiness existed.

Thanks for being there through it all.

Thanks for all the insanity you guys brought.

When vandalism on our hands are so cool.

4 years in council, we've been through lotsa shit.

Each other's SunShine.

Acting cute as always.

Every birthday we passed together.

Every chalet we've been to.

Every delicacies we've tasted.

All the hardship we've been through.

The risk(s) we've taken

For this photo, only Zara and Ricky and prolly those present will understand.

The fact that we never had a perfect group photo.

The rain and shine.

The times we see ourself being much more fortunate than others.

All in all. i love this clique. The ones who stayed, the ones who left. I loved us. But for those who left, maybe we'll find better friends. But i hope we meant something to you. For those who stayed, i love all of you. Through the up(s) and down(s), and all the shit. I mean, 7 years of my life spent with you guys, i'm thankful for everything, i'm thankful i met you guys:D 

Without you all, all these 7 years would definitely be less interesting, less fun, lesser colors. Though i know we changed, we can't tolerate some changes, but we've already been through so much, so i believe we can survive through any problems in future(:

Changes

Just look at how much things changed.

Who are you?

Sometimes you have to get to know someone really well to realize you're really strangers. 
 - Mary Tyler Moore

I miss all the little things, even the littlest, yet what can we do about it? What's the point when it's single sided and the other party don't appreciate things that you do for them? What happens when the other party stops doing little things for you? Will you feel less loved? Will you feel they changed? Or rather, will you even notice the difference?

I doubt you appreciate the little things for you. Yet, i cherish all the littlest love you shower on me. I know my opinions don't matter. So i shall keep my comments to myself, for now at least. Recently, i have come to realize if i really do know you after all? I don't even know who you are anymore. Like.. I start to doubt, who is this person standing in front of me? Do i know this person at all? You seem like a stranger to me sometimes.


Just wish things never changed.

IF(S)...

& they ended when no one even thought it was possible.

There will always be a “lie” in believe, an “over” in lover, an “end” in friends, an “us” in trust, and an “if” in life. It's not the feelings that hurt, it's the memories and broken promises.



So... I wonder, no one thought we'd fall in love, so does that mean we'll stay forever in love? But, in every believe, there's a lie. Maybe i'm being self denial, or being naive. For every couple, there's a chance it might end one day? We maybe bestest friends, but at the end of the day, when we all get married, we'll be attached to our significant half, so what's best friends forever? It takes 2 persons to create trust, but what happens when trust is broken or when one party don't trust the other? Is there even trust in the first place?

Then again, there are so many If(s) in life, we never know what's gonna happen the next moment. We never know how things might end up? Cause life's a bitch who's gonna fool around.

Clubbing 2 days in a row:O

Powerhouse was definitely a blast, but seriously, going clubbing for 2 days in a row, NO JOKE. All the more, i'm not like those pro clubber(s), can go every wednesday, friday, saturday de.

Went down to Boiler Room on 010111, Jason's birthday! (Y)
It was alright compared to Powerhouse, but some things happened and... i guess we all enjoyed ourselves(:
I'm just randomly blogging, shall upload pictures when i'm happy and free to do it(:

School started and it sucks):
Results taken back, i would say it's alright?
But, still got to study harddd): But i'll play even harder!

:D

& We party till 6am

Went out with Ngai Bok and Clar darling during noon to go Armani Exchange buy clothes cause, NgaiBok wanna see. But ended up, don't have his sizes, so shopped around other places. Went back Tampines and went home to change. Chiong-ed down Harbourfront to meet Edison, Xida, YuXiang, Clarence, Janus together with darling Jiaqi.

Something sway happen): Guess i'm gonna get luck this year. LOL. Headed over to Powerhouse. Long queue~ Thank god the guys were already in the queue. Went in and they said we didn't reserve any table. Got rather irritated cause we like, called and gave particulars and all yet they say we never reserve-.- Like, shit them uh! So, go in, stuff bag into locker and all, just in time for the last 10 minutes countdown(:

Parteh~ The guys having sausage feast on the stage(:

After that, we were looking for some place to sit down, so i decided to go ask a crew about the table. So helped us to find a table, finally found one(: Opened a bottle of Hennessy, followed by another:S Had fun and took loads of pictures till my camera died on me): But i guess we took enough photos(:

Party till 6am, Janus phone lost due to a long story between a guy and a girl. But it's okay. It's time for Janus to change his phone. Teehee! Slacked outside Powerhouse till around 6.45. then we headed to Harbourfront Mac. Breakfast. Then sat outside mac and slack. Janus was dead drunk, lying in a super weird and uncomfortable position.

