You know its love when you are willing to make yourself miserable to make someone else happy.

Tada, today's the end of my 2 days MC. I didn't keng to get this 2 days MC okay, was really sick. My voice is god damn awesome. I swear it's so freaking sexy! *wink wink*

Okay, honestly, the coughing is killinggg meeee! Every night also can't fall asleep in peace, have to keep coughinggggg till i can wake the whole house up. 

ITP sucks as much as ever, on Tuesday, LO came down to visit us, all of us were whining to him about how much we're suffering, begging him to take us back. {it's something that's i-m-p-o-s-s-i-b-l-e man): } Alan allowed me to leave early as my voice was god awesome. Headed home via bus 8 to dump my things and went to find cuteboy at 445. Found his twin there too:D Dinner-ed at 445. Had porridge. I was super stupid, i have no idea what got into me, i just pressed the middle of the pepper bottle, pepper poof-ed on my porridge. Mad stupid-.- Janus was busy laughing at me while Clarence was saying "woah, Arina, i didn't know you like pepper this much" -.- Shit you people!

Went to the polyclinic yesterday late morning, waited for an hour plus, ALONE. ): Sadded): Cause Zara was sleeping and Clarence wasn't being nice to accompany me to the doctor-.- ( i've got an awesome boyfriend, i know!) Home and met up with Zara to go get our loots. Met Clarence, Janus and Jiewei after that with some girl, dinner-ed with them, but i didn't eat. Thanks man, 5 persons eating western in front of a sick person. (i've got great friends, i know!) Headed home, ended up eating nothing cause i had no appetite): Drank a little soup so that i can take my medicine. ): Sad life!

Went out with love and Justin today(: Quite an awesomeeee day, dinner with Qi at T1 kopitiam followed by Manpuku! Hees!

The pair of havaianas that Love bought for me, Don't it look familiar? Look back at my August post!

The holes in my lovely bunnie pouch, caused by the Effiel Tower keychain on my keysss.

<3

Medicines hate!

I know the sides look awful): Hur!

Alright, this is exactly how i feel at ITP. Totally. Like Shit):
I'm having a super sexy voice, turning in soon):

I'm currently at work, almost bored to death): Reason why i'm not doing my work is cause i'm being locked outta of office's database, so i can't do anything): Hur!
I'm coughing here like noone's business. Coughing my lungssss out):
Boring, currently in need of an iphone to satisfy my craving for a spare phone. *gian gian*
>.<
This post is super stupid i know, but you do stupid things when you're superrrrr bored and superrrr hungry):

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”

- Marilyn Monroe.

Ohwell, i am a sinner for my mistakes. I changed, too much, for the worst. Sometimes i wish the kind of mistakes that i make are like: i smoke, i swear, i drink too much, i'm a hell-lot-of-crap. But, it's not so superficial. It's more in-depth. I changed. I don't know in what way. The worse thing? I have no idea how to change back. And no-one's here to tell me what went wrong. I'm like an idiot thrown in the dessert without knowing the way out.

But, no doubt. I do realize the the importance of you. I love you, so much more than you can imagine, so much more that you doubt. But sometimes, i feel like you can't see it at all, like as though I hid it all behind an opaque screen. Maybe that's how i feel about you too. I wish it's like that. I wish.

I'm too stupid, so i prolly trust all my friends. At least my clique i mean, so if any of them cheats me, i'mma goner. So please, stay by me. Cause i love you, you all more than anything else in the world. You guys mean the entire universe to me. I hope things never change.

But somehow, everything did. It eventually will.

Love you forever, 

Always do. 

The only reason I don’t respond truthfully when someone asks me what’s wrong is because I know that most of the time people don’t care about my problems and they jsut want to know what’s going on because it satisfies them to know everything that goes on with everyone.

In tumblr you can say, “Follow me back,” to be followed. But in life you can’t just say, “Love me back,” to be loved.

