it has been 6 months.
yet i'm still struggling with this feeling.
this feeling of not knowing what to do, what to say in order to clear this awkwardness.
doubt anyone can help me in this.
even if there is someone who can help me, i guess there'll only be that one person.

010807(:

wee hee hee!
my birthday lahh.
school was rather okay.
dnt was crap as usual.
after school had investiture for a little while then had to go back for dnt course until 4.30

how pathetis right?
birthday also need go course, can't even go out immediately after school.
nevermind.

after that went to bugis to meet jasmine with him.
slacked for 1 and a half hours waiting for jasmine.
we walked around initially.
but i got bored out eventually cause i was super tired.
jasmine finally arrived at 6.30

went to swensens.
we ordered 4 main courses.
cause 4 main courses only cost the price of 3.
hahas!

then we had 1 birthday firehouse.
wee~
thank you jasmine jiejie

after that roamed around for awhile then go take mrt go home already.
next day still got school.
zzz.

anyways; received these for my birthday.
not alot, but they were my favourite~
and, i'm contented already(:

1. me-to-you bear from lennie, jessie and sengie.
2. newurbanmale sling bag from him.
3. myuk latest design pencil box for jason.
4. myuk latest design hanhphone pouch from him.
5. a box of ferrero rocher from daddy.
6. a swensens treat from jasmine jiejie.
7. a pizza hut treat from daddy.
8. a wallet from mummy.
9. a present from kaijing.

haha!
super duper contented with the bag.
i mean lah!
i have been wishing and hoping for NUM things for months.
i really did know about the brand lah.
unlike some people who only monkey see monkey want.

i was pretty dumb lah.
jasmine jiejie wanted to buy havannais for me for birthday present.
i told her nevermind.
it's okay lah.
actually i really really want it very very much.
but, to think back, it's not very practical isn't it?
the design is on the base where you place your leg on.
if you wear it too often, the design goes off.
and there goes your 49.90
i think i'd prefer something more practical or something that can last longer.
if i really want that, i'll buy it myself when i work during the holidays.
i swear i'd earn my own money and use my hard earned money to buy myself that to use my parent's money.
like that then i'll treasure it more.

*sengie, don't pin too high hopes that i might get those for you.
it depends. really(:
you didn't give me that, why i must give you that ah?!
lols!

pending treats from:
1. xiao clarence, sakae sushi.
2. andrew erzi, sakae sushi.
3. jiaqi*my dearest*, sakura.

oh, just realised that all the restaurant name start with an 'S'

well, really like all my present!
muahahah~
thanks to all~!!!

i love all of you!

well oh well,

5 more nice and sweet 14 years old hours~
(:

well, haven't been blogging for quite a longgg time already lah.
but, shall type a post for my dearest sengie eh..

hey girl, you'll turn 15 in a few months too okay!
so don't complain.
anyways, though we always quarrel, i still really treat you as my very very best friend.
true may be that i neglected you for the past few months but you're really my very very bestie. also, among the people in FAM, i think i quarrel the most with you before bah?
however, you're also the one whereby i get over it very soon.
one moment we may be quarrelling but the next moment we'll still be hyper as ever.
I really treasure this friendship and hope it'll last even after we graduate okay?
it's really nice that i can have a friend like you.
it's not often where we can meet friends like you right?

however, haven't been very hyper with you for quite sometime eh?
i still remember those times when we can go really crazy.
Still, friends forever~
okay?
(:

hmms..
won't be blogging from the 4th to 11th.
cause i'll be in melbourne.

lots of things still undone.
i haven't done te melbourne homework, packing my clothes.
i take a super long time to pack my bag lah.
and i'm not really sure how to do the homework.
so, i'm dead lah..

leaving on monday 9pm flight.
have to reach airport by 6.30
check in at 7.

will be back on the 11th.
about 5.45 will reach singapore already.

gonna miss my computer lots.
and my parents refuse to let me bring my handphone.
so, i'll miss my phone even more lah.

