school's really lifeless.
POA lessons is one of the worst.
DnT makes me go madddd.
school was okay today.
had 3 periods of social studies but it was okay.
volleyball people went for their tournament.
they lost today.
but, buck up tmr okay?!
JIAYOU!
after school had cwc meeting.
had that the class t-shirt can get the cute cute design that me and zara wanted so much.
after that, me, sabrina, firdaus, sengie and xiao clarence took cab down to temasek poly to watch the vb match.
first time watching them play.
((:
somethings made me really pissed off today.
some people are really such irritating asses.
OMFG;please lah. It was a class meeting. Can't the motherfucking hell of you speak in english? Wahlao, we don't understand right? Make so much noise.
Seriously, sometimes, i think that the world is better off without people like you.
Can't you all even show the slightest respect for the teacher?
Every single design you all complain. Then which one then can? The first design you all say very against religion. We turn it around you say it's satanic. Please lah, like suck mfk-ers like you people would give a damn about your religion. Isn't smoking and taking drugs against your religion and against the law?
Then why you still take? Such serious stuffs you all can take it as okay. can a damn bloody design be harmful? Use your asses and think lah. Then the second design, you all don't want cause you say very weird. Then what better ideas do you have man. The damn bloody design will fade off after your wash if you wanna put the photo.
Another thing is, killing your own people is equivalent to commiting sucide right? By speaking bad about ******, will that do you any good? Take a different point and look lah, idiots. It has been as long already can you just motherfucking try to accept? Motherfuckers.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Monday, January 14, 2008
oh crap.
damn sad lah.
wanted to change my skin just now.
and that skin is the same as my handphone the skin leh!
it's " the finest of saint valentine"
i was still thinking of using the theme till end of valentine's day)):
anyway, chionging my dnt now.
damn sad lah. thinking of dnt and it makes me go...
SOBB SOBB!
i'm stuck with dnt!!
the volleyball players, tmr your volleyball East Zone tournament are gonna start.
all the best ya!
but, at the same time don't neglect your studies cause you'll bemissing lessons.
especially the sec 4s.
&& to my dear
You ah, you yourself know very well that you have that old back injury that might come back every now and then. Don't overstrain yourself okay? Don't keep on tahan then don't want say also. Take care of yourself lah. Before i really go buy the salonpas big big plaster that is meant for backaches for you. Don't worry too mush about me also okay? Take care((:
damn sad lah.
wanted to change my skin just now.
and that skin is the same as my handphone the skin leh!
it's " the finest of saint valentine"
i was still thinking of using the theme till end of valentine's day)):
anyway, chionging my dnt now.
damn sad lah. thinking of dnt and it makes me go...
SOBB SOBB!
i'm stuck with dnt!!
the volleyball players, tmr your volleyball East Zone tournament are gonna start.
all the best ya!
but, at the same time don't neglect your studies cause you'll bemissing lessons.
especially the sec 4s.
&& to my dear
You ah, you yourself know very well that you have that old back injury that might come back every now and then. Don't overstrain yourself okay? Don't keep on tahan then don't want say also. Take care of yourself lah. Before i really go buy the salonpas big big plaster that is meant for backaches for you. Don't worry too mush about me also okay? Take care((:
130108
yesterday was a terrible day.
i swear.
but, well, we celebrated janus's birthday for him yesterday instead of the actual day.
me, clarence and baoshan bought a puzzle for him.
then we bought cake and pizza.
delievered the pizza over to jiewei's house.
before that baoshan, jiewei and clarence were too busy playing their dj max portable on the psp while i was sitting there reading someone's smses.
jiaqi, janus and yiyan were outside watching alien vs predator and talking about maths.
the pizza arrived super late.
then we ate the pizza and cut the cake.
then somethings happened lah.
then after that go home le.
*Seriously lah, so what if you're my *******?
I hate guys who have to resort to violence when they know that they are losing in an arguement, simply cause they have nothing else to say to prove that the other party is wrong. I dont find myself really in the wrong. Just because nobody else usually answers back at you, you think othat you yourself is almightly. Please, take a look back at your actions. we're in this plight all thanks to you. You're the one who got all of us into this shit and there you are, always showing that fcuking face. Fuck that.*
&& to you, i still don't plan to let go. But i give you my best blessings. I know that you have her now, but that don't mean anything to me. It's a matter of what you mean to me. I only wish to keep the best and the happiest memories. You used to be a part of my life. And you will continue to be one, just in a place of a bestie. I know that we can't fully hide all the scars but i guess we've made up on the overall. Afterall, you're someone else's already so i doubt you'll have extra time for us. All the best; everlastig my dear((:
140108
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANUS!
nothing much happened today.
nothing very interesting too.
all i know was, assembly was dragged for very longggg.
and i saw someone who told me about himmm((:
yesterday was a terrible day.
i swear.
but, well, we celebrated janus's birthday for him yesterday instead of the actual day.
me, clarence and baoshan bought a puzzle for him.
then we bought cake and pizza.
delievered the pizza over to jiewei's house.
before that baoshan, jiewei and clarence were too busy playing their dj max portable on the psp while i was sitting there reading someone's smses.
jiaqi, janus and yiyan were outside watching alien vs predator and talking about maths.
the pizza arrived super late.
then we ate the pizza and cut the cake.
then somethings happened lah.
then after that go home le.
