oh, yay!
i changed my blogskin, like finally.
have been wanting to change blogskin.
not that i dislike the other one, i just wanna have a change.
so, i'm happy now((:

anyway, today was crap lah.
i swear okay.
had 2 periods of chinese.
i was busy trying to keep myself awake by drawing on other people's hand.
i scribbled on ZhaoDe's hand his name as well as a barcaode.
And also, a auper ugly smily face.
i drew on bobby's hand as well.
i had a fun time drawing his fingers:D

after that was 3 periods of english.
managed to skip one period cause ms zahira forgot about the lesson.
after recess was 3 freaking bored period of crap POA.
honestly, i don't like her.
diao si mi diao.
dig your eyes out lah.

after that was chemistry.
we are all trying hard to stay awake.
we managed to get through it man.

after school went out with baoshan, sengie, clarence and jiewei.
managed to book the bbq pit already.

oh yeah baby, it's just 4 more days away.
till then...

&silly boy,
if you want me to accept her, make me.
But, i just have a strong feeling i'm gonna lose you. Though you assured me upteen times. I just feel that way. Sometimes i just don't feel good about it. Maybe i'm overprotection towards you for i dunno why. I know i don't have the right to. But i just can't get that feeling away. I also wanted to look from another side of it,
that you have a ** now, I should be happy for you. But i just can't stop this feeling. Few times while in class or other places, when i think about how i'll miss you if you're always with her, i just feel like crying and hoping you'll tell me time and again that that's not gonna happen. Even when typing this post, i really feel like crying. Even though, when in school, I punch, hit and scream at you why is it her? You don't know how much emotions is running through my mind. Can i tell you i'm just trying to be strong. By doing all that, i can control the tears and tell it to not flow. But yet, when i'm in front of the computer or in bed, i don't have to hide it. Sorry if i'm being mean. Maybe i'm just being too over-protective of this silly boy.

sorry silly boy if i'm mean or if i scream and shout at you)':

oh, crap.
I tell you, i'm hating my life.
Seriously.

oh, arina.
You'll have to buck up if you wanna go into the course you want.
I tell you, i seriously need to settle down, stop playing and study.
And, i really mean STUDY.
Enough of playing for four years.

And also, i really feel like quitting **
I mean, i don't even know what made me join it in the first place.
First and foremost, the reason why i started to dislike it was the *******.
I just don't like them lah.
Secondly, i just somehow or another lost intrest in it.
And i seriously feel that it's pretty pointless forcing me to do something i don't wish to do.

oh gosh.
what have i been doing man.
it just feels like i'm wasting my time away.
just can't get myself to settle down and do work or study.
yet, i'm feeling very stressed.

seriously, i have no idea why.
o levels is in oct/nov but i'm already feeling kinda stressed.
what the hell is happening to me man.
i'm gonnna have more whitre hair growing man.
zzz.

i am bored.
i swear i am bored.
just thinking of my dnt folio makes me boreddd

oh, muahaha!
i went shopping with baoshan today.
i bought a skirt.
hello, i bought a skirt.
can you believe it, arina is buying a skirt.

okay, actually i don't know what got into me.
i just suddenly feel like wearing skirts instead of jeans and all that.

but, i bought a skinny jeans as well.
don't ask me why i bought a skinny jeans.
cause my mum told me to buy a jeans.
but i couldn't find any jeans that i wanted.
so i just bought a skinny jeans.
sort of like.
just buy and let her see only.
bought black.
at least i'm still normal.
haven gone into the gaga stage of wanting to buy a PURPLE skinny jeans.

and i saw lots of people from our school today.
swayyy.

he only thing worse than a broken heart,
is knowing you'd give him another chance.

):

&&my dear,
Take care of yourself for goodess sake. Your sore throat if still not okay by tonight, you better get yourself lozengers. Otherwise, i'm gonna ask other people to help me buy lozengers and ask them pass it to you. I see you ah, so poor thing. So many injuries. Okay?

& i'm losing you.
Now, i finally feel how you felt. I guess you felt this way.
Some things are hard to explain. Some feelings are meant to be beyond any words descriptions. Don't force me to tell you how i feel. I'm sorry, it cannot be fulfilled. Cause even i cannot tell myself how it feels like. All i can say is that; it isn't a nice feeling. Not at all.

&some people can be such hypocrits.

