physics paper was easyyy:D
not that i studied nothing. But just briefly here and there.
But, tmr's maths paper. It's the one i fear most. And, i dont really need you to call upon me and tell me that it's easy. We all have different capabilities. Don't flaunt it around. Cause you never know when you might fall.

When's my phone coming back to meeeee?

有些东西，失去了，就再也找不回。
拼了命想要晚会一切，对方却一而再，再而三的逃避。
故事的完节篇，真的是这样写的吗?

well oh well oh well. Apparently, we're supposed to be mugging away.
But, i'm not?

Went out to study with Jiaqi at changi airport yesterday. She taught me physics(electricity). Skip Skip. Then we went to ikea. Ate hotdogs and daim cake. Love of our life mans:D

Today, headed down to sony ericsson at simei with clarence to repair my phone. They shifted to the second level. Headed to each a cup. Then went up to hair secret to meet tenghoe, wayne, ngaibok and yihui. All go and cut hair>.<>.< color="#000099">Tmr still got physics paper.
Thursday got maths paper 2.
Friday got POA.
Monday got ss .
Tuesday got Dnt.
Following tuesday got science MCQ.
Following tuesday have 9 am, i get my life back:D


Counting down, 15 more days
It's getting nearer every minute.

alright, 2 written papers and practical down. Many more to come):

Practical was dontwishtotalkmuchaboutit.
Physics was easy. But, i just had to screw myself, by doing the damn gradient wrongly.
I wrote the formulae, Y1-Y2/X1-X2
But, i wrote my numerals upside down.
Chemistry was difficult. I swear.

Chemistry written paper yesterday was a disappointment. Not cause of the paper, but rather, my inability to perform well. I know my stuffs. Just, not enough time? And, i wonder what happened to my brain. CO2. Fuck.

English today was HOKAY!
compo, wrote one word essay instead of my usual expositional writing. Just couldn't get the inspiration to write that.
paper 2 was damn funny. When the papers were given out facing downwards, i was looking at the credits. It's all about cat. So i was there thinking about MEOW.

&&, for people who know me well enough, i like to go around meow-ing randomly at wrong timings. But, i like it that way. And, to think that the comprehension passage was so much of a coincidence.

Home after that.
Mummy's got a vouncher that says free buffet dinner for 2.
Valid at 5 hotels' restaurant. Gonna go kope that voucher from her.
It expires tomorrow anyway. My brother's busy.
I'm just doing her and myself a nice deed:D

Studying tmr though):

With the exchange of glances, forever was what you promised.

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thanks:D

I'm just pure lazy. And, i just don't really feel like blogging. As much as i have truckloads of things to type, laziness gets over me):

Had practical exams. Screwed. Yes, physics was easy. BUTBUTBUT! my gradient was wrong. I knew it was wrong. But i just couldn't figure out until i reach ISH.
DAMN IT)':
Chemistry was difficult!

Night study was alright? Except having to see some people. But, other than that, we walked around the school, and i was in my socks. It was soaked wet! ):


i hope the sparkles never die :X

alright. lessons today was alright. POA was spent doing maths and listening to music:X Did maths in class too! I'm a good girl. Really. After dismissal, went to buy cake! Who else could it be for? Headed home after that. Changed, chatted with piyo. Then went to 201 to buy tibits before going to school for night study. Was rather alright. Then i had this urge to go lie on the parade square and look at the stars. Just wish upon a star for my wishes to come true. Home after that.


I wanted you to be there when i cry.

I have been finding in rhythm, tunes and quotes, so try and describe what I'm feeling. I found the perfect song, the perfect words to describe my feelings. But then, thinking about again. They haven't. Cause the song aren't describing us. A relationship too complex. I never thought of any fairytale endings from us. I really didn't. All i wanted was for everything to stay as it is. Is it a request too hard to fulfill? I have no idea. Really.

我们的关系，难以理解。我们的一切，我没办法遗忘。我们的过错，外人没办法原谅。我们快乐的时光，你不肯让我重新拥有。我们的悲伤，不断的在我心上留下阴影。我的感受，你是否考虑过? 我在你心目中的地位，被人替换了。我们的结局，更本没有画上一个完整的句号。能不能够副研自己说因为这还不是结局?

hand in hand, hooked up arms. What is that supposed to mean? hooked up arms are nothing, hugs mean nothing much too. Perhaps, nothing means much to you. Pretty pretty, you knew. You knew how much ^they^ mean to me. So, could you please, kindly stop hooking up around and like f u c k o f f ?