*Seriously lah, so what if you're my *******?
I hate guys who have to resort to violence when they know that they are losing in an arguement, simply cause they have nothing else to say to prove that the other party is wrong. I dont find myself really in the wrong. Just because nobody else usually answers back at you, you think othat you yourself is almightly. Please, take a look back at your actions. we're in this plight all thanks to you. You're the one who got all of us into this shit and there you are, always showing that fcuking face. Fuck that.*
&& to you, i still don't plan to let go. But i give you my best blessings. I know that you have her now, but that don't mean anything to me. It's a matter of what you mean to me. I only wish to keep the best and the happiest memories. You used to be a part of my life. And you will continue to be one, just in a place of a bestie. I know that we can't fully hide all the scars but i guess we've made up on the overall. Afterall, you're someone else's already so i doubt you'll have extra time for us. All the best; everlastig my dear((:
140108
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANUS!
nothing much happened today.
nothing very interesting too.
all i know was, assembly was dragged for very longggg.
and i saw someone who told me about himmm((:
Friday, January 11, 2008
oh, mfk-ing hell lah.
bitch you.
sorry for the crude language.
omg lah.
can't you even take it as a form of joke?
to the extent that you have to complain to that mfk-ing person?
i'm surprised, to think that you're in that class and you can't differentiate what's a joke and what's serious.
complain for all you want man, mfk-ing mfk-ers.
whatever.
school's boring.
along with that ton of homework.
gosh, spare me man.
1. Phyics(alomost 300 qns)
2. Dnt folio
3. POA control wroksheet qn 9,10,11
4. POA textbook pg 328 qn 3,4,7
5. Social studies(notes for causes, conflict, consequences)
6. Maths textbook pg 32&33 qn 5,9
all to be handed in on monday except social studies.
sian.
zzz...
bitch you.
sorry for the crude language.
omg lah.
can't you even take it as a form of joke?
to the extent that you have to complain to that mfk-ing person?
i'm surprised, to think that you're in that class and you can't differentiate what's a joke and what's serious.
complain for all you want man, mfk-ing mfk-ers.
whatever.
school's boring.
along with that ton of homework.
gosh, spare me man.
1. Phyics(alomost 300 qns)
2. Dnt folio
3. POA control wroksheet qn 9,10,11
4. POA textbook pg 328 qn 3,4,7
5. Social studies(notes for causes, conflict, consequences)
6. Maths textbook pg 32&33 qn 5,9
all to be handed in on monday except social studies.
sian.
zzz...
Monday, January 07, 2008
True friends got your back,
fake ones stab you in the back.
True friends stay by your side through thick and thin,
Fake ones leave you when you need them the most.
True friends are ok with who you like or date,
Fake ones go chasing after them,
it goes to show fake friends aren't gonna be there in the end.
friendship; such a nice yet lethal word
well, actually, neither do i actually know who is really my true friend.
At least for that very least, i do trust jiaqi, baoshan, jiewei and of course clarence. I guess i do trust sengie pretty much too. Otherwise i wouldn't have talked to her so much. And the friendship between us for 4 years isn't wasted.
Another one that i really regard as a best and true friend, is my jiejie, jasmine.
Though i don't really know if she regards me as one too. I mean, a friendship of 15years and still counting is definitely not easy. Not everyone can maintain so long. But i guess, between us, she's the one that has been giving in more. No words can ever describe the friendship between us.
Friday, January 04, 2008
many friends come and go,
the best and closest friends stay.
But have you ever thought;
Who's the true friends?
You'll only see their true colours when somethings happens.