Then, we were talking, crapping. I was stonning half the time cause i'm not very interested in what they were saying. Then, this group of people walked pass and asked us if he's okay. And this was how it went:

Them: Hey, what's wrong? Is everything alright?
We: Yeah fine. Just leave him alone(:
Them: He's sleeping in a really awkard position!
Them - Janus: Hey bro, are you alright? *wriggle wriggle*
Janus: Woke up suddenly. Change postion and stares around.
Them: Wooho, he's awake, Happy New year guys.

There were 3 of them, each of them pass by, said happy new year to us. Until the last guy, we went up to check on Janus.

3rd Guy: He's dead drunk uh?
We: Yeah, best to leave him alone.
3rd Guy: He's gonna be alright right?
Me (Arina) : Yeap, but maybe if you kiss him now, he'll wake up now and feel okay!
3rd Guy: *looks at Janus then look at me* How about i kiss you?

LOL, we all laughed. They damn friendly.

Then when he was about to walk away,this friend of his came over:

3rd Guy: Hey dude, kiss that guy, i'll give you a $100 for it!
Friend: *No idea what he's talking. But i think it's indian. Probably thinking, WTF?!*
3rd Guy: Go ahead, kiss him, i'm betting $100. If you kiss him, i'll give you that $100
Friend: *looks at Janus, then looks at 3rd Guy*
3rd Guy: On the lips(:
Friend: NO WAY!
3rd Guy: Alright deal's off! *Laughs as he walks away*

Aww, Janus, Fucking sad):
Then a cleaner aunty walked over and asked, if he's very drunk, we said yeah, Then she was like, No wonder there's so much broken glass on the floor. We quickly said it had nothing to do with us(: OBVIOUSLY! Don't think just cause we have a drunk guy with us mean is we do de okay! Cabbed back. Luckily we took plastic bags and serviettes. Otherwise, i think confirm die. The uncle's eyes open damn bag when he heard Janus's vomit sound>.<

That's all for now i guess! Pictures can wait till i wake up, I'm damn tired now):
Nights world!

xoxo;

Christmas 2010

Oh, we went Clarke Quay and Rebel on Christmas eve, did i mention that? If i have not, i'm mentioning it now(:

Photos are all uploaded on facebook. I'm too lazy to upload here. Probably will upload another day. But, if you wanna see the photos, they are on here:D

New Serenity

Finally changed the image above again. Despite it being too long, it spoils the layout, i still love the picture. I took this picture myself. On the 10th floor lift lobby, i took this. It was an awesome scenery. I swear i took it myself.

Perhaps i need a new reason.

Legal 18 or Forever 17?

Today's like the last day of the year. Much thoughts on the last day of the year. Not exactly a good thing though. Actually i already decided to just fuck care everything about it. But suddenly it's coming back to harass me-.-

Turning 18, not really much of a difference to me at first. But now, i see the difference. Yeah, the big fucking difference. No, not the difference in the sense that we can go drinking, buy cigarettes, go clubbing openly. Not that we can take that IC of ours out and let them check without having to fear that we'll be asked to get lost by the bouncers. Yeah, i won't deny that I wanna go drinking openly. Before i turned 18, when we went to clarke quay and drink, we're afraid that they'll ask to check our IC. Now, check for all i care, bitch.

But also because of such things, it makes me realize what cheap trills are? Being able to drink without getting caught, going to the supermarket to buy liquor without being checked IC. & having simple enjoyments during events.

Last year during Christmas, we were drinking simply away at Jasmine's chalet probably spending less than $50. This year, we were drinking at Alegro and went clubbing at Rebel, spending an average of $75 per person. Last year's new year countdown, we were at East Coast Park counting down to being the first to wish Jason happy birthday. Having dinner at lagoon, eating clams away with stingray. Followed up sitting along a pavement talking about life and Abracadabra's MV. And on new year day, we were checking into Jason's chalet. This year, gonna be counting down at Powerhouse, spending more than $75 each person.

So that's what growing up is about? So that's what being legal meant? That you have to celebrate events at such places. Forgetting the simple places we used to spend at? Those simple places before we turned 18. Who said that when we turned 18, we can't go back to those lives? Who said we'll have to be spending our lives drinking and splurging at some clubs/pubs?

If this is what it means, i wanna be forever 17. I wish every year was like last year. Not-so-luxurious events, yet enjoyment. 