I wish i could do that:\ I have a million things to blog. But when i look at this empty space. My mind goes blank. There's so much i wanna say. So much I wanna write on this space.

While on the bus back to Tampines to meet Zara for dinner, i randomly occurred to me this status that i saw quite awhile ago.

Girls get together with the hope that the guy will change for the better after time. Guys get together with the hope that  the girl never changes. That's the hard truth. It.. Sucks.

I gotta agree. But, what can we do about it? :\
It's about the breaking-up season AGAIN-.- What's a breaking up season?
Every year this period, there's gonna be a large number of people breaking up. This year, the season is back. And i'm afraid that i might join in this season. I hope that i'll never have to join it. Cause it sucks sooooo much):

No, i don't like this feeling at all. The feeling of crying myself to sleep. The urge to cry every now at then, irregardless of where i am. The kind of heartache each time i hear an emotional song or see something that has memories of us. When i was with Zara just now, I think everything was relatively okay, trying hard to fight back some tears. But the moment i opened the door and entered my room, I feel like i'm not gonna be okay. I feel like a paperweight being tied to a rope, at the highest point. Every word you speak, every action you do, is like a wind blowing by me. Making my emotions sway to extreme points. Every hint you drop, is like cutting a few strands off. It's like a living hell. Awaiting your decision as to whether I'll go back into your arms, or i'll go cut to hell, with the rope being cut off instantaneously.
I can't even feel myself anymore :|

I guess i changed too much along the way:\

Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laughs I’m falling apart. Look at me closely and you will see: The girl I am just isn’t me.

Tomorrow is the first day of attachment. Till now, i'm undecided to take a bus or to take a train to ToaPayoh. Okay, i shall stick with MRT for now, cause it seems much safer:S Now it seems like everyone's bombarding me with what to wear for ITP tmr. Okay, i have NO IDEA.

Anyway, i'm annoyed with ITP, ruining my holidaysss): And it sucks cause i won't know how many days i need to work, how many hours a day, what time report work everyday, need work weekend anot, what time end. Okay, you get it. It sucks cause we know nuts about it-.-

Apart from whining about ITP. I think i'm trying to handle a heartache over here. Major heartache, don't ask about it. I have no idea why is this happening.Perhaps i thought too highly about myself in your heart. Maybe I'm really not on the top of your priority list, not even near.

The most memorable people in life will be the friends who loved you when you weren’t very lovable.

-Aidan Chambers

Pool again today! Actually was supposed to meet Layhan at 7. So Zara and i met up at around 5 to go soh at TM, cause watson's is having sale. ( We like damn aunty sia!)
After ZD, Za, Kel, Clar and i met up, Layhan said she could make it. Wts?! Okay, annoyed much. This is probably the last time gonna ask her out. I mean, it's annoying can?!
Supposed to head to Harry's bar, but apparently, change of plans, headed down to Safra to play pool instead. <3 the noodles there! That's the only reason why i like that place. Hees!

Anyways, ECP tmr with Clique! Happy~ Sad that my sotong can't come T.T Peektures tmr!

In the end you’ll see who’s fake, who’s true and who would risk it all for you.

-Tiffany Williams

Ohyes baby! Exams are finally O V E R officially baby! That means i can play all day and party all night! Alright, sad thing, only for 5 days. Effing 5 days. It's okay, i'll try to live it to the fullest!

City Plaza today with Zara, finally get to eat my Arnold's chicken! Yes ah, i ate my brotherrrr's chicky chicken! Then headed to her house to annoy her mummy! Teehees! And then, headed down to want our darling(s) play basketball. It kinda ended not too happily ever after uh, cause some people started playing rough! My poor boy! ): Ohno, it's my poor BOYSSSS! Why play till so rough man! Tsk!

Anyway, kbox tmr with lovelies! (:
Meanwhile, i'm still remembering the classics:

"My hand smells like dog.

You dog.

Bark and i'll help you!

Chhhiiickkkeeeen, damn bastard right! Tsk, that's how my clique is, annoying much!