shall blog again another day bah..

fuck lah.

i don't know what the fuck you're uphappy about lor.
it's my problem right?
to say it in a mean way, it's none of your business.

why did i start treating you so coldly?
you ask yourself that question.
who was it that who started treating me coldly first.
who was that was who always scold me for every single thing on earth even if it has nothing to do with me at all.

i'll decide what to do myself.
i don't need you to give so much comment behind my back.
if you're so unhappy about it, tell me face to face lah.
what's the point of telling others behind my back?

i know it was my entirely my fault about what happened that day.
i don't deny that too.
i feel bad too.
i was guilty about it.

she is still afterall my 3 years friends.
i learnt my lesson that day already.
she is not my back up friend.
she is my bestie.
i don't care what you all say.
you all may say that i don't look like i treat her my best friend.
but i know i do.

fucking fuck off any mind your own business.

well oh well..
it has been a long long time since i blogged.
so, decided to blog now since i'm pretty free now..
try to blog more often also.

hmms..
many things happened lah..
i can't remember everything now.
but oh..
it's holiday already.
my results are a total horrid.
all c5, c6(s)
1 e8 and my mum is already screaming.
nevertheless, i got an a1.
okay, it's better than none.

hmms.. going to melbourne on the 4th to 11th.
yay!
however, there's council camp on the 19,20,21.
-.-
nevermind.
this year is for us to enjoy yeah.

friday was crap lah..
went to school for hours.
then after school had meeting for the sl(s) going to melbourne.
the meeting for pretty long.
went to council room to choose our blazers.
feel like taking the blazer for dry cleaning leh.

after that, mother came for ptc at 4.
whatever man.

at night, went expo with mum, aunty rosie and jasmine.
bought ICE-CREAM to stock up in the fridge(:
yay!

saturday was alright.
jessie, shan and i went to mac to try and study.
but we ended up playing with xiao qing qing.
shall upload the pics later if possible.
horrible people.
torturing my xiao qing qing.
so ke lian..

went home to change after that and went to club.
went to snooker room to find jason, jiejie and michelle.. only to find out that mindy was there as well.
played for awhile.
i laughed till i got a slight sore throat.
was really funny and dumb man.

after that, i played with shanshan.
she scored the black ball.
i win! yay.
but i followed her footsteps in the next round.
scored the black ball too.
what the hell.
nevermind.

after that, we went to play bowling.
first round was okay.
second round was no way.
my scored was like shyt.

after playing and playing and playing in the arcade too,
we went to chomp chomp to makan.
went home by cab after that.
jessie, me and jiejie took one cab.
jason, michelle, mindy and baoshan took another cabby.
yay!

i reached home at 1.45
quite early already lah.
chatted on the phone and dozed off at 3.21
-.-

yesterday, meet jiejie and went raffles city to have lunch buffet together with aunty rosie and some others.
after that we went shop shop.
jiejie saw a few items.
they are the kind of.. wahlao-so-ex-comfirm-must-ask-mother-come kind of clothes.
after that, the rest of them went home
we went to buy hagen dasz ice-cream and went kbox @ suntec.
enjoyed ourselves pretty much until 9.30
went to take mrt home.
i got bullied by some people.
terrible bullied.
first time i lost to her in 14 years.
thanks to a certain someone siding her.
nevermind(:
i'll win back one day.

today is rather crappy.
going jiejie's house later.
get some stuffs.
the thing about me and jiejie is this.
i don't see her means i don't see her for months.
once i see her, i seem to see her everyday.

and, on the 12th or 13th or 14th.
there's an appointment;
my death appointment.
till then.

okays.. shall stop here for now.

oh.. it's has been like 1 alien month and a few alien days since i blogged.
many things happened within this 1 month plus.
good and bad.

