okay..

it has been pretty long since i uploaded pics here uh..

so i shall just upload afew today.

13 jan: at starbucks slacking(:

21feb: lena tries to bite me): aww!

4th mar: celebrate da jie and weiquan's birthday(:

23feb: original slice of cake (mine)

23feb: cake after one bite (sengie)

23feb: cake halfway eaten (jessie)

23feb: cake finishing (jiaqi!)

5th mar: jiejie outside bedok interchange

5th mar: jan.sen.yan

5th mar: yan.jan

21th feb: lena's birthday cake(:

6th mar: shan.jie.sen at kfc

6th mar: the retarded faces =S

6th mar: sen.jie

12th mar: me &sen at marina kbox.

12th mar: bleh! xP

12th mar: bugs bunny tooth(:

10th mar: these roses to pray to you.

10th mar: roland restaurant.

14th mar: high class sharks' fin"

lols..

more to come in the future.

(:

hmms..
didn't really have a good sleep last night.
thanks to the headache and the flu.

okay..
i woke up at 7am this morning.
thats miracle.
talked to clar for awhile before he went for his chinese tuition.
after that went to watch hana kimi.
i'm still so far behind.
what the hell.

okays.
meet clar at2o1.
went over to jieweijiejie house.
supposed to do chinese.
but...
they ended up playing dota.
and i ended up talking to jiaqi on the phone.
but janus and clarence took away the phone.
they refused to return me.
aww..

i began screaming and shouting for jiaqi.
tried to go over janus's side to get the phone back but failed terribly.
cause clarence dun wan let me go over.
sad larh.

they only returned me my phone after 30mins.
but as soon as jiaqi call back again they took away the phone.
what the hell!
i began screaming and shouting again.
until finally they returned me my phone.
so i went next door and talk to jiaqi.
my headache and fever came back again.
zzz..
clarence keep on come over and make those obscene sounds to jiaqi.
damn dumb.

after that we ordered mac.
yiyan suddenly came out of the room with the scooter.
super funny.
i mean.. where people use the scooter around the whole house one?
after the mac delivery came, ate.
and baoshan came over.
we slacked for awhile.

clarence, jiewei and me went to the kitchen to open red wine.
after that we went to play mahjong!
after playing 1 round, see them play 1 round.
then i went down and fetch jiaqi.
jiewei accompanied me down.

came up and watch them play for 2 rounds.
then i played also.
i won 2 rounds.
hahas..
was super hyper.
but 1 of them was zha hu!
ahhh... wth.
nevermind.
heng never play money.
yiyan left earlier than us..
T.T

after playing then we left jiewei's house.
janus, clarence, me and jiaqi sent baoshan home.
then after that we went to have our dinner at kfc.
the food is like uncooked lors.

after the 3 of them finish eating, they started playing.
i was super jialat.
cause i haven finish eating.
and what they did was argh.
it can ruin your appetite.

this is what they did..


would you like to taste it?
"high class sharks' fin"
consists of:
1. lots of chilli sauce
2. ice
3. a little ice lemon tea
4. lemon
5. tissue paper
6. straw
7. vegetables.
8. water
9. cheese

disgusting right?
initially it looked like sharks' fin.
clarence said that.
after they added certain things inside.
it looks totally....
nevermind.

they actually shake it alot of time u know!
they close the cover,
use serviettes to hold the things and shake.

we quickly run away after the cleaner wanna come and clean.
lols.
to prevent a repetition of what happen at macdonalds.

after that then we went home already.
sian-ed.
and.. we didn't do the chinese at all.

talked on the phone with jiaqi until 1am.
then she went to sleep.
i after to sleep soon after that.

oh..
i'm oh-so-sickly now..

had a headache when i woke up this morning.
but i thought nothing of it.

when down for lunch with jasmine and jason.
after that went to the void deck nearby play badminton cause it was raining outside.
after awhile we decided to go to the outdoor court to play.
it wasn't raining already.

after we played for about 5mins,
it started to drizzle and the sun was shinning brightly.
we were thinking since already get wet abit already.
then might as well just play larh.

but after we finish playing then we slack slack abit.
then i started to get headache again.
a super ultra pain one.
then my forhead and neck and body very hot, but my hands and legs super cold.
jasmine treated us drink.
cause she lost the game.
not badminton larh.

after the drink we went home.
supposed to go home and bath then meet again.
but my whole body just feels so weak, and i'm having a freaking headache and fever.
so i'm just gonna stay at home and be guai hai zi.

don't ask me why i can still use the computer.
i was because got things to do.
:(( i'm sick.

