hais..
sometimes.. im just so damn disappointed with you..
trying to make you feel how i feel..
but i just totally fail to do so lors..
i failed as a sister.. a daughter.. a friend.. as well as in.. studies
just a total failure..
i know that..
maybe many would be happier if i had never existed..
they wouldnt have to be worried?
they wouldnt have to nag?
they wouldnt have to try and give me everything i want...
they wouldnt have to endure my nonsense..

i dont beg for your forgiveness..
but i still hope that should i leave the world one day..
i would still wish that i leave without regrets..
without worries..
but i would want to bring the memories along with me..
into the grave..

I'm tired.. I'm a just a puppet of fate...