okays..
exams period.
kinda sucky larh.
this year timetable they drag until 3 weeks.
somehow, i still have 1 more main paper to go.
unlike, jan, jie, yan, clar &shan.
they finished theirs already
still left with the rest of the FAM.
nevermind.

there is a trip to melbourne coming up.
i wanna go.
but not sure if can yet.
it's on the 3rd to 10th.
going melbourne and canberra.

anyways, chatted with mr leong ytd while waiting for those taking pure paper.
joking only larh. he's quite a nice person out of lessons.

mr leong: *stares at me with those kind of stupid look that he always gives me*
me: ehhs. stare what arh. RAWR!
mr leong: *walks towards me*
me: then i went crazy and said.. i burn your house ar!
mr leong: orh.. next time my house catch fire i know who to suspect already.
mr leong: i don't want bring you to melbourne already.
me: wahlao. you something bao something chou.
mr leong: it's gong bao si chou. i never gong bao si chou.
me: zzz. lalala.
mr leong: okay larh. actually bring you there can lah. never say bring you back what.
me: what the hell. you where can like that treat me! you horrible person.
mr leong: i'll just bring you there. then take your passport, burn your air-ticket.
me: ...
mr leong: oh ya. i'll call the immigration there too. i'll tell them there is an illegal immigrant here.
me: you horrible little thingy. RAWR!

after waiting for them to come down.
then went kfc makan.
after that then i had to chiong home to get the documents for collecting the passport.
jessie came along with me too.

reached ICA building at 4 sharp.
had to queue for 400 over number.
i was like.
wtf.

jessie went to do her ic.
den come down.
after that went up to wait for our number to mine and mummy's passport.
went to eat dinner after that.
then i told mummy i go back with jessie after dinner.
mummy and my aunt went to sim lim i think.

chatted on the mrt back.
did nothing much.
slacked slacked.

&you told me you'll take care of me as long as i don't leave.
yet you aren't even taking good care of yourself. i feel useless.

oh man.
i haven been blogging for quite some time already lah.

thursday
i was super dumb lah.
i was so panicky about my dnt work that i left the house without wearing my contact lenses.
i only realise that when i was at my house downstairs.

school time was boring as usual lah.
ss cannot sms at all.
mrs cross was sitting behind me.
and the lesson of mrs w___ was super ultra boring.
i was trying my best not to sleep.

didn't do anything during dnt.
mr l__ just teach us and talk about structure lors.
cause there was 4 absentees.
since left so little people, i also dunno teach was lah.

after recess was 3 periods of poa.
copied notes.
slack slack.
yay. 3 periods gone.

then was physics lesson.
mdm c____ came to our class to "observe" my class.
damn woman.
make me cannot go sleep.
i was really about to fall asleep during the first period while mr s__ was teaching.
i was "enlightened" dring the second period.
mr leong made me wake by taking zara's 6b pencil and write on my paper.
i had to erase everything.
then he took the pencil away and go wite on other people's paper.
-.-

did nothing much during maths.

after school went to princess to watch mr beab's holiday with sen, qi, jie, yan
something happened on our way there.

after the movie clarence and jessie came down to slack slack with us at princess's mac.
after that we took 28.
clar alighted at 201
jie alighted at his hse there.
jessie and i took till interchange.
andrew send me home.

FRIDAY
meet sengie at 12 plus.
walked around.
bought mini toons sweets.
after that we meet clar, jie and lennie at mrt station.
for once, lena was late.

when we were at the kallag station alrdy,
jiaqi called and told me she can go.
i was like -.-

when we reached plaza singapura,
the tickets for The Number 23 was selling fast.
i used sengie's and lena's e65 and go internet.
hahas.
go see which other threatre to watch.
meanwhile, ask jiaqi to faster come down.
supposingly, vivocity supposed to have.
but when we went down, they say totally sold out already.
wtf?

ended up,
we went to superdog to eat hotdogs.
-.-
i didn't eat.
cause i see the hotdog got alot of tomatoes then i don't wanna eat already.