数不清的泪，
我也哭了好几回。



Meow. Hokay, the studying shittt is like useless.. I swear to god mansxs! it's like wasting my time luh. Cause, i can never concentrate studying in school. Seriously. Played in the rain today. It's been i dont know how long since i did that>.< Slacked alot today. Really):

After school, went to buy candies and lollipops with shekiat and zara. Headed over to library to find ah boy(that person better watch his back mansxs, zara and i are sibei dulan). Gave him a little surprise. gonna rub eggy for him tmr:D

Went back school opposite to find clarence and justin. Slacked there with zara and shekiat. After that, went to tm mac to eat macflurry. After baoshan finally reached, took MRT down to pasir ris, walked over to e-hub!

Alright, got what we wanted and headed home.
The main point of the day is the part after school!

Now that the N level candidates have finished their exams, haoliannnnnnn to us that they holiday liao. GAH! nevermind! they still have another year to go, whereas i graduated:D

GOOD LUCK TO ALL!
O LEVELS START LE):
JIAYOU!

gahh, nothing much today actually?
tomorrow! well oh well~
went to study with zara and layhan on saturday.
Went to popular to get some stuffs before heading down to ikea to get mugs.
Then off to downtown again to study.

Sunday went to study with clarence, justin, tenghoe, yuxiang and zara.
nothing much too:S
headed down to marsiling to collect stuffs. GAH!
so farrrr.
cabbed back to expo to find my mother. >.<

Home(:

能不能够说我还一直挂念着你）：

graduation day today.
nothing much actually, during mother tongue, we kinda slacked at the eco garden and chatted. Maths did some admin stuffs. Then proceeded with the graduation ceremony. Nothing much actually. More towards the end then kind of interesting. Cause like what they say, no graduation ceremony is a graduation without a walkdown memory lane.

Headed down to the canteen for "the last lunch". It was alright i should say? Yum Seng for super long lor! After that, they played a video that they did not play cause it was kinda screwed. It was rather touching i should say. Mr Said's is the funniest. "clap lah". dismissed soon after that.

While deciding where to go, suddenly alot of things went through my mind? Maybe the graduation ceremony would bemuch more memorable if it were in the night?

I suddenly thought. This is supposed to be the last day we're officially seeing one another. I see other people taking out their cameras and taking photos. But, i dont see myself doing so. Neither do i really see my friends doing so. Well, 4 years of friends, we swore to be there for each other. Sisters through it all, Brothers through it all. 4 years, maybe it's really a test of friendship. Through this all, one by one, they left. Thought that we could still go on. But, maybe, just cause i didn't manage to try hard enough to pull us back tgt. Well, plans do backfire. I got stabbed in the end? But, there are those who stood by me.

Everything went back to normal. We just distanced ourself from her. We all know who it is. That was all during sec 3. But when we moved on to sec4, i really dont know what happened. When other see, they might not even know or think that we were once oh-so-close.
Where's all the times when we used to corrugate outside the class, deciding where to go?
Where's all the times when we used to have lunch together?
Where's all the times when we used to take bus together and make so much noise?
Where's all the times when all of us attended parties together?
Where's all the times when chalets keep us bonded?
i have no idea what happened, where did the times go to?

Now, even when we walk past each other, we dont even bother saying hi? 543934, 52687, 94926. Prolly you all are the 3 who're on the furthest end bahs. The 3 of you are still bonded. we all know that. It's just, sometimes, when i wanna talk to you, it just seems kinda weird? know that kind of feeling that, you know this person, you're close with him/her. but yet they feel like a stranger to you.