i wish i can just fucking hell die now.
we are already not as close as before.
looks like the arguement will only make things worser than ever.
hais.

and i fucking hate myself now.
and i realise it's all my fault.

i wasn't there when you needed me,
i encouraged you to like him back. cause i thought he would be better than the other guy.
never did i expect such things to happen too.
maybe i shouldn't say a thing.

it's all my fault that i can't make out what you are thinking.
i didn't know you are so tired of it.
no.
i didn't know you are really so sick and tired of it.
i admit that i was in the wrong for scolding you.
but i don't mean a single thing.

i know it's all my fault.
i attitude you, but it became your fault.
i'm sorry.
you forget what to say, it become your fault.
i'm sorry.
i ask you go msg just cause u typed a msg, it become your fault.
i'm sorry.

i don't even mean what i said to you yesterday.
what wrong with me man.
so, i know it all now.
it all should be my fault to start with.
it shouldn't even be anyone else's fault.

you want me to tell you.
you say i'm unhappy.
and since thats the case, i should tell you.
but have you thought why is it that i'm unhappy?
cause i think i need you.
so can you fucking hell stop letting go?
why can't it be how it used to be?

i spent the whole night thinking and
fell asleep with these tears on my cheeks.
i realised.
i don't have an answer to anything.
i don't know what to do.
i'm totally lost.

so..
can you tell me what you wanna do?
if you really wanna leave.
if that's really what you want to do,
just tell me.
i won't be as cruel to hold you back.
but all i can do is to HOPE that you wouldn't leave.

don't leave. cause i know very well that i need you..

i jus remembered what happened yesterday night.
i was on the phone with clarence.
and i got fooled by him for 15 times.

i told him..
i shall try not to scold any vulgarities.
and he started trying to catch me scolding.
zzz.

and.. i got fooled by him by huh-ing.
he made me huh many many times.
longest record, *31 huhs.

meanass.
-.-

eventually, i told him, i'm not gonna try not to scold vulgarities already.
it's difficult.
cause i keep saying what the fuck?
zzz..

okays..
haven got the time to blog thanks to my brother who is always on the computer.
yeaps..

SATURDAY
hmms..
went for the homecoming dinner.
meet lena and baoshan at 12.
went to takashimaya for kinokuniya.
=)

we were in kinokuniya for about an hour plus?
helped lena look for books.
before we were about to leave,
i saw the BOOK OF ANSWERS

so..
started to try it out.
just for the fun of it..
end up baoshan also started looking at it too.
we asked about certain things.
the answers are really damn freaky lah.
they seem to feel answer to your questions.
then me and shan got this answer..
ask your mother and ask your father

after that, we went to eat.
and after that,
took mrt back to school.
cause need to report in school by 3.45
we don't need to wear blazers!

we reached roland resturant at about 4.15
-.-'''
dinner was rather lame.
we did ushering.
then sengie and i had to sell roses.
like what the hell!
but the profit was rather okay lehs.

when the dinner was about to end,
shazlin started to get disgusting..
zzz..
the take a cup, fill it with roses petals, and fill it with water.
it's nice.
but after that, they started using the straw and poke it.
until the get roses water..
-.-
disgusting.

after the dinner,
jess, lennie, jan, shan, clar and me went to princess mac.
ate macflurry.
then after that we took the last 18.
went home.
reached home at almost 1.
slept at 3+
zzz..

TODAY
hmms.
was supposed to meet sengie at 12.
but i woke up at 11.51
den she keep on calling and rush me.
make me go gan chiong.
ate yoshinoya.
waited for clar to come down.

den sengie started to kisiao.
she keep looking at the aquarium.
den comment about how cute those fishes look like.
then after that we went up.

and.. something super embarrassing happened.
we were at the converse fair dere.
then this was what sengie did..
sengie: shan. see this black shoe. can get it from minsan's daddy shop for $10.
and it's selling for $39 here. what the hell! *throws the shoe back
salesman: excuse me.. may i help you?
sengie: *stares at the salesman, give the peace sign, walks away.
salesman: *looks at sengie with the err.. look.

clar faster walk out of the fair.
i was laughing my way out.
den after that clar keep trying to avoid standing close to sengie.

after that sengie got obsessed with some wugui.
den we tried dragging her away.
den she says she will leave after the wugui drop into the water.
den the tortoise keep on never jump.
dne when she look away den it jumped into the water.
HAHA!
clar and i saw..
but.. sengie, you are not fated to see it jump into the water lah.