after that, lena went to find her parents.
the rest of us went to take mrt.
all of us pei sengie alight at bedok.
then we took 28 to jiewei's house.
sengie went home.

jan went to jiewei's house also.
go play mahjong.
had duck rice for dinner.

play until halfway, jiaqi took over my place and play.
for all the times i went to jiwei's house, i always lose.
but jiaqi play only, she win!!!
RAWR!

eneded up, i'm the only one who never WIN at all.
rawr to jiaqi.
went home at 10 plus plus.
we passed by jasmine jiejie house downstairs.
then they keep on disturb me about cockroaches.
then afterthat, really got cockroach come out.
den i wanna run away, clarence dun wan let me run away.
RAWR!.

after that went to the bus stop.
pei clar wait for bus cause his 38 just left.
how sway -.-

reached home at 11.15

SATURDAY
some dumb woman called me early in the morning.
disturb my sleep only.
zzz.

went to mac and meet her.
saw someone else there too.

went there and actually, i didn't study at all.
jan came down too.
we slack slack.
then later that time then we talked about the chalet.
after that went home already.

everytime i decide to let go, something always has to come back and remind me. just how much i cared.

argh.
i just suddenly feel very fan now lors.
about lors of stuffs that i dun even know how to say.
i just wish everything will last. friendship, relationship as well as sisterhood.

well.
many things are happening recently.
but.. whatever lah.
i'm pissed off enough already.

MONDAY
had lessons as usual.
first 4 periods was english and ace.
chinese had test.
don't know how to do lah.
just anyhow do.

afetr that was ss.
it was surprising that i passed my ss test.
then we were released early cause of sl duties.

took 222 there.
sengie and i went to change into sl shirts.
had duty.
blah blah.
was very thirsty.
i was super dumb.
i was having gastrics and i still bought 100plus.

after sl went to kfc to eat with sen, shan, qi, clar, jie.
after that me, shan, jie and jan accompany clar to whitesands buy mouse.
after that we went back to tamp.
took 17.
some dumb boys behind was super noisy.
some people were attituding.
and they look scary):

then jan go ask those boys to talk softer.
say that they very noisy.

after we reach tecc.
clar and jie bought mac to eat.
i slacked there only.
went home at 8 plus.

TUESDAY
hmms.
today geo was okays.
chinese was quite funny larhs.
jiewei very funny.
yiyan very cute.
me and yiyan were talking bout stuffs.
jie was copying answers from others to let us copy(:

yan and i were having small talks.
were talking about it halfway.
then jiewei say.
"wahlao! i treat you so good. then got this kind of small talk then you leave me out. good lor"
hahas.
i told him after that.
dumb jiejie.

after recess was crap.
sucky hell.

after school took 18 with shan.
went to s11 there and makan.
after that went home and bath.
then go down mac again.

meet clar and jie also.
clar was sweating like he just bathed. you better drink more water lah..
hahas.
after that we went in mac.
clar went home soon after.
jie went home at 7.
shan and i stayed until 8 plus.
then we still chitchat at her house downstairs.
talked about really alot of things that is happening recently lors.

shall stop here for now.
my brother come back only then kpkb.
andand.
tmr got sl duty again.
i hope i don't get another headache and gastric again.
but got early release from lessons.
hahas.
so happy(:

gtg.
bye.

lalalas..
i'm now at tecc the mac with jiejie and shan.
clar went back be his guai kia.
go for his dumb tuition.

jiejie was forcing shan to eat fries.
so mean of him.
shan said she can't eat"fry food"
wow!
then her french fries became..
"french fry"
wow!

interesting words.
i swear i won't use them in my compo.
if not comfirm fail.
(:

shan just poked me because of it.
bleh-!
here comes again..
jiejie helps me(:
how nice of him.
he is asking shan not to cry.
bleh-!
like she will cry like that.
i'm saying she is strong okays!
then she gives me that dumb cheeky smile=S
then she beat me for nothing.
wow!

