&silly boy,
if you want me to accept her, make me.
But, i just have a strong feeling i'm gonna lose you. Though you assured me upteen times. I just feel that way. Sometimes i just don't feel good about it. Maybe i'm overprotection towards you for i dunno why. I know i don't have the right to. But i just can't get that feeling away. I also wanted to look from another side of it,
that you have a ** now, I should be happy for you. But i just can't stop this feeling. Few times while in class or other places, when i think about how i'll miss you if you're always with her, i just feel like crying and hoping you'll tell me time and again that that's not gonna happen. Even when typing this post, i really feel like crying. Even though, when in school, I punch, hit and scream at you why is it her? You don't know how much emotions is running through my mind. Can i tell you i'm just trying to be strong. By doing all that, i can control the tears and tell it to not flow. But yet, when i'm in front of the computer or in bed, i don't have to hide it. Sorry if i'm being mean. Maybe i'm just being too over-protective of this silly boy.

sorry silly boy if i'm mean or if i scream and shout at you)':