graduation day today.
nothing much actually, during mother tongue, we kinda slacked at the eco garden and chatted. Maths did some admin stuffs. Then proceeded with the graduation ceremony. Nothing much actually. More towards the end then kind of interesting. Cause like what they say, no graduation ceremony is a graduation without a walkdown memory lane.

Headed down to the canteen for "the last lunch". It was alright i should say? Yum Seng for super long lor! After that, they played a video that they did not play cause it was kinda screwed. It was rather touching i should say. Mr Said's is the funniest. "clap lah". dismissed soon after that.

While deciding where to go, suddenly alot of things went through my mind? Maybe the graduation ceremony would bemuch more memorable if it were in the night?

I suddenly thought. This is supposed to be the last day we're officially seeing one another. I see other people taking out their cameras and taking photos. But, i dont see myself doing so. Neither do i really see my friends doing so. Well, 4 years of friends, we swore to be there for each other. Sisters through it all, Brothers through it all. 4 years, maybe it's really a test of friendship. Through this all, one by one, they left. Thought that we could still go on. But, maybe, just cause i didn't manage to try hard enough to pull us back tgt. Well, plans do backfire. I got stabbed in the end? But, there are those who stood by me.

Everything went back to normal. We just distanced ourself from her. We all know who it is. That was all during sec 3. But when we moved on to sec4, i really dont know what happened. When other see, they might not even know or think that we were once oh-so-close.
Where's all the times when we used to corrugate outside the class, deciding where to go?
Where's all the times when we used to have lunch together?
Where's all the times when we used to take bus together and make so much noise?
Where's all the times when all of us attended parties together?
Where's all the times when chalets keep us bonded?
i have no idea what happened, where did the times go to?

Now, even when we walk past each other, we dont even bother saying hi? 543934, 52687, 94926. Prolly you all are the 3 who're on the furthest end bahs. The 3 of you are still bonded. we all know that. It's just, sometimes, when i wanna talk to you, it just seems kinda weird? know that kind of feeling that, you know this person, you're close with him/her. but yet they feel like a stranger to you.

543934, i know we're still on talking terms. But, you know what, things just dont feel the same, and they dont feel like how it used to feel. Prolly it's after you and - got together? I just feel awkward? Perhaphs i've gotten used to you being a bachelor. And, gotten used that, you'll always be there when we need you. So when you and - got together, i just felt as though something is about to be snatched from me. Then, it seems like we're strangers. We dont really talk, much less understand each other. That day when you sent me home, was the only time when i felt that the old you was back. Maybe cause we finally actually talked? A pity it didn't last long. Still remember that you'd be so observant about stupid things. Just hope that the upcoming chalet's gonna be when i find the old you again. Cause you're someone that i really treasure. Though i have no idea what we, or rather i mean to you. And thanks for the times for making me want to cry then making the smile find it's way back through.

52687, you and i both know what you mean to me. But that seems to be the furthest we can go. Cause things have changed. Not that i dont want things to be how it used to be, rather, it's you who don't want things to be how it used to be. All the times we have had, it'll never be forgotten. Though someone apparently just told me that, some memories no matter how good, are meant to be forgotten. But, i dont think, i want to forget them, the happy and the sad. I want to bury them in my heart. I know i can't forget you, so i'm not gonna make my life miserable by attempting to do so. And i know, what's your purpose of doing these things now. But, avoiding isn't gonna be much of a help. You just end up hurting people. And, giving a thought for others but me. What's this supposed to mean? You take other's feelings into consideration, what about mine? Was i supposed to oblige by it and be a good girl? Sorry, i can't do it. You know me better than anyone else, you know i won't give in. Not when i know things could be way better than this. Not when i know this isn't how the ending is supposed to be. Today, i'm disappointed in you. Cause, though i know what's coming up, i hoped that perhaphs, you'd surprise me. Nevertheless, i know it's not gonna happen. Just waited for a miracle, only to realise that there's nothing and noone to wait for. Just waiting for the day when i can finally let go. But i doubt it's ever gonna come. And i just don't understand why can't we even be like normal friends?

94926, we hadn't really been very very close. Cause you were closer to sengie most of the times. But, still thanks for the memories, though they weren't so great. But i'll always remember the crazy hyper times we had together. the times in kbox, the times we chatted on deepavali under the coconut trees in sentosa talking about life, co and bangalas! Just hope, we'll have one last chance to make the chalet a part of the memorable memories. Nevertheless, i still love you so:D

just hope on day, we can be how it used to be. Cause we never know what beholds for us tomorrow. All i know is, this isn't what i thought we would end up to become. I thought, i thought it was strong enough to withstand obstacles. Maybe i'm wrong? Just hope that you all will prove that, i'm right afterall.

shall blog about the rest of us on another day):/ gonna go emoooo.