I've learnt that the best and closest friends might not necessarily be a true friend.It's not totally about how trustworthy the person is. But also about the amount of trust that you place in the person. It's pretty untrue to say that you can't trust the person at all. And it's not even possible to say that you yourself is/is very trustworthy. Others can't judge you. But neither can you assume what you think you are. You won't know how they see you as cause everybody thinks differently.
gosh.
pretty long since i blogged?
well, was out till very late for the past few weeks.
to enjoy myself to the max.
it's already 2008 already.
many things happened in 2007.
good things, bad things, memorable moments, sad memories and regretable memories.
may 2008 be a better year for all.
and to those who are taking their major exams this year, all the best.
chiong ah!
well, school reopened already.
on the first day alot of people kena haicut by barber.
but i haven't really attended lessons so haven saw them yet.
was an OGL.
the orientation was okay lah.
i was in charge of cougar 3. they are called ice lite.
sounds very maple kind.
lolol!
my group has jasmine, ivory, cynthia, valerie, heryani, fabian, kaiboon, malcolm, cheeyong, benson.
first day was boring.
but the second day was okay. all thanks to the captain's ball, they enjoyed themselves very much.
third day was fun. such a pity that the timing is so short.
even the sec 1s were saying that they havent fully enjoy themselves today.
however there was this particular person that everyone disliked. not only my group all the OGL, but even the other group members as well as other OGLs who are not taking them.
he is really disrespectful and keep answering back at us.
there were a few times when i really feel like sending him to the DM man.
but, other than him, there is one that really resembles someone.
andand, there is also none other than me and sengie's favourite; malcolm!
left early to go home with sengie and get some stuffs before meeting clarence, jiaqi, yiyan, weeting, along with yihui, ngai bok and daphne.
saw the vb boys at cs food junction outside.
then saw the 4e5 devina, serena, wanlin they all inside.
after eating then they went back to school while i went home. zun was crapping all the way.
-.-"
pretty long since i blogged?
well, was out till very late for the past few weeks.
to enjoy myself to the max.
it's already 2008 already.
many things happened in 2007.
good things, bad things, memorable moments, sad memories and regretable memories.
may 2008 be a better year for all.
and to those who are taking their major exams this year, all the best.
chiong ah!
well, school reopened already.
on the first day alot of people kena haicut by barber.
but i haven't really attended lessons so haven saw them yet.
was an OGL.
the orientation was okay lah.
i was in charge of cougar 3. they are called ice lite.
sounds very maple kind.
lolol!
my group has jasmine, ivory, cynthia, valerie, heryani, fabian, kaiboon, malcolm, cheeyong, benson.
first day was boring.
but the second day was okay. all thanks to the captain's ball, they enjoyed themselves very much.
third day was fun. such a pity that the timing is so short.
even the sec 1s were saying that they havent fully enjoy themselves today.
however there was this particular person that everyone disliked. not only my group all the OGL, but even the other group members as well as other OGLs who are not taking them.
he is really disrespectful and keep answering back at us.
there were a few times when i really feel like sending him to the DM man.
but, other than him, there is one that really resembles someone.
andand, there is also none other than me and sengie's favourite; malcolm!
left early to go home with sengie and get some stuffs before meeting clarence, jiaqi, yiyan, weeting, along with yihui, ngai bok and daphne.
saw the vb boys at cs food junction outside.
then saw the 4e5 devina, serena, wanlin they all inside.
after eating then they went back to school while i went home. zun was crapping all the way.
-.-"
Friday, December 21, 2007
oh, maybe i shoud blog today, suddenly have the mood to do it.
many things happened this year.good things and bad things as well.
nobody can predict what will happen tomorrow.
we never know what might happen to us the next day.
maybe i should write something for every single person that is dear to me((:
lets start from FAM.
JIAQI
knew you since secondary 1.
my dear and dearest laopo.
you have been through with me the good and the bad times.
you are there for me when i am at my lowest point to cheer me up and tell me everything is okay.
and also, someone who always love to bug me about coming to my house to cook korean noodles. or even just coming to my house to slack. and also, your love for barbequed stingray made my mother marinate it with more chilli.
still, thanks for always being there.
希望在我的每一个明天里都会有你。
no matter how many laopo i have, you'll always be the one that means the most to me((:
BAOSHAN
ah girl ah, want to find you is as hard as trying to find the president leh!
but, i love you!
your laughing is contagious hor!
even if one day, when the rest of us graduate, we'll still keep in touch okay?
don't think that we'll just forget you when we graduate.
we can still have lunch together often okay!
JESSIE
you don't have internet!
LENA
my dearest nu er.
many things have happened and i swear we aren't as close as ever.
but one thing for sure that i must say is.
you mean something to us even when you don't realise.
you may think that it didn't mattered when you didn't come for the FAM chalet.
but, we missed you okay!
pretty disappointed that you didn't even came to drop by.
the atmosphere was just different without you around.
noone to scream at us when we keep making noise when watching the movie.
noone to complain that the stingray isn't spicy enough for you.
we may not be the closest of friends. but you do mean something important to me as well as to FAM.
i'll still remember how i helped you choose your sc shirt.
the card you gave to me and jiaqi for mother's day last year along with a packet of lollipop.
the time when i accompanied you to the doctor at 300 plus and you asked me if you could eat macdonalds.
the fact that you were angry and worried for us when we're injured proves that you care.
the time may not be very long.
but the memories do last.
lennnnaaaa; aishiteru~!
do take care of yourself okay?
