The past

hais..
was talking to _______ online just now..
suddenly..
had many thoughts..
thoughts that i may not say..
but it doesn't mean i don't remember them, i don't cherish them..
honestly.. i really miss those times..
rather, the ones that were earlier this year..
im always hanging around you people..
i would tell you my secrets, and you'll tell me yours..
how nice..
always went home together..
crapped around lots..

it has been a long time since i really talked to you.
it has been a long time since i seen you.
it has been a long time since we went home together.
it has been a long time since we spent the whole day messaging.
it has been a long time since we told each other our secrets.
it has been a long time since we spent time at the void deck.
it has been a long time since we crapped with each other.
it has been a long time since we even said a proper hello to each other.

really miss them..
what does our future hold for us?
can we still have those times that i cherish so much deep in my heart..
you may not know this.. but you are the second dearest person to me..
i dote on you more then i dote on them. that's one thing for sure.
well.. that's something you will never know..
i don't know..
i don't know if you have even ever missed those times..
maybe not..
i wish we could have those times back.
i dare not speak.
i dare not ask.

maybe it's about time we should slow down our pace and take a good look at those around us, as well as those who are already fading away.

the past so sweet; the present so bitter; the future?
what does the future hold for us?