then we went to but takopachi.
sengie and i ate bacon and cheese.
clar ate octopus.
sengie and i got siaosiao over the thingy on top of the ball ball.
after that sengie went to buy her hairband.
den we went cheers to buy my lollipop.
me and sengie took cab to marina square for kbox.
clar went to school.

this is the first time that i go kbox then have nothing much to sing.
then first time that we leave so much earlier.

after that went home.
wanted to ask clar come up pei me mummum dinner.
but.. after i bath finish then he call me say finish volleyball..
zzz..

nevermind.

oh man..
today is such a boring day.
can't go out at all.
cause my dad didn't bring his house key.
-.-''

woke up at 10.30 plus.
that was a miracle man.
so early..

slacked around and then went 2o1 eat with shan.
after eating then she come my house
i wanted to go my house downstairs do homework.
but my dad say cannot.
so no choice lors.

so.. she came and..
yes.
in the end.
i help her do her english comprehension.
so damn easy can.
wahlao.

slack slack and slack.
and.. the boring day passed.
now it's night time already.
tmr going out..
yay!

but!
tmr need go school.
and i didn't know we have to wear blazers like until just?
what the hell!

today is just. yet another day.
i'm counting down to the march holidays.
went to school as usual.
and.
i forgot to bring my damn wallet.

first 2 lessons had poa.
ms wong came up for about less than 10 mins only then she went down.
cause she came in super late.
next was pe.
did some lame passing of chairs.
then help mr halim to arrange the chairs.
then recess already.

i was just unhappy about certain things lar.
but, i was fine after recess already.
we saw our marks for combined sci also.
it's a miracle i passed.
:))

after school i got super pissed.
and then damn sway.
we placed our books under the railing there.
then we accidentally pushed it and it all fell 4levels down.
jus to sway ms ***** saw us picking up the books.
then she asked us what happened.
then some people go say
other people throw the books down.
wth?!
dun extra la.

after that den i damn dulan already
my books are all spoiled.
and some people have to come and provoke me.
damn it.
went to 3a2 find shan and clar.
wen to mac with shan, sen, jan, yan, jie, clar

got pissed while on the way there to find out about something.
and i got super angry.
i just don't feel like talking.
shall not elaborate.
it just makes me angry.

they were supposed to go study amaths.
but ended up folding hearts with straws.
thanks to baoshan.
-_-'''

slacked awhile only.
then leave already.
before mac, we got kinda scolded by the cleaner aunty for wasting straws.
i'm not involved.
but yiyan was.
and.. very clever.
first one to walk away.

after that then go home already.
:)
nothing much today.

argh. damn it..
everytime i wanna blog, my brother wanna use.
so..
just a short post.
went kfc to slack and to wait for sen jus now.
i was with shan, clar and jiejie.
clar was doing his amaths.
jiejie was teaching him.
shan was reading vampire knight.
i got nothing to do.
slack den after shan finished the book.
i lied on the table.
wanting to rest for awhile.
fell asleep.
shan fell asleep too.

i could hear noises.
but jus can't wake up.
until clar came beside me and then shake my head.
argh.
i wake up.
kena shocked that he suddenly shake my head when i sleeping sia.
after that den abit attitude de..
but wasn't angry or what larhs.
it's just that i will attitude attitude like that.
shan woke up too.

we slack slack awhile.
den go buy food eat.
after slacking and joking ard.
me, sengie and jiejie took some pics.
shall upload pictures another day.
i 've got lots of them.
hahas!

we then took 28 home.
got bullied by clar they all again.
hurhur!
so kelian..

gtg.
shall blog another day when i'm home early.
:)

even if i don't show it, it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

oh.. okay.
i just remembered what happened on the 24th.
yeaps.
it's the first time that our FAM can go out together with everyone present.
hmms.
clar arrived in the afternoon.
we played cards.
then a while of mahjong.
after that, jan came!
soon after was yan then jiejie.

okay.
in the night, at about 9+,
we all took 29 and went to tm.
the bus journey was a horrible one.
i was tortured by the guy thanks to the word, "hi 5!"
zzz..
my hair got messed up like siao.

we went to watch THE EPIC MOVIE.
hahas!
funny movie.
they said it was some sexual humor.
but in fact, it is like.
almost the whole show is sexual humour lors.

after the show then yiyan have to go back le.
sobs!
the rest of us went back to lena's hse.
played blanket party.
i got sabotaged too.

after that, jiaqi and jessie went to sleep:)
me, shan, sen, len, jan, clar,jie went to playground.
jan drank tiger beer,
len didn't drink at all.
jie and i drank vodka.
the rest of them drank barcadi breezer:)
sen's face went all red.