then there are some dumb kids in mac.
most likely sec 1[s] larhs.
blasting music.
quite dumb larhs.

then there is a group of dumb girls from chongzheng primary staring at one another.
so lame.
wow.
i see a tortoise with them.
it must be suffering now.
cause the poor little tortoise have to see those dumb girls eat their french fries.
-.-
jiejie.. at least i'm smarter than them.
i dun mistreat the tortoise like them.
not like janus.
make until my tortoise wan to do "fen sheng shu"
jiaqi baoshan doesn't understand the meaning of that.
she is dumb.

lalalas.
poke again.
all that dumb baoshan knows is to poke people.
no creativity.

wow.
primary kids are reading teenage.

shall end now.
bye.

wah sian sian..
so boring.
now at mac with sengie.
waiting for janus to come down as well.
got nothing to do.

brought the laptop out..
wanted to do chinese de.
but i don't know why i'm not doing.
maybe i'm just too bored.
zzz.

wah sian.
many things happened these few days.
many things to blog.
BUT!
i just saw something just now and it totally ruin my mood.

thats my handphone bill.
wahlaos!
i also don't know why it overshot.
it was NOT supposed to overshot.
and even if it really did, it should be lesser than last month.
BUT! the damn bill came and it was $60 over dollars.
i only saw the back page.
i couldn't find the front page.

how am i gonna survive without my phone?!
wah sian!

people.. don't call or msg my phone.
if there is anything to tell me, call my hse fone.

I never meant the things I said

To make you cry

Can I say I'm sorry

It's hard to forget

And yes I regret

All these mistakes

I don't know why you're leaving Me

But I know you must have your reasons

There's tears in your eyes

I watch as you cry

But it's getting late

Was I invading in on your secrets

Was I too close for comfort

You're pushing me out

When I'm wanting in

What was I just about to discover

When I got too close for comfort

Driving you home

Guess I'll never know

Remember when we scratched our names into the sand

And told me you loved me

But now that I find

That you've changed your mind

I'm lost for words

And everything I feel for you

I wrote down on one piece of paper

The one in your hand

You won't understand

How much it hurts to let you go

Was I invading in on your secrets

Was I too close for comfort

You're pushing me out

When I'm wanting in

What was I just about to discover

I got too close for comfort

Driving you home

Guess I'll never know

All this time you've been telling me lies

Hidden in bags that are under your eyes

And when I asked you I knew I was right

But if you turn your back on me now

When I need you most

But you chose to let me down

Won't you think about what you're about to do to me

And back down...

Was I invading in on your secrets

Was I too close for comfort

You're pushing me out

When I'm wanting in

What was I just about to discover

I got too close for comfort

You're pushing me out

When I'm wanting in

(Yeh yeh yeh)

What was I just about to discover

When I got too close for comfort

Driving you home

I guess I'll never know

does anyone realise how disappointed i am?
i don't know what's with all these things that are happening around me.
well, this is the longest time that we "quarrelled" right?
there hasn't been anytime that is longer than this.

i know that i was at wrong for neglecting you.
now i regret it can?
i doubt anyone understands how i feel at all.
i feel so terrible inside.
even so, can you not always ask me to go to him instead?
so is this the punishment that you are giving me?
the punishment for neglecting you.
i almost wished that you could understand how i feel.
i almost wished that you could forgive me.
i almost wished that you knew.

wished you knew that i doted on you.
wished you knew how much you mean to me.
wished you knew nothing and no one replace you.
wished you knew i will never break the promise.

why can't i go to you instead?
so the answer is because he already dotes on me.
and do u really no longer don't dote on me anymore?
i don't wanna guess or hear lies anymore.
i wan you to say it right in my face. but i'm afraid that might not be able to take it.
why can't we go back to how we used to be like?
why can't we?
so, this is how fragile we are?