Christmas is O-V-E-R ):
Coming up next is New Year. Gonna party again(: My god, money flying far far away to a place that i do not know of): Hurhur!
On the 24th, went down to Clarke Quay with clique and drank at Alegro again): Then followed by clubbing at Rebel. It was okayokay laaaa. But all of them were like saying that PowerHouse is much better. So, more likely we'll be going Powerhouse on the 31st i think? Ohwell:S

Actually, i am very long to blog now, shall blog another day~ Cause i wanna go watch my jungle fish and my fair lady<3

Met up with this sotong today<3

She's noneother than my wifey(:

Finally went to catch Rapunzel after hearing loads of friends telling me it's nice. So yeah, tada! We were supposed to meet at1, and catch the 3 pm movie. But, end up, i woke up at like 12.55? Cause i slept at around 4am>.< Turns out that ms sotong also woke up late cause she slept late too. Haha, i think it's just youngster's habit to sleep late wake up late. 

But anyway, met up at 2.20, but decided to catch the 5.10 movie cause i haven't eaten my lunch. So, ate my lunch at shilin taiwan food and we wanted to find somewhere to slack around. Ended up with went to NewYork NewYork to eat Mudpie << sotong's favourite(:

Alright, most of my friends know i don't have much of a childhood. I didn't watch pokemon, i don't like barney, i dislike Hi5, i have never flown a kite (yes, up till now), i have never done much. In fact, there's a whole lot more that i haven't done before. Sad life right. Well, i don't know why not watching pokemon is a major no childhood thing, but apparently, ALL my friends that have a very fulfilling childhood watches pokemon. It makes me feel deprived. Dearboy loves barney-.- Even though i'm a huge fan of purple, but i'm not a fan (at all), about that huge dinosaur called barney. 

So, sotong and i went on to do something that revives childhood. I swear it's the first time i did it. So i kept asking sotong how to do this and that. Tsk, i feel deprived now. Someone bring me to revive childhood please): 

Movie at 5.10(: Awesome. After that, roamed around the arcade, nothing much. Difference between having clarence with us and not with us. We'll spend 10minutes in the arcade without him. With him and those boys, mygod, we can spend 30 minutes there, watching people race. >.<

Home after that cause Sotong is having dinner with her parent. Tada, i'm home. My mum thought i was joking when i said i was on my way home, sad right! ):

Peektures! Mostly with Jiaqi(:

Mudpie(:

Hearts! <3

Paint for the artwork

Jiaqi's 

Mine, it's my virgin attempt! (:

Her gift to me(:

My gift to her(: Feels inferior>.<

Rapunzel(:

That's all for now(: 

xoxo!

I've been thinking a lot. And i really mean A LOT. Yes, the only think i want to do, is to delete all this feelings.   Sometimes i wish i didn't have a heart. Then it probably won't hurt, EVER.

Sometimes i just feel like ranting out everything, like, just say everything out. Be it on my blog, on messages, or not any social networking sites. When i'm about to do it. I find nothing coming out. I turn speechless. Like, idk what the shit is wrong with me, am i too sensitive, think too much or what. Seriously, i feel like i'm about to go crazy-.-

In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happenend to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.


Ditto that! I mean, you gotta agree right?
Had a chat with PeiYun just now while studying. After leaving secondary school, we lost contact with quite a number of them. There are some friends that we wonder is even alive at this point of time, are they still schooling? How are they living on? Layhan is like the perfect example please-.-
Some, i guess we just can't be bothered with them, simply cause they are nothing. No, it's not cause we're cruel. But there are really people whom you don't have to bother about them at all.
There are also friends whom we had bad memories with. You just wished you could move on your life with it. But the past just keeps haunting you. The more you wanna forget, the more it haunts you.


MST is just round the corner, feeling rather stressed more or less. But i kinda just don't have the mood to study or the motivation to start.


Someone motivate me please!

Ohno, fuck. Just checked ibanking for both banks ( like finally ). Didn't exactly realise how much i've been spending until i checked both banks-.- I owe the bank 200 dollars now): Okay, not exactly owe to the extend that i owe the bank due to credit cards spending too much or whatever. But, it's like, been spending too much when i'm supposed to save. Thus, having to pay back $200 to myself = pay to the bank. Shit.

ARINA! Control spending! ):

Then again, i just remembered, i ordered things from blogshop and it's been a couple of days already, why isn't it arriving like yet?! ):

Just edited the blog background and main picture. It's nothing much actually. Just wanted to put up photos. Don't worry if your face is not there. The picture will change from time to time.
Shall blog more tomorrow.
Actually, i need to study tomorrow! ): 
Awww, i'm gonna sleep. Tired fuck. Nights world!