SENGIE
my dear gie gie,
you are really a silly girl.
many things happened to us this year.
but, sometimes misunderstandings may help to bring each other closer.
so i hope, we'll understand each other better okay?
among so many of us,you are the one that has the same kind of temper as me.
sometimes i wonder, how have we come so far?
whatever it is, i hope that, we can still be friends forever.
can hyper together when we are reaching our limit of tiredness.
i'll be there for you when you need me okay?
my ears are here for you to pour out all your unhappiness.
my shoulders are here for you to lean on.
just hope that jiaqi won't be jealous yah?
you are loved((:
shall stop here today. will continue with the rest on another day((:
many things happened this year.good things and bad things as well.
nobody can predict what will happen tomorrow.
we never know what might happen to us the next day.
maybe i should write something for every single person that is dear to me((:
lets start from FAM.
JIAQI
knew you since secondary 1.
my dear and dearest laopo.
you have been through with me the good and the bad times.
you are there for me when i am at my lowest point to cheer me up and tell me everything is okay.
and also, someone who always love to bug me about coming to my house to cook korean noodles. or even just coming to my house to slack. and also, your love for barbequed stingray made my mother marinate it with more chilli.
still, thanks for always being there.
希望在我的每一个明天里都会有你。
no matter how many laopo i have, you'll always be the one that means the most to me((:
BAOSHAN
ah girl ah, want to find you is as hard as trying to find the president leh!
but, i love you!
your laughing is contagious hor!
even if one day, when the rest of us graduate, we'll still keep in touch okay?
don't think that we'll just forget you when we graduate.
we can still have lunch together often okay!
JESSIE
you don't have internet!
LENA
my dearest nu er.
many things have happened and i swear we aren't as close as ever.
but one thing for sure that i must say is.
you mean something to us even when you don't realise.
you may think that it didn't mattered when you didn't come for the FAM chalet.
but, we missed you okay!
pretty disappointed that you didn't even came to drop by.
the atmosphere was just different without you around.
noone to scream at us when we keep making noise when watching the movie.
noone to complain that the stingray isn't spicy enough for you.
we may not be the closest of friends. but you do mean something important to me as well as to FAM.
i'll still remember how i helped you choose your sc shirt.
the card you gave to me and jiaqi for mother's day last year along with a packet of lollipop.
the time when i accompanied you to the doctor at 300 plus and you asked me if you could eat macdonalds.
the fact that you were angry and worried for us when we're injured proves that you care.
the time may not be very long.
but the memories do last.
lennnnaaaa; aishiteru~!
do take care of yourself okay?
SENGIE
my dear gie gie,
you are really a silly girl.
many things happened to us this year.
but, sometimes misunderstandings may help to bring each other closer.
so i hope, we'll understand each other better okay?
among so many of us,you are the one that has the same kind of temper as me.
sometimes i wonder, how have we come so far?
whatever it is, i hope that, we can still be friends forever.
can hyper together when we are reaching our limit of tiredness.
i'll be there for you when you need me okay?
my ears are here for you to pour out all your unhappiness.
my shoulders are here for you to lean on.
just hope that jiaqi won't be jealous yah?
you are loved((:
shall stop here today. will continue with the rest on another day((:
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Monday, December 10, 2007
oh, it has been like alien years since i blogged.
well, shall blog about yesterday.
met clarence at about 12.30
went to converse to get back the converse bag that they held onto for a week.
after that we went to bugis cause he wanted to see jeans chain and belt.
didn't find it eventually.
jiejie and jason wasn't ready yet.
so we had to go over marina square to book the kbox before them.
while we were at marina square, was deciding whether to take the normal k or to take kdinner.
eventually decided on the kdinner. simply cause it was much worth it.
then we went into the room, waited till jiejie and jason reached.
we were happily singing till around 7 plus 8 then we started to get food into the room to makan.
clarence and jason sure made their money worth.
they ate lots and lots of sashimi.
all the food there are by sakura.
hmm, paying a little more to eat sakura food, quite worth it lah.
at 8 plus.
a waitress came in and ask us if we wanted to play a game.
so we were like.
anything lor.
jiejie and i went out to play. clarence and jason were standing behind us.
the aim of the game is to pour water into a floating glass that is inside the pail of water.
if the glass sinks, you lose.
and, the winners have a surprise gift.
as for those who lost, you'll have a surprise drink as well.
played for rounds, we managed to survive till the last few.
jiejie lost, had to drink that surprise drink.
it's brown in colour.
then jason helped her drink.
after that he's stomach felt pretty unwell.
then clarence came and tell me.
