does anyone realise how disappointed i am?
i don't know what's with all these things that are happening around me.
well, this is the longest time that we "quarrelled" right?
there hasn't been anytime that is longer than this.

i know that i was at wrong for neglecting you.
now i regret it can?
i doubt anyone understands how i feel at all.
i feel so terrible inside.
even so, can you not always ask me to go to him instead?
so is this the punishment that you are giving me?
the punishment for neglecting you.
i almost wished that you could understand how i feel.
i almost wished that you could forgive me.
i almost wished that you knew.

wished you knew that i doted on you.
wished you knew how much you mean to me.
wished you knew nothing and no one replace you.
wished you knew i will never break the promise.

why can't i go to you instead?
so the answer is because he already dotes on me.
and do u really no longer don't dote on me anymore?
i don't wanna guess or hear lies anymore.
i wan you to say it right in my face. but i'm afraid that might not be able to take it.
why can't we go back to how we used to be like?
why can't we?
so, this is how fragile we are?

know what she told me about it?
she told me i was jealous.jealous of you and the Her.
know what she told me about too?
she told me you are jealous too. jealous of me and him being too close.
thats what she thinks.
so, what are you actually thinking?
i want to hear you say them.

if you wanna know mine, fine.
i would dare to say that, i'm jealous of her.
i don't know why.
so, what about you?
do you have any freaking idea that, just a phrase from you.
and it can inflict many scars? i doubt you know that.

why don't you tell me everything? everything that is bothering us now. maybe not us. just me.
perhaps it isn't even affecting you in any way.