Looking at this photo totally reminds me of what me and Jason's been doing recently. Going on like: whatthefuck whatthefuck!

It's like cute to the max plus annoying other people to the maximum man!

Some days, what i really need is something simple. Just a gesture, just a simple hug, or perhaps, just a smile. That's all i probably need to make everything better.

Emotionally filled now, No idea how am i supposed to feel.

Happy Valentine's Day!

To my dear boy ( Clarence ) & to all my sweet hearts! ♥

Alright, so it was supposed to be a happy day, but it's the first day of my exams. So "exciting" man! Went down to meet Clarence and his friends at Bugis after my paper, met Qiqi too^.^
Roamed around, pretty much a boring Valentine's Day): Unlike Zara who went for picnic at ECP! *Envy*
I wish for a romantic valentine's day though):

But, it's okay! Makes me H A P P Y just to be able to see that cute boy:D

Studying again tmr): Currently psycho-ing weijie to come down Tamp to study tgt. Hees!
OMG la! Seeing Zara's post and facebook makes me go: 好羡慕哦！Yes, you guys can probably imagine me saying that. LOLOL!
Oh, did i mention that i like this picture alot:D

Just Realised that there's so many places that our clique haven done together before! Though we're already together for so long-.-
1. Picnic
2. Marina Bay Sands
3. Resorts World Sentosa
4. Henderson Wave
5. Marina Barrage
6. Universal Studios Singapore

Actually, i thought of more, but suddenly my brain went blank. Think it's time for me to hit the sheets! (:

You guys definitely will always mean something big to me. 

Wishing upon a miracle for the upcoming exams! Omg la, i seriously feel so screwed up about it. I think i've been playing way too much): Needs to get back on track/ start studying soon? Kinda feel stressful leh! My whole class like most also start studying already?!

Then again, the thing that makes me pretty much sad is that my first paper is actually on Monday (14/2), which is freaking VALENTINE'S DAY! 
FML seriously uh! Sway ttm uh! Anyway, i have absolutely no idea what to get for that dear boy of mine cause i really think that there's nothing i can get for him. I can't possibly out-buy his mummy what!

Time to hit the sheets now! Tata! Will be back probably tomorrow to update about CNY! (:

Suddenly lotsa thoughts dawned upon me just now. In a couple of months, we'll be separated. Not for a while. but probably what seems forever. Yeah, people may say that, you can still keep in touch even though the other person is no longer with you physically. But, let's just face it up alright? You're gonna be half a globe away. When we're about to wake up to go to class/work, you're about to go to rest. You may say that you'll come back. But, when you come back, the most you can stay is only a couple of days. At most, a couple of weeks. That's about it! Right, stay as close as always, I would love to believe these sweet little lies we always tell each other. Deep down, you know it's never gonna happen, it's never gonna be the same. Everything is gonna change in that moment you board the flight. I'm probably expecting a teary goodbye, judging from the fact on how i feel like tearing up right now.

& to you who never knew you meant as much. Seriously, you mean a lot to me. A whole lot more than what you imagined to be. Losing you, it's definitely not the same. No one can replace you. I love how i can whine about anything under the sun to you. How you'll tell me your troubles. I love how i could read what you're thinking. But, the moment i lost the ability to see through your thoughts, i knew i lost you. That's when i kinda lost a part of myself, cause it's so weird without you. You said i could cope and go back to normal, to the period before i met you. But, i doubt i can, cause you mean so much to me.

Sometimes i feel upset and super disappointed that you forsake me because of someone else. I was condemned, not for my own mistake, but for someone's else foolishness. Where i'm not given the chance to prove that our friendship won't be affected by anyone else.