"eh, jason say the drink taste super terrible, got coffee and milo still got other things."
i lost 2 rounds after her.
i was like,"oh fuck, must drink this damn thing"
then i shake the drink, cause it's inside a test-tube like container.
then i finished in one go.
my god, it tastes super terrible okay!
mine is worse than jason's.
mine got coffee and milo and still got i think tobassco.
wahlao!
1. I don't take coffee
2. I take spicy food buy tobassco is a definite nono.
my stomach felt unwell after that too.
but, it was pretty much fun lahh.
took mrt and went back.
were talking about what happened when we went to vivocity the previous time, "flying granny(:"
then when we reached tampines mrt,
jason went to the bank to deposit money.
i was outside writing on the misty glass surface while jason was inside trying desperately to erase it.
jiejie and clarence were watching us from the back.
when it was jason's turn to use the machine, jiejie went in.
clarence went in too cause got aircon.
i went in after that also.
guess what i did?
i went in and said:"robbery, draw all your money out for me or die!"
they stared at me.
and i didn't realise that there was someone standing next to jason.
i was like, "opps, what the hell did i just do?"
and jason was, "haha! later the door lock ah! cause they sensitive to the word robbery then we all kena lock and arina will be taken to the police for attempting to rob."
-.-
went home soon after that.
took 38 with jiejie, jason and clarence.
chatted on the way and i was the 1st to alight.
我轻轻的尝一口
你说的爱我
还在回味你给过的温柔
我轻轻的尝一口
这香浓的诱惑
我喜欢的样子你都有
well, shall blog about yesterday.
met clarence at about 12.30
went to converse to get back the converse bag that they held onto for a week.
after that we went to bugis cause he wanted to see jeans chain and belt.
didn't find it eventually.
jiejie and jason wasn't ready yet.
so we had to go over marina square to book the kbox before them.
while we were at marina square, was deciding whether to take the normal k or to take kdinner.
eventually decided on the kdinner. simply cause it was much worth it.
then we went into the room, waited till jiejie and jason reached.
we were happily singing till around 7 plus 8 then we started to get food into the room to makan.
clarence and jason sure made their money worth.
they ate lots and lots of sashimi.
all the food there are by sakura.
hmm, paying a little more to eat sakura food, quite worth it lah.
at 8 plus.
a waitress came in and ask us if we wanted to play a game.
so we were like.
anything lor.
jiejie and i went out to play. clarence and jason were standing behind us.
the aim of the game is to pour water into a floating glass that is inside the pail of water.
if the glass sinks, you lose.
and, the winners have a surprise gift.
as for those who lost, you'll have a surprise drink as well.
played for rounds, we managed to survive till the last few.
jiejie lost, had to drink that surprise drink.
it's brown in colour.
then jason helped her drink.
after that he's stomach felt pretty unwell.
then clarence came and tell me.
"eh, jason say the drink taste super terrible, got coffee and milo still got other things."
i lost 2 rounds after her.
i was like,"oh fuck, must drink this damn thing"
then i shake the drink, cause it's inside a test-tube like container.
then i finished in one go.
my god, it tastes super terrible okay!
mine is worse than jason's.
mine got coffee and milo and still got i think tobassco.
wahlao!
1. I don't take coffee
2. I take spicy food buy tobassco is a definite nono.
my stomach felt unwell after that too.
but, it was pretty much fun lahh.
took mrt and went back.
were talking about what happened when we went to vivocity the previous time, "flying granny(:"
then when we reached tampines mrt,
jason went to the bank to deposit money.
i was outside writing on the misty glass surface while jason was inside trying desperately to erase it.
jiejie and clarence were watching us from the back.
when it was jason's turn to use the machine, jiejie went in.
clarence went in too cause got aircon.
i went in after that also.
guess what i did?
i went in and said:"robbery, draw all your money out for me or die!"
they stared at me.
and i didn't realise that there was someone standing next to jason.
i was like, "opps, what the hell did i just do?"
and jason was, "haha! later the door lock ah! cause they sensitive to the word robbery then we all kena lock and arina will be taken to the police for attempting to rob."
-.-
went home soon after that.
took 38 with jiejie, jason and clarence.
chatted on the way and i was the 1st to alight.
