陪着我整夜失眠来来回回
忘了你已走远
只能争取一些些残酷的想念
把爱摧毁不留温柔的余味
直到我崩溃
直到我心碎

HELLO HUMANS! i'm back. i realised that i haven been blogging for almost a week or more, exams periods.


230408 - 250408

so ya, can't blame. well, EL paper was rather okay. i wanted to write exposition writing but all the questions are like, not nice to write? so ended up writing about "trust". Got distracted by side-tracks thoughts in my mind during the exam. Paper 2 was alright.
Chinese was crap. I have no idea why i did 公函 before the 报章报道. Ended up, i had no time. But still managed to end it off. Paper 2 was okay at the beginning. Then it became tougher anf tougher.
Social Studies made me want to kill myself. TOTALLY not enough time. didn't do part b) of the SEQ. i'm prepared to flunk my combined humanities.
I consider Maths paper a killer. yah, it was. On top of the fact that, i don't fair well in maths.

why am i talking about exams?! nevermind, change topic.

190408

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY JIAQI!

well, i stayed up on 18th night just to wish her at 12.00am.
talked on the phone with her till 2am plus, and i had lessons the following morning.
obviously i overslept. Lessons start at 8.30, i woke up at 8.20. chionged to go bath all that, reached school at 8.35. Poof, this is like one of the fastest time ever la. lessons finished at 10.30.
went home to slack blah blah, Meet them at 3. Ricky was late. blah blah blah, went over kallang leisure park.
we went into the kbox at about 5.50. Managed to get a rather big room(: At first only had jiaqi, clarence, ricky and me. But jiewei, yiyan and janus came down at around 9. The room was supposed to end at 10. But i told her if it was possible to let the 3 of them come in without paying. Cause they are only coming in for 1 hour. Then ended up the lady say, get them to pay and she'll allow us the entend the room till 11.30. It was worth it lah. We sang from 5.50 to 11.30. WOOHOO. shuang.

from now, the pictures shall do the talking(;


:) 0.0

my dearest(:

& for all the kisses; i love you; liewjiaqi(:

AT THE BOWLING ALLEY; jiaqi, clarence &me

what's a birthday celebration without the main lead?

my man tou smile>.<

jiaqi, ricky and me

:D jiaqi&me

inside kbox, when clarence and ricky were singing away.

jiaqi, me& clarence

ahh, kbox!

can't see clearly. but jiewei was being forced to sing

time for break, have some ice-cream

don't ask me what wrong with my face. i didn't even know i did this face.

thepictures says it all(((((((:

ohohoh, my yanyan

screamo guy :O

a sleepy clarence, me and a screamo yanyan

the dearest ever.

a random photo of Janus coming into the room.

that's all for the time being. My computer is lagging away and it's irrtating me away. Bua anyway, the bill for kbox was really a box in our faces. it was $35.50 per pax and the total bill was about $246. o.O


All that you've ever told is just a pack of lies. Your lies to everyone around you. From you parents, to your best frends and even to your girlfriends. You liar. But why is it that, others have to suffer because of what you did. You brought them harm, yet there wasn't even a single apology. You don't even feel apologetic about it. You don't even deserve anyone.

SUNDAY 130408
supposed to meet clarence at 12.30. We weren't late. We were on time. But the sway part was, my house key was with JiaQi as she came to my house the night before and accidentally took my house keys home while packing up. So, i had to take a bus down to her house, got the keys, went home and locked the damn wooden door.

Headed down to city link, just to buy my havaianas. Ended up, they don't have the one i wanted. So, we had to go over to vivo. Bought mine and clarence's. Poof, mine was 49.40 and his was 39.30. Money being emptied out of my pocket. Sobb!
Went to eat long john silver and we were really really hungry. After which, went to ben's and jerry. Cause i want to eat! Clarence's treat! Yay! 13.90 from him is nothing compared to the havaianas i paid for :D

Headed to PageOne after that cause he wanted to buy files. He bought 4 i bought 3. Tempt me only. Home after that.
TODAY 150408
Somebody didn't come to school today. I was left to stone alone. Anyway, i don't know why. But i kept stonning today. Partly due to the fact that i'm tired. School was okay, except during POA, i was really really drained of my energy. super tired. Almost fell asleep.

Went to watch the co performance after school. Niceeee. Except the fact that there are people who think-their-voices-very-nice people singing behind us. Got rather &^$^%#. Almost wanted to tell them to shut the fuck up. After everything ended, went to watch the netball match. Or rather, i wasn't watching lah. Was crapping over there with Janus and Clarence. Blah~. PeiYun came out and make the cake on our faces. Left soon after that. Nothing much today cause some kukuhead never come school):

Now, time for some pictures:
On Saturday:

Qi&me(:

On Sunday:

BEN'S&JERRY: greedy

BEN'S&JERRY: he's dying to eat it.

BEN'S&JERRY: clarence&me

FILES! files display(:

cuttteeee right?

okay, that retarded person bought some of it.

mine is the cafe colour, clarence's is the white floral

HAVAIANAS, oh my havaianas~

On Monday:


Last but not least, Pictures that are dedicated to LIEWJIAQI(:

Oh, double chocolate from dounghnut factory.

lalala, chocolate oozing out.


okay lah, don't say i'm not a good friend enough. When we go kallang on saturday to celebrate your birthday, let you try something really delicious(:

FUCK OFF BASTARD, HELL TO YOU.
I DