Yes, it's like 4am in the morning. I have to head to school to study tomorrow, and yet i'm still awake. All thanks to a dumb university application. Yes yes, i applied. So last minute i know. Quit all the naggings people. It may sound easy, JUST APPLY ONLY LA. But you have no idea how much is there to consider. No idea at all. So quit all the passing remarks.
I really have no idea what i want. Even up till now, i have absolutely no idea. Just gonna apply first. Cause.. apply loh. Other uni(s) can wait. Wait till after my exams okay? Don't come disturb me with it:/
Sometimes, I don't know why am i doing this. What is the reason and rationale behind doing this. Is majoring in this course what i really want? I have absolutely no idea. To many, it seems like my life is a typical Singaporean life. But, i don't know what i want, i see no goals, no future. Is my future only bright if i have that piece of paper? It's not only about what i want. I have to live up to so many expectations. Living up to everyone's expectations. Often i ponder, what i did, isn't what i really want. I'm just doing it cause.. others want me to do so.
Therefore, conclusion? Just live up to their expectations again. It makes the world more peaceful. Maybe that's the direction that i'll head towards. Living expectation.
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