我轻轻的尝一口
你说的爱我
还在回味你给过的温柔
我轻轻的尝一口
这香浓的诱惑
我喜欢的样子你都有
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Sunday, October 07, 2007
我的视线已变得很模糊。
我已不懂得分辨事情的对错。
不懂得如何去解决一切的问题。
对于以前的我，要解决问题一点都不难。
可是对于现在的我，简直是要了我的命。
我也很讨厌现在的我。
我的脾气变得更暴躁不是因为友情或感情上，而是自己家庭方面的问题。
对于你们，我这两天想了很多。
对于____，我敢说，
我从来都没有骂过或想过你是个三八婆。
可能是我在骂别人，或只是随口说别人。
可是，我很确定，我没理由骂你。
还有，你问，我们是否有把你当作我们的最好朋友。
想了很多，我也不是赶着要回答你的问题。
我真的有把你当成我的好朋友。
只是，如果我和你之间残生什么问题。
我不知道要这么样更你开口解决。
我也从来没有更你当朋友因为你钱财上和物质上的富贵。
我们更你作朋友是真的要和你当朋友。
我更没有说，不是我的错。
如果我不认为是我的错，我更本就不会道歉，我也不会说：要起火，是需要两颗石头。
走到船头，自然直。
我已不懂得分辨事情的对错。
不懂得如何去解决一切的问题。
对于以前的我，要解决问题一点都不难。
可是对于现在的我，简直是要了我的命。
我也很讨厌现在的我。
我的脾气变得更暴躁不是因为友情或感情上，而是自己家庭方面的问题。
对于你们，我这两天想了很多。
对于____，我敢说，
我从来都没有骂过或想过你是个三八婆。
可能是我在骂别人，或只是随口说别人。
可是，我很确定，我没理由骂你。
还有，你问，我们是否有把你当作我们的最好朋友。
想了很多，我也不是赶着要回答你的问题。
我真的有把你当成我的好朋友。
只是，如果我和你之间残生什么问题。
我不知道要这么样更你开口解决。
我也从来没有更你当朋友因为你钱财上和物质上的富贵。
我们更你作朋友是真的要和你当朋友。
我更没有说，不是我的错。
如果我不认为是我的错，我更本就不会道歉，我也不会说：要起火，是需要两颗石头。
走到船头，自然直。
Saturday, October 06, 2007
oh. wow. i hoped and prayed you'll say out everything that you were unhappy about. i'm not such an idiot that i couldn't see that you don't like me. even since i stead with him, you attitude towards me totally changed. I said you can get money from your parents your you still work. yes, i may sound very mean. but please, if i really meant it, would i had taken the application form for you? i would even bother finding anything for you. i can't get money from my parents during the holiday. and you said, given your family circumstances, you should work more. hello, why do i want to find a job so quickly? cause i know very well my family circumstance. nobody knows about my family circumstances. not a single soul, not you, not jessie, not baoshan, not jiaqi, not even clarence. hello, you talked about me behind my back too. i know that. but i never did i say a word about it. i thought you were my best friend too. i admit. i did talk bad about you before. but thats when something serious happen. other than that, when other people talk bad about you, i speak up for you too. you yourself did it too. so don't say others. you do talk about people that don't even say bad things about you. you may have forgotten. nevermind. And, i talked bad about you, simply because you started it first. i know i changed. i have become more hot-tempered too. when others give me attitude or whatsoever. i only say that the person attitude. but i don't say anything else. and you say you changed cause you had enough of people treating you like crap? then please, who treated me like crap first. finding me when you need me. throwing me aside when you don't need me. treating me like nothing but someone for you to fall back on when everyone else are not there. many people can see that, you think i feel good? treat me like crap when you have someone else. so, that what a best friend should do? i'm amazed. very interesting. you were the one who started it and now you are asking me why i did it? since you don't like the feeling too, why did you do it. i would rather you say everything straight in my face then telling other. you don't like it, neither do i. if you hate a guy to interfere, tell that straight into his face. i don't know a thing he said. so why tell me? don't i have the right to cry? everyone has. even a newborn baby. i didn't blame a single thing on you. don't put words into my mouth. who is the one fabricating tales here? i didn't drag anyone in too. i told him nothing. but he kept asking, wtf do you expect me to do? who is the one who went around telling others about untrue facts. you started badmouthing me, and they turned against me. so, you didn't mean it? fine. i knew everything. but i just kept quiet. i tried to make up to you. but you didn't even give me a single chances. since you don't even give me a single chance? why did i give you so many in the past. i did not say a single thing about you making untrue assumptions. right, you are the princess, no one dared say a fking shit. right, i make a shitload. very well. all those true comcerns are crapshit. thanks. get this into your stubborn head. i dare say this. when i say concern for you, i meant it. those were my truthful words. if i really meant to backstab you, i wouldn't even bother. i can just simply make more untrue tales about it. i would admit it if i made a mistake. i don't push the blame to someone else. i would think that you're the one putting me in hell now. i agree that friendship isn't proven by how much you cry for a person. i have never cried for jiaqi, i have never cried for baoshan too. however, they are still my best friends. sorry, even since this year, somewhat near the middle, i am totally unsure of what am i to you already. i asked you several times what i meant to you. you told me you treated me like your best friend. however, i don't feel so. i simply feel like i'm someone for you to lean back on. but, i told myself it's okay, you have your freedom to hang out with whoever you want. but i told myself to be there whenever you need me. and, i