know what she told me about it?
she told me i was jealous.jealous of you and the Her.
know what she told me about too?
she told me you are jealous too. jealous of me and him being too close.
thats what she thinks.
so, what are you actually thinking?
i want to hear you say them.

if you wanna know mine, fine.
i would dare to say that, i'm jealous of her.
i don't know why.
so, what about you?
do you have any freaking idea that, just a phrase from you.
and it can inflict many scars? i doubt you know that.

why don't you tell me everything? everything that is bothering us now. maybe not us. just me.
perhaps it isn't even affecting you in any way.

okays.
didn't blog again.
so.. i shall blog now.

monday
it was raining super heavily in the morning.
had to run to school.
too bad, my uniform got all wet.
quite a number of people also.
hahas.
but! i sit under the damn fan in class!
sobsob.
so cold.

after school went to kfc with sengie and shan.
sen and i kopped straws from kfc until we emptied 2 containers.
okays. actually, it's sengie. not me.
i'm innocent.
saw heather and lynn in kfc.
they were watching us laughing away i think.
nevermind.

we went tm after that.
sengie went to collect things.
after that shan and i sent sen to take 67
after that walked to tecc.
talked to shan about alot of things.
these things that have been haunting me for so long.

saw brenda and zara there.
clarence and jessie came to find us after that.
slacked for awhile before going home.
we saw a damn bat.
so we decided to take an alternate route.
hahas.

had a pretty high fever in the night.
and my head hurts like hell.

tuesday
thats today.
my head is spinning and spinning..
lalalas~

after school slacked at 3a2 for quite sometime with shan, clar and jie.
after that went to the bb court near yanyan hse.
before that we went to makan at tampines mart.
it has been super long since i went there okays.

went there after that.
jan arrived soon after that.
they played basketball while me and jessie talked.
then after that they started playing with 2 other guys and RON TAN!

okays.
i am scared of the damn ball coming towards me.
i have always scared.
yet they play until can dribble right infront of me.
RAWR!

pretty scary.
well.
clarence got scratched on his hand.
o.O

after that, we took 291.
went to buy yiyan's prepaid card for him.
i'm a nice sister okays!
otherwise i would have gone home straight, especially when i'm on the damn bus 291.
RAWR!

wanted to pass yan the ppc since he say they were gonna be released soon.
so i waited for awhile.
after that decided to go home already.
jiaqi called me right after i stepped into the house door.
-.-

well.
thats all for today bahs.

actually, i'm having a damn headache again.

tmr gonna have meeting for sec3s.
zzz.
i think i'm gonna go home and sleep after that bahs.
hahas!

yawns!

and i can't stop thinking about what's going on..

oh..
quite some time never blog already lar.
hmms..

WEDNESDAY
i didn't go for the dnt course after school(:
sen,me, qi, lennie, jan, clar, yiyan and ryan took 67 to tampines interchange.
talk about stuffs on the way.
while i pei sengie go nokia care to repair her phone,
the rest went to find space at mac.
settled for the big mac at the interchange.

we talked alot of crap.
they were supposed to have amaths tuition with yiyan de.
ended up yiyan and ryan went home earlier.
clar, qi, lennie and me were talking about perverted XXX stuffs at mac.
while jan and sen were folding hearts.

childrens nowadays arhs.
talk about this kind of things like nobody's business.
we just said everything out. dun care what other people thinks.
we were there laughing until peng.
then jiaqi was doing something that was super obscene.
then i keep on laughing.
then i told clar and lennie.
then they started laughing also.
jiaqi was alittle bit slow.
hahas!

after that pei lena go cs.
then we walked around.
we went 'toys r us' also.
the first thing that they played with was the soft toys.
they placed to toys in the ahem ahem positions.
jan was running around when he knocked into a woman.
it reminds me of the flying ah ma by clar.
lols.

lena was reading her comic.
super engrossed.
then clar and jiaqi started fighting with the piyo piyo hammer.
chasing around each other in the shop.
it is really super embarrassing lors.

after that then i send jiaqi off.
sengie went to pierce another ear hole.
went home after that.
it was raining heavily.