went back and soon fell asleep pretty soon.
i sent clar out to the main road at about 2.3 like that.
jiejie went back at 6+ almost 7.
jan went back at 10+ about 11.
shan and i took a taxi and went back at 12+
jessie's dad sent jessie and jiaqi back.

lalalicious.

u wanna know what i'm unhappy about?
okay fine.
i'll tell you everything.

i haven't even been happy since the beginning of the year.
except for certain occasions.

i feel that you dote on them more than on me.
i don't know why, but it feels that way.
i feel that you are closer to her now.
i just feel that i don't mean anything to you.

right.
true enough,
i talk on the phone with the both of you.
but, i know very well now, who i dote on more.
i know who means more to me.
not that i don't care about him.
i care of both, alot.
but it's just different.
sometimes, no matter how much i teng him, it can't be compared to yours.
i know that hurting whichever will make me more xintong.

why didn't i tell you?
cause you weren't there when i needed you.
you were somewhere else msg-ing or with someone else.
then when i wanna tell you, there is hardly the chance.

sometimes i really don't wanna hear anymore of these promises.
simply cause you all don't always seem to keep them.
they are just like words that come out of your mouth without thinking.

you promised to be there for me always. and also never leave me.
that's the latest promise.
that's the promise that you told me just that day.
but, know what?
i don't feel you there anymore.
it seems like you were only there that night.
then when i wake up the next day, things return back to square one.
back to how it was before then.
seems to me that you don't even remember the promise.

i really feel that i mean of nothing to you at all.
there isn't a place for me to exist.
the feeling just sucks.

if you can't read this post.
i really don't know how to tell you already.
this isn't all that i've got to say.
there is more to come.

now that i've told you mine,
will you tell me yours?
honestly, i don't think so.

all i want now, is some assurance.
i don't wanna make anymore assumptions.

ni dao di hai teng wo mah?
will you really promise to be there for me always. and never leave?
i hope this to be the last time i'm asking it.

oh man!
clarence is such a mean brother.
hmph!

wahlao.
and then like so don't trust me like that.
fine.

oh gosh.
it has been like so long since i blogged!
and.. yes.. many things happened.
but.. i couldn't blog as my comp crashed.
awww...
it's kinda fine already.

shall blog about to events that happened recently.
21th FEB.
yeah.
it's my dear lennnie birthday.
and and.
also her granny's 80th chinese birthday.

so, a dinner was held to celebrate and the raffles town club.
we had school as usual on that day.
jus that the whole school was released early on that day cause the o'lvl results were good.
after school.
went home.
bath and prepared everything.

meet shan then jessie dad come and fetch us to go lennie's house with jan, qi,& jess.
waited for lena then after that her dad sent us to the club.
nice place uh.
there was a room for all of us.
we thought it was just like a normal room like study place lar.
it turned out to be like a hotel room.
-_-'''

okay.
slacked around.
lena cut her cake.
nice cake.
yummy.

went to look around the club.
finally settled down at the snooker room.
as expected.
played till it was time to go to the dinner lors.
at first, those going for the dinner was only 8 of us.
but clarence could make it last minute.
so.. yeahs.
he went as well.
so only sengie wasn't there.

this was how we sat.
(clockwise)
len's dad, mum, yan, clar, me, qi, jess, shan, len, jie, jan.
hahas!

clarence forced me to eat things that i never even eat before!
just with that stupid phrase.
we drank.
butbut.
yeahs.
whatever. we are underage

went home at 11 plus.
jiejie, yan, shan and me took one taxi.
jan, clar, qi, jess took the other taxi.
while our taxi was very noisy, the other taxi wasn't.
ours is totally noisy.
i think the taxi driver canot tahan us also lors!

i remembered some stupid things at the dinner.
1. jiejie didn't know to play snooker de! i thought he know how to.
2. shan had problem walking with heels. and the boys keep disiao-ing her.
3. i was putting my handon clar's lap throughout the dinner. cause he qiao his leg.
4. lennie told her mum all our nick names.
5. clar's way of making me eating those things : "must eat! lena's birthday leh! must give face! eat.."

zzz.
okays.
my bro wanna use the comp.
shall blog about the other event on another day..
hehe!

are promises made to be for people to break?
argh.
whatever.
the promises that you used to make.
they seem to be broken.
i thought you would keep it till the end.
and the worse thing is.
you wanna teach me,
how to break the promises that i used to lay.

i will never break the promise.
but it seems that the promise is gone,
i guess you forgot about it.
perhaphs it was just a moment of folly.
i still hold onto the hope that you will remember.

so. tell me that you still remember, will you?

oh wells.
today's CNY celebration was ookkaayy lar.
we were supposed to report at 6.45 but we reach at 7.15.
opps. sorry.

hmms.
i can say, it's a super sway day for me.
i sprained my ankle, almost tripped and fell many times.
the ankle doesn't hurt as much as last time.
abit nia. but i somehow so making until it.
nevermind.

after the celebration and everything, went bugis.
with jiaqi, lena, jessie, baoshan, shaun & janus
but jessie went off soon after that.
we went to eat pastamania.
hahas.
shopped for pressie also.
well..
no interesting *ahem ahem*[s].

well,
when we were going home, the fun kinda starts larhs.
but they keep making me sia.
so baaddd!
they keep suan-ing me about the hippo thingy sia.
bleh-!

we laughed like peng lors.

janus: - hippo with four square teeth and a wobbly tongue.
-arina says that.....
shaun: ehhs. i thought u must go back mandai zoo.

what the hell man. mean people.
nevertheless. it did wake shan up from her sian-ness i guess.
hahas.

wednesday, it's approaching.

how dumb..
i'm forced to change to blogger beta like sengie they all.
i don't like lors.

nevermind.
firstly.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

okays.
yesterday after co, went to ntuc with jiaqi to buy chocolates for FAM.
met up with clarence, jiewei and janus.
jiaqi went back first.
the rest of us went mac slack slack.
my tortoise was so poor thing.
it was made to do things it didn't want.
and i feel cheated by clarence.

cause they took my torto and say they throw it on the floor.
then i tried finding.
but cannot find.
and i was so tired that i believed what they say.
nevermind.
when me and cla waiting for bus 38 that time,
hee keep saying to me.
don't worry larhs.
by the time u go home u will find it the.
i use magic and send to your house liao.

of course i was that dumb to believe that phrase.
ended up when i reached home and call him.
he told me where it was hidden.
and i feel super dumb lors.
it was inside the ntuc plastic bag with the chocolates in it.
i was like so what-the-hell.

i feel cheated!
hurhur.

and..
happy birthday to jingkai!
if he sees this.

NOW..
today..
had CNY rehearsal after school today.
super sian.
actually i also dunno is do what de.
i only know we were waiting waiting and still waiting for nothing.

after that went shopping with jiaqi and jessie.
hahas.
happy shopping.
happy threesome day.

okay.. shall stop here.
i haven done a single homework.
byee.

oh man..
i'm like so bored now.
was at home all day long.
except for going tm for a while only larh.
sian-ed.

hmms.
it seems like i haven do alot of things man.
but i don't feel like doing anything.
whatever.

i think i'm going back to emo again.

okay. i haven't been blogging for a long time.
thanks to my computer.
it's in a terrible condition.
sometimes can on, sometimes cannot on.

just remembered what happened on tuesday.
i went to meet clarence and jiewei at 2o1 mac after co.
slacked around.
stupid people.
ask me buy fries for him.
make me go down just to buy a damn fries for him.
baka!

today was okay lar.
had chinese.
supposed to have test.
but was postponed.
had to do the reflection after reading the article.
i stupid hate doing chinese work lors.
idiot sia.

after that was chemistry.
supposed to have test also.
but there was fire drill.
hahas.
no lar.
still have test in the second period.
test was okay.
it is the only test i'm confident in.
the rest, i'm not.

maths.
finished up the 2 remaining laws for indices.

english.
had english ca1.
factual recount.
lame shit.

after school ate in school with jiaqi.
crapped around with clarence, jiewei and yiyan.

went out with jiaqi.
was supposed to go shopping but we ended up slacking in mos burger at bugis.
we went to plaza singapura after that.
instead of seeing things, we went to burger king to slack again.

ahhh..
so lame.

okay.
nevermind.
wasn't in a very good mood these few days.
How?

whats wrong with blogger anyways?
or is it just my blogger only?
why cannot change font type and font colour de?

all i wanted was for you to CARE

oh.. today was so crap.
school was okay lar.
but quite a number of people didn't come.
my class got 4 never come.
3e4 almost half the class not dere.
cool:)

this was what happened after school.
me, jiaqi, jessie and clarence went to eastpoint to eat.
i went out the damn escalator and then the rest of them was still downstairs.
clarence and his stupid idea of pangseh-ing me.
keep on disiao me.
they refused to come up.
despite me shouting for them upstairs.

when we finally went to the food court, the security guard came out to us.
super malu lar.
damn it malu.
shall not elaborate on it.
this kind of things only happen when we are with clarence.
so paiseh sia.

nevermind.
tmr got ptm.
sian-ed.