had never ever said it was YOUR fault. i did not say that. so if you're unhappy? why find me when i'm not the one? simply cause he's my boyfriend? then if your boyfriend makes me unhappy, i should take the blame on you too. i bothered to apologise, cause i know it's my fault. and you meant something to me. i know friendship isn't jugded by how much the person is there when you need them. but please, even if i bad mouthed you, i had never ever told your secrets out. and, they were only minor ones. after that, i would clear up with whoever i had told bad things about you. don't be too sure that you wouldn't bad mouth about people that didn't do anything wrong to you. you started it, i didn't say anything. when i started talking about you, it was when i really find it unfair that i have to tolerate everything that's wrong and when the fault isn't mine. please, if i weren't bothered with your actions and your words? would i have cried. if i didn't give a fuck about this friendship, i wouldn't have apologised. if i didn't give a damn about your feelings, i wouldn't have wanted to clear up everything. i hoped and wished that you'll tell me everything that you're unhappy with me about. i spent the entire night thinking. doesn't this friendship mean something to me. some tell me this friendship isn't gonna work out. why didn't i listen to them and just leave everything aside. i bothered. i cared about this friendship. i'm willing to change. but, please. i'm not god. i can't just change overnight. i don't want things to become this way. therefore, i apologise. i meant it. you were one of those i really cared for. one of those close to my heart. so, why is it that you didn't think you were in fault too. it takes to stones to start a fire, it takes two hands to clap. when you did wrong, i lent my hand to clear up everything. so why is it when i did wrong? there isn't your hand to hel me clear up the everything? 我只能说，对不起。但旁观者清。
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
oh crap lah.
nowadays everything's crap.
when i smile and laugh,
it doesn't necessarily means that i'm fine.
don't use your assumptions on me.
damn pissed nowadays.
i don't know why.
exams are round the corner, kinda really afraid that i'll stay back.
also, i don't feel like dropping to n(a) or being in the same class as the juniors.
it's really irritating yeah.
there's gonna be lessons and camps during the holidays, i guess we can't have holidays anymore already.
it's just studying for the next few months and the entire year next year.
hais.
nowadays everything's crap.
when i smile and laugh,
it doesn't necessarily means that i'm fine.
don't use your assumptions on me.
damn pissed nowadays.
i don't know why.
exams are round the corner, kinda really afraid that i'll stay back.
also, i don't feel like dropping to n(a) or being in the same class as the juniors.
it's really irritating yeah.
there's gonna be lessons and camps during the holidays, i guess we can't have holidays anymore already.
it's just studying for the next few months and the entire year next year.
hais.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
duty-free vodka(:
jiaqi,me,lena& jessie
lena, jessie, jiaqi, sengie, me& minhui
lena,sengie,jessie,haimei,jiaqi,me,minhui
minhui,sengie& jessie;act cute pose 1.
sengie,me with lennie's specs and jessie.
sengie,me &jessie with lennie's specs.
the hypering starts; sengie hugging minhui
jessie hugging sengie
diao si mi diao
sengie with sotong mouth
the high eye-brows start.
& it goes everywhere.
auto hug(sengie made lena hug her) :I
woo.. titanic
the siao cha bor.
很多事情是在你后悔时，
就已经来不及了。
能做的就只有放手。
但，并不想放手，
想挽回所有失去的一切。
我又能做什么来挽回呢？
我不知道，似乎也没人能告诉我怎么办。
Thursday, September 13, 2007
super long never blog already.
i know it's a bad time to start blogging again now.
however, there are somethings to upload lah.
shall upload later.
end of years coming.
in about 2 weeks.
hope to have a chalet for sengie during birthday after the exams.
but, there are some problems now.
during the first 2-3 weeks of the holiday, there will be extra supplementary lessons for us.
means, we can't have a chalet then.
on top of that, 7 and 8 is deepavali.
means it's a public holiday.
the chalet is gonna cost a bomb of about 300+ to 400.
so, shall think about it again.
studies are terrible.
i seems to keep failing.
shall buck up already.
can't afford to fail EOY.
=S
i know it's a bad time to start blogging again now.
however, there are somethings to upload lah.
shall upload later.
end of years coming.
in about 2 weeks.
hope to have a chalet for sengie during birthday after the exams.
but, there are some problems now.
during the first 2-3 weeks of the holiday, there will be extra supplementary lessons for us.
means, we can't have a chalet then.
on top of that, 7 and 8 is deepavali.
means it's a public holiday.
the chalet is gonna cost a bomb of about 300+ to 400.
so, shall think about it again.
studies are terrible.
i seems to keep failing.
shall buck up already.
can't afford to fail EOY.