THURSDAY
went to eat at kfc with jiewei, sengie, lena and jessie.
janus came later and we went to jiewei's house.
it was raining heavily.
i got bullied on the bus by janus and jiewei.
mean people.
they threatened me with my phone.
aw..
reached jiewei's house.
obviously didn't do chinese work larhs.

after awhile clarence came.
i didn't know he was coming.
i got bullied by them again.
cause they took my phone again.

this time, they on the song.
then clarence put inside his pe pants.
please lors.
he was wearing long pants.
but he go put inside his pe pants okays!
den he sit down!
ahh!
my phone! my speaker!
after awhile, we went to play mahjong.
starting is clarence keep on losing money.
then play halfway then they realised that they count wrong tai.
play play play until 8.30.

in the end, i lost the most.
jiewei won the most.
most of the time is jiewei and janus win.
zzz.
after that we walked to the bus stop with is pretty near my house.
then clar took 38 home, jessie took 8 home.
jan pei me walk home.

FIRDAY
hmms.
after school went mac with jan, sen, qi and jiejie.
kopped alot of straws(:
sengie keep on smiling to herself.
it makes me and jiaqi want to go crazy.
lalalas.
at about 2.45 jan and jiejie went back school.
sen, qi and me left at 3.
took 67.
sengie can't stop smiling.
jiaqi went home.
sengie and i went tm.
went popular.
looked at things.
then sengie bought things.

after that then i went home already.
but at around 8 plus.
clarence called.
ask me go down tecc slack.
so i agreed lors.
since jiaqi asked me before that too.
got nagged by my mother for that.
cause of stuffs larhs. went down to tecc.
can't find clar and jan at mac.
then i decided to go to the bb court and see see.
they are really there.
they all play until very sweaty lors.
jiaqi came down soon after that too.

janus and clarence used my shirt and wipe their sweat.
then i was like wth?
nevermind.
we went in mac after that.
cause they really sweat until alot.
so thought go inside and cool down.
clarence go and put his shirt on me!
it is so dirty!

after awhile. we saw yanyan!
oh.. our dear yiyan.
lols!
chatted for awhile.
then we went to the bus stop.
clar and qi crossed the bridge to go home.
jan, yan and i slacked at the bus stop for awhile looking at people opposite.
after that they 2 send me to my house downstairs.
cause i need to go home already.

SATURDAY
thats today. did practically nothing.
i woke up at 6.05 then i suddenly remembered that it's saturday.
so went back to sleep.
sleep until 12 plus.
woke up and slack.
then watched 'JUST MY LUCK'
quite lame lar.

slack slack slack.
and i like got alot of homework to do lehs.
sian diao. i think tmr going white sands buy things. anyone wanna go???
and then i think after that i will go tecc find my dearest jiaqi(: and yanyan of course!


some people sound so cute when they are sleeping.
i'm gonna see you sleep one day.
lalalas~
RAWR!

i don't know why..
but i have been feeling very sleepy these few days.
and i will feel like sleeping very often.
even though i'm sleeping earlier now, compared to last time.

wonder how am i gonna ton council camp at this rate..
hais.
and i often feel like crying nowadays.
cause of all these things happening around me.
hais..

oh man..
i got a feeling that i made someone angry today.
but the person says never..
don't really believe though.
nevertheless, still sorry okays?
i promise you that i will take out the straws the next time you ask me okays?
sorry la..
and then, i feel so guilty again when i keep dragging time when you wanna go home..
ended up with such a heavy rain..
you look so angry again..
dui bu qi again!

i feel so damn horrible today.
hais.
First was making people angry..
next is neglecting people..
then, next is.. argh. don't wanna talk about it.
i only know that i wanted to cry out a few times in school today..
i just suddenly feel like crying it all out.
but the more things i keep to myself, the more problems come along.