&&before i forget, HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO HEE YAN TING!!
<33;LOVED

school's really lifeless.
POA lessons is one of the worst.
DnT makes me go madddd.

school was okay today.
had 3 periods of social studies but it was okay.
volleyball people went for their tournament.
they lost today.
but, buck up tmr okay?!
JIAYOU!

after school had cwc meeting.
had that the class t-shirt can get the cute cute design that me and zara wanted so much.
after that, me, sabrina, firdaus, sengie and xiao clarence took cab down to temasek poly to watch the vb match.
first time watching them play.
((:

somethings made me really pissed off today.
some people are really such irritating asses.

OMFG;please lah. It was a class meeting. Can't the motherfucking hell of you speak in english? Wahlao, we don't understand right? Make so much noise.

Seriously, sometimes, i think that the world is better off without people like you.
Can't you all even show the slightest respect for the teacher?

Every single design you all complain. Then which one then can? The first design you all say very against religion. We turn it around you say it's satanic. Please lah, like suck mfk-ers like you people would give a damn about your religion. Isn't smoking and taking drugs against your religion and against the law?
Then why you still take? Such serious stuffs you all can take it as okay. can a damn bloody design be harmful? Use your asses and think lah. Then the second design, you all don't want cause you say very weird. Then what better ideas do you have man. The damn bloody design will fade off after your wash if you wanna put the photo.

Another thing is, killing your own people is equivalent to commiting sucide right? By speaking bad about ******, will that do you any good? Take a different point and look lah, idiots. It has been as long already can you just motherfucking try to accept? Motherfuckers.

oh crap.
damn sad lah.
wanted to change my skin just now.
and that skin is the same as my handphone the skin leh!
it's " the finest of saint valentine"
i was still thinking of using the theme till end of valentine's day)):

anyway, chionging my dnt now.
damn sad lah. thinking of dnt and it makes me go...
SOBB SOBB!
i'm stuck with dnt!!

the volleyball players, tmr your volleyball East Zone tournament are gonna start.
all the best ya!
but, at the same time don't neglect your studies cause you'll bemissing lessons.
especially the sec 4s.

&& to my dear
You ah, you yourself know very well that you have that old back injury that might come back every now and then. Don't overstrain yourself okay? Don't keep on tahan then don't want say also. Take care of yourself lah. Before i really go buy the salonpas big big plaster that is meant for backaches for you. Don't worry too mush about me also okay? Take care((:

130108
yesterday was a terrible day.
i swear.

but, well, we celebrated janus's birthday for him yesterday instead of the actual day.
me, clarence and baoshan bought a puzzle for him.
then we bought cake and pizza.
delievered the pizza over to jiewei's house.
before that baoshan, jiewei and clarence were too busy playing their dj max portable on the psp while i was sitting there reading someone's smses.
jiaqi, janus and yiyan were outside watching alien vs predator and talking about maths.

the pizza arrived super late.
then we ate the pizza and cut the cake.
then somethings happened lah.
then after that go home le.

*Seriously lah, so what if you're my *******?
I hate guys who have to resort to violence when they know that they are losing in an arguement, simply cause they have nothing else to say to prove that the other party is wrong. I dont find myself really in the wrong. Just because nobody else usually answers back at you, you think othat you yourself is almightly. Please, take a look back at your actions. we're in this plight all thanks to you. You're the one who got all of us into this shit and there you are, always showing that fcuking face. Fuck that.*

&& to you, i still don't plan to let go. But i give you my best blessings. I know that you have her now, but that don't mean anything to me. It's a matter of what you mean to me. I only wish to keep the best and the happiest memories. You used to be a part of my life. And you will continue to be one, just in a place of a bestie. I know that we can't fully hide all the scars but i guess we've made up on the overall. Afterall, you're someone else's already so i doubt you'll have extra time for us. All the best; everlastig my dear((:

140108
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANUS!

nothing much happened today.
nothing very interesting too.
all i know was, assembly was dragged for very longggg.
and i saw someone who told me about himmm((:

oh, mfk-ing hell lah.
bitch you.
sorry for the crude language.

omg lah.
can't you even take it as a form of joke?
to the extent that you have to complain to that mfk-ing person?
i'm surprised, to think that you're in that class and you can't differentiate what's a joke and what's serious.
complain for all you want man, mfk-ing mfk-ers.
whatever.


school's boring.
along with that ton of homework.
gosh, spare me man.
1. Phyics(alomost 300 qns)
2. Dnt folio
3. POA control wroksheet qn 9,10,11
4. POA textbook pg 328 qn 3,4,7
5. Social studies(notes for causes, conflict, consequences)
6. Maths textbook pg 32&33 qn 5,9

all to be handed in on monday except social studies.
sian.
zzz...

True friends got your back,
fake ones stab you in the back.
True friends stay by your side through thick and thin,
Fake ones leave you when you need them the most.
True friends are ok with who you like or date,
Fake ones go chasing after them,
it goes to show fake friends aren't gonna be there in the end.

friendship; such a nice yet lethal word

well, actually, neither do i actually know who is really my true friend.
At least for that very least, i do trust jiaqi, baoshan, jiewei and of course clarence. I guess i do trust sengie pretty much too. Otherwise i wouldn't have talked to her so much. And the friendship between us for 4 years isn't wasted.

Another one that i really regard as a best and true friend, is my jiejie, jasmine.
Though i don't really know if she regards me as one too. I mean, a friendship of 15years and still counting is definitely not easy. Not everyone can maintain so long. But i guess, between us, she's the one that has been giving in more. No words can ever describe the friendship between us.

many friends come and go,
the best and closest friends stay.
But have you ever thought;
Who's the true friends?
You'll only see their true colours when somethings happens.

I've learnt that the best and closest friends might not necessarily be a true friend.It's not totally about how trustworthy the person is. But also about the amount of trust that you place in the person. It's pretty untrue to say that you can't trust the person at all. And it's not even possible to say that you yourself is/is very trustworthy. Others can't judge you. But neither can you assume what you think you are. You won't know how they see you as cause everybody thinks differently.

gosh.
pretty long since i blogged?
well, was out till very late for the past few weeks.
to enjoy myself to the max.
it's already 2008 already.
many things happened in 2007.
good things, bad things, memorable moments, sad memories and regretable memories.
may 2008 be a better year for all.
and to those who are taking their major exams this year, all the best.
chiong ah!

well, school reopened already.
on the first day alot of people kena haicut by barber.
but i haven't really attended lessons so haven saw them yet.
was an OGL.
the orientation was okay lah.
i was in charge of cougar 3. they are called ice lite.
sounds very maple kind.
lolol!
my group has jasmine, ivory, cynthia, valerie, heryani, fabian, kaiboon, malcolm, cheeyong, benson.
first day was boring.
but the second day was okay. all thanks to the captain's ball, they enjoyed themselves very much.
third day was fun. such a pity that the timing is so short.
even the sec 1s were saying that they havent fully enjoy themselves today.

however there was this particular person that everyone disliked. not only my group all the OGL, but even the other group members as well as other OGLs who are not taking them.
he is really disrespectful and keep answering back at us.
there were a few times when i really feel like sending him to the DM man.
but, other than him, there is one that really resembles someone.
andand, there is also none other than me and sengie's favourite; malcolm!

left early to go home with sengie and get some stuffs before meeting clarence, jiaqi, yiyan, weeting, along with yihui, ngai bok and daphne.
saw the vb boys at cs food junction outside.
then saw the 4e5 devina, serena, wanlin they all inside.

after eating then they went back to school while i went home. zun was crapping all the way.
-.-"

oh, maybe i shoud blog today, suddenly have the mood to do it.
many things happened this year.good things and bad things as well.
nobody can predict what will happen tomorrow.
we never know what might happen to us the next day.
maybe i should write something for every single person that is dear to me((:

lets start from FAM.

JIAQI
knew you since secondary 1.
my dear and dearest laopo.
you have been through with me the good and the bad times.
you are there for me when i am at my lowest point to cheer me up and tell me everything is okay.
and also, someone who always love to bug me about coming to my house to cook korean noodles. or even just coming to my house to slack. and also, your love for barbequed stingray made my mother marinate it with more chilli.

still, thanks for always being there.
希望在我的每一个明天里都会有你。
no matter how many laopo i have, you'll always be the one that means the most to me((:

BAOSHAN
ah girl ah, want to find you is as hard as trying to find the president leh!
but, i love you!
your laughing is contagious hor!
even if one day, when the rest of us graduate, we'll still keep in touch okay?
don't think that we'll just forget you when we graduate.
we can still have lunch together often okay!

JESSIE
you don't have internet!

LENA
my dearest nu er.
many things have happened and i swear we aren't as close as ever.
but one thing for sure that i must say is.
you mean something to us even when you don't realise.
you may think that it didn't mattered when you didn't come for the FAM chalet.
but, we missed you okay!
pretty disappointed that you didn't even came to drop by.
the atmosphere was just different without you around.
noone to scream at us when we keep making noise when watching the movie.
noone to complain that the stingray isn't spicy enough for you.

we may not be the closest of friends. but you do mean something important to me as well as to FAM.
i'll still remember how i helped you choose your sc shirt.
the card you gave to me and jiaqi for mother's day last year along with a packet of lollipop.
the time when i accompanied you to the doctor at 300 plus and you asked me if you could eat macdonalds.
the fact that you were angry and worried for us when we're injured proves that you care.

the time may not be very long.
but the memories do last.
lennnnaaaa; aishiteru~!
do take care of yourself okay?

SENGIE
my dear gie gie,
you are really a silly girl.
many things happened to us this year.
but, sometimes misunderstandings may help to bring each other closer.
so i hope, we'll understand each other better okay?

among so many of us,you are the one that has the same kind of temper as me.
sometimes i wonder, how have we come so far?
whatever it is, i hope that, we can still be friends forever.
can hyper together when we are reaching our limit of tiredness.

i'll be there for you when you need me okay?
my ears are here for you to pour out all your unhappiness.
my shoulders are here for you to lean on.
just hope that jiaqi won't be jealous yah?
you are loved((:



shall stop here today. will continue with the rest on another day((:

o.O
changed my blogskin. thanks to JASMINE GAN HSIO YAN!
she decided which skin for me.
heh!

oh, it has been like alien years since i blogged.
well, shall blog about yesterday.

met clarence at about 12.30
went to converse to get back the converse bag that they held onto for a week.
after that we went to bugis cause he wanted to see jeans chain and belt.
didn't find it eventually.

jiejie and jason wasn't ready yet.
so we had to go over marina square to book the kbox before them.
while we were at marina square, was deciding whether to take the normal k or to take kdinner.
eventually decided on the kdinner. simply cause it was much worth it.
then we went into the room, waited till jiejie and jason reached.
we were happily singing till around 7 plus 8 then we started to get food into the room to makan.
clarence and jason sure made their money worth.
they ate lots and lots of sashimi.
all the food there are by sakura.
hmm, paying a little more to eat sakura food, quite worth it lah.

at 8 plus.
a waitress came in and ask us if we wanted to play a game.
so we were like.
anything lor.

jiejie and i went out to play. clarence and jason were standing behind us.
the aim of the game is to pour water into a floating glass that is inside the pail of water.
if the glass sinks, you lose.
and, the winners have a surprise gift.
as for those who lost, you'll have a surprise drink as well.
played for rounds, we managed to survive till the last few.
jiejie lost, had to drink that surprise drink.
it's brown in colour.
then jason helped her drink.
after that he's stomach felt pretty unwell.
then clarence came and tell me.
"eh, jason say the drink taste super terrible, got coffee and milo still got other things."

i lost 2 rounds after her.
i was like,"oh fuck, must drink this damn thing"
then i shake the drink, cause it's inside a test-tube like container.
then i finished in one go.
my god, it tastes super terrible okay!
mine is worse than jason's.
mine got coffee and milo and still got i think tobassco.
wahlao!
1. I don't take coffee
2. I take spicy food buy tobassco is a definite nono.

my stomach felt unwell after that too.
but, it was pretty much fun lahh.

took mrt and went back.
were talking about what happened when we went to vivocity the previous time, "flying granny(:"
then when we reached tampines mrt,
jason went to the bank to deposit money.
i was outside writing on the misty glass surface while jason was inside trying desperately to erase it.
jiejie and clarence were watching us from the back.
when it was jason's turn to use the machine, jiejie went in.
clarence went in too cause got aircon.

i went in after that also.
guess what i did?
i went in and said:"robbery, draw all your money out for me or die!"
they stared at me.
and i didn't realise that there was someone standing next to jason.
i was like, "opps, what the hell did i just do?"
and jason was, "haha! later the door lock ah! cause they sensitive to the word robbery then we all kena lock and arina will be taken to the police for attempting to rob."
-.-
went home soon after that.
took 38 with jiejie, jason and clarence.
chatted on the way and i was the 1st to alight.


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