543934, i know we're still on talking terms. But, you know what, things just dont feel the same, and they dont feel like how it used to feel. Prolly it's after you and - got together? I just feel awkward? Perhaphs i've gotten used to you being a bachelor. And, gotten used that, you'll always be there when we need you. So when you and - got together, i just felt as though something is about to be snatched from me. Then, it seems like we're strangers. We dont really talk, much less understand each other. That day when you sent me home, was the only time when i felt that the old you was back. Maybe cause we finally actually talked? A pity it didn't last long. Still remember that you'd be so observant about stupid things. Just hope that the upcoming chalet's gonna be when i find the old you again. Cause you're someone that i really treasure. Though i have no idea what we, or rather i mean to you. And thanks for the times for making me want to cry then making the smile find it's way back through.

52687, you and i both know what you mean to me. But that seems to be the furthest we can go. Cause things have changed. Not that i dont want things to be how it used to be, rather, it's you who don't want things to be how it used to be. All the times we have had, it'll never be forgotten. Though someone apparently just told me that, some memories no matter how good, are meant to be forgotten. But, i dont think, i want to forget them, the happy and the sad. I want to bury them in my heart. I know i can't forget you, so i'm not gonna make my life miserable by attempting to do so. And i know, what's your purpose of doing these things now. But, avoiding isn't gonna be much of a help. You just end up hurting people. And, giving a thought for others but me. What's this supposed to mean? You take other's feelings into consideration, what about mine? Was i supposed to oblige by it and be a good girl? Sorry, i can't do it. You know me better than anyone else, you know i won't give in. Not when i know things could be way better than this. Not when i know this isn't how the ending is supposed to be. Today, i'm disappointed in you. Cause, though i know what's coming up, i hoped that perhaphs, you'd surprise me. Nevertheless, i know it's not gonna happen. Just waited for a miracle, only to realise that there's nothing and noone to wait for. Just waiting for the day when i can finally let go. But i doubt it's ever gonna come. And i just don't understand why can't we even be like normal friends?

94926, we hadn't really been very very close. Cause you were closer to sengie most of the times. But, still thanks for the memories, though they weren't so great. But i'll always remember the crazy hyper times we had together. the times in kbox, the times we chatted on deepavali under the coconut trees in sentosa talking about life, co and bangalas! Just hope, we'll have one last chance to make the chalet a part of the memorable memories. Nevertheless, i still love you so:D

just hope on day, we can be how it used to be. Cause we never know what beholds for us tomorrow. All i know is, this isn't what i thought we would end up to become. I thought, i thought it was strong enough to withstand obstacles. Maybe i'm wrong? Just hope that you all will prove that, i'm right afterall.

shall blog about the rest of us on another day):/ gonna go emoooo.

hokay, changed my blogskin. If you can recognise, this was an old blogskin. blah, the person who made this skin made amendments to it. the words cahnged from:
Can i just go back to the past? Cos it will take time for me to move on and it hurts.
to:
I'm smiling without you and that means i had already MOVED ON.

Meow! okay, the second quote is much more suitable for the skin. But, i just like the first quote though it doesn't suit. Maybe, maybe one day i'd be able to use it? Gahhh.

就算我什么都不说，
你也应该懂，
应该早已猜到。

alright, i have nothing better to do, so i decided to blog.
Entered my blog using Mozilla Firefox only to find that it's in such a mess. OMG! i didn't know it. cause it looks perfectly fine in IE. GAH!

hmm, what have i been doing for the past few days? i can't remember luh! Anyway, went arcade yesterday with zhaode, kwaiyuen, clarence, zara, baoshan and me! Zara, baoshan and i got 1 big banana, 1 small banana and a panda. Zara didn't get the panda. but she's got a hardcore banana. go look at her blog and you'd know what i mean. Wen ikea for dinner and hyper. just the 3 of us. Cause the rest of them headed home. Zara went lalalala, crazy there. And, yangzhaode took my psp. When we were on the ikea shuttle bus back to tampines, it rained heavily. like, WTF?!

had to go over to zhaode's place to get the psp. Wanted to cab down. But all the taxi stands were full(^%$%$#). Kwaiyuen came down. A long story. We ran from one place to another, trying to get a cab. Ended up cabbing down to zhaode's house, get the psp, send zara home then we went home. Meow.

So, today i had nothing and nowhere to go, thus stonning at home. Sian, school tmr.

Anyway, yes, they just had to oh, spoil our mood. friday was supposed to be our graduation day, then there pops out from the 6th to 14th october. argh, fuck it man. We already arranged our study plans. And, tada, spoiler.

GRRR, i bite.