=S
Friday, August 03, 2007
Thursday, August 02, 2007
010807(:
wee hee hee!
my birthday lahh.
school was rather okay.
dnt was crap as usual.
after school had investiture for a little while then had to go back for dnt course until 4.30
how pathetis right?
birthday also need go course, can't even go out immediately after school.
nevermind.
after that went to bugis to meet jasmine with him.
slacked for 1 and a half hours waiting for jasmine.
we walked around initially.
but i got bored out eventually cause i was super tired.
jasmine finally arrived at 6.30
went to swensens.
we ordered 4 main courses.
cause 4 main courses only cost the price of 3.
hahas!
then we had 1 birthday firehouse.
wee~
thank you jasmine jiejie
after that roamed around for awhile then go take mrt go home already.
next day still got school.
zzz.
anyways; received these for my birthday.
not alot, but they were my favourite~
and, i'm contented already(:
1. me-to-you bear from lennie, jessie and sengie.
2. newurbanmale sling bag from him.
3. myuk latest design pencil box for jason.
4. myuk latest design hanhphone pouch from him.
5. a box of ferrero rocher from daddy.
6. a swensens treat from jasmine jiejie.
7. a pizza hut treat from daddy.
8. a wallet from mummy.
9. a present from kaijing.
haha!
super duper contented with the bag.
i mean lah!
i have been wishing and hoping for NUM things for months.
i really did know about the brand lah.
unlike some people who only monkey see monkey want.
i was pretty dumb lah.
jasmine jiejie wanted to buy havannais for me for birthday present.
i told her nevermind.
it's okay lah.
actually i really really want it very very much.
but, to think back, it's not very practical isn't it?
the design is on the base where you place your leg on.
if you wear it too often, the design goes off.
and there goes your 49.90
i think i'd prefer something more practical or something that can last longer.
if i really want that, i'll buy it myself when i work during the holidays.
i swear i'd earn my own money and use my hard earned money to buy myself that to use my parent's money.
like that then i'll treasure it more.
*sengie, don't pin too high hopes that i might get those for you.
it depends. really(:
you didn't give me that, why i must give you that ah?!
lols!
pending treats from:
1. xiao clarence, sakae sushi.
2. andrew erzi, sakae sushi.
3. jiaqi*my dearest*, sakura.
oh, just realised that all the restaurant name start with an 'S'
well, really like all my present!
muahahah~
thanks to all~!!!
i love all of you!
wee hee hee!
my birthday lahh.
school was rather okay.
dnt was crap as usual.
after school had investiture for a little while then had to go back for dnt course until 4.30
how pathetis right?
birthday also need go course, can't even go out immediately after school.
nevermind.
after that went to bugis to meet jasmine with him.
slacked for 1 and a half hours waiting for jasmine.
we walked around initially.
but i got bored out eventually cause i was super tired.
jasmine finally arrived at 6.30
went to swensens.
we ordered 4 main courses.
cause 4 main courses only cost the price of 3.
hahas!
then we had 1 birthday firehouse.
wee~
thank you jasmine jiejie
after that roamed around for awhile then go take mrt go home already.
next day still got school.
zzz.
anyways; received these for my birthday.
not alot, but they were my favourite~
and, i'm contented already(:
1. me-to-you bear from lennie, jessie and sengie.
2. newurbanmale sling bag from him.
3. myuk latest design pencil box for jason.
4. myuk latest design hanhphone pouch from him.
5. a box of ferrero rocher from daddy.
6. a swensens treat from jasmine jiejie.
7. a pizza hut treat from daddy.
8. a wallet from mummy.
9. a present from kaijing.
haha!
super duper contented with the bag.
i mean lah!
i have been wishing and hoping for NUM things for months.
i really did know about the brand lah.
unlike some people who only monkey see monkey want.
i was pretty dumb lah.
jasmine jiejie wanted to buy havannais for me for birthday present.
i told her nevermind.
it's okay lah.
actually i really really want it very very much.
but, to think back, it's not very practical isn't it?
the design is on the base where you place your leg on.
if you wear it too often, the design goes off.
and there goes your 49.90
i think i'd prefer something more practical or something that can last longer.
if i really want that, i'll buy it myself when i work during the holidays.
i swear i'd earn my own money and use my hard earned money to buy myself that to use my parent's money.
like that then i'll treasure it more.
*sengie, don't pin too high hopes that i might get those for you.
it depends. really(:
you didn't give me that, why i must give you that ah?!
lols!
pending treats from:
1. xiao clarence, sakae sushi.
2. andrew erzi, sakae sushi.
3. jiaqi*my dearest*, sakura.
oh, just realised that all the restaurant name start with an 'S'
well, really like all my present!
muahahah~
thanks to all~!!!
i love all of you!
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