I had so much plans on what to do when i get home.
Like,
1. Continue downloading dream high and transfer it into my itouch so i won't be dead bored during CNY
2. Paint my damn-ed nails.
3. Put my bed sheets.
4. Do up blog.
5. Do BMT.
But, all of it, i only managed to put on my bed sheets. I'm super duper pissed off. _|_

I came home, bathed immediately so i could start doing my things soon. Until some fuck shit started finding trouble with me. Seriously, don't know what the fuck is his problem. Ended up, the whole thing spoiled my mood of doing anything. Fuck.

You called me a bitch, i'm not, but no doubt, you're a motherfucking bastard.
The only words i have for you is:

FUCK OFF, MOTHERFUCKER! The world's a whole lot better place without you!

My wisdom tooth made the area around the gum god damn-ed pain. Seriously, of all time, right before CNY. Great timing. Probably it's a blessing in disguise, don't have to talk so much crap. Plus it gives me reasons why i'm so moody/ grumpy/ unhappy.

Cherish

How true):

THE WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD; WHEN SOMETHING FROM YOUR PAST, RECENT OR LONG AGO, HAUNTS YOU AND IS IN YOUR MIND EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY.

We'd have long forgotten;
These memories will haunt your heart.

One's for me, One's for you.

HAPPY 3 YEARS 8 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY, LOVE! 


You're sick, I'm sick): Both sick):
Get well soon darling^.^


Meeting Sotong at Bugis later to pei her shop shop. I hope Clarence don't ge training and come  join us or go home, cause he's sick and i seriously discourage that you still go for training): But, the fact is, he's as stubborn as a mule, doubt my advice will get into his mind:S


Anyway, just now i met up with Zara to accompany her to CP to see see walk walk. Dinner with Jasmine and mummy(s).


Went up to WTS to accompany them go pay for the KL trip, (how i wish i can go). Dad confirm won't allow one. Then, we were given 2 wooden amulet like thing to write our well wishes and hang on the board, like in those taiwan dramas/temples.


So, we saw this one.. It says:

24hrs msg, to ♥ him 4ever, no quarrels, PSLE results pass

Yes, the main point? She's getting her PSLE this year, she has a boyfriend whom she messages him 24 hours a day. And, she hopes she doesn't quarrel with him.
RIGHT. P6 = 12. What was i doing at 12?!!?!?!?!?!?!


Anyway, dinner @ Pizza Hut. The new year's pizza isn't that awesome): Hawaiian is always the best(Y) ! Followed by movie at 920, The Ghost Must Be Crazy. 
It's quite funny, should go watch! 
heeheee!

That was how i felt. My opinion was not required. Cause irregardless of what i say, the outcome will still be the same. So, it somehow made me feel like, you're not asking me. You're just telling me. Whether or not we're okay with it, you're just going ahead with it. Then, i'm sorry. You can't change the way i feel. But if i'm the only one who feels this way, the problem may lie with me. BUT, when the entire group and others more also feels the same way, perhaps, the problem don't lie with me at all. First impression is important. 

Just wanted to say: You're important to me(:

Don't wish/want to lose you to some girl that comes along the way. But if i eventually lose you, maybe that's all our relationship is able to withstand. Then, i'm pretty much speechless. I mean, what more can i say?! ):

2011

This year don't seem to be a very good year:S

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANUS!

Omg, can't believe that i already have friends turning 19, i thought most of us just turned 18?!

Anyway, we had a chalet to celebrate his birthday. It wasn't as fun, i have no idea why uh. But then, it's yet another memory of ours(:

Pictures!

JIAQI!

New workers.

She look like some mad woman who's drunk>.<

Us:D

The Prince(s) who are being served.

OMG, just look at the purple flames!

KZJA

Sambal Prawns, new love!

Froggy, time to eat stingray!

See, play play play! Tsk!

Poor maid life

Weiseong with my present:D

Birthday Cake for Janus.

We borrowed his cake to, celebrate ppl's birthday?

Happy Belated Birthday PeiYun! :D

Chivas for this time(:

My eyes look weird! O.O

Okay, the actual birthday boy(:

Love!

Love this clique, and everyone of you(:

There ain't no other people who can replace you guys(: