Sunday, January 10, 2010



"Let’s say all the things we never said."
- Almost Famous

Yes, say out all the things that we've been dying to say. Maybe, if these words were said, things might turn out differently. Things aren't all smooth these days. Just cause i don't say anything about it, don't blog about it doesn't necessarily mean that everything has been smooth sailing for me. Yes, up(s) and down(s) everywhere. But i think i can still take it. I'm a strong girl.

There's lots of unhappiness deep in my heart these few days. About some things, about some people, about some issues. 2010 ain't a great year for me. It didn't have a pleasant start. I don't think it will be great in the upcoming days. There are days where i wish i can hide in a little hole and cry my heart out. Wish there's this person that i can tell everything to him/her. Even the darkest dirty little secrets and the person won't judge me for it. However, the hole doesn't exist, neither does the person. So, they shall be kept with me.

I know some of you feel that, you are no longer in my heart. Such a way that, there feels like a barrier between you and me. Yes, there's a barrier. A barrier that i myself built. Perhaps it's to protect myself from being hurt. This barrier shall stay till i sort out my thoughts. Till then, i'm sorry people if i hurt you.

Meanwhile, i think it's also time i buck up to get my studies in the right track. I've been doing badly. Especially that bitch module, ECTP. Fuck shit. I failed so miserably-.- I know i must effing pass the effing retest. But, i think i CMI for that fucktard module.
Your world is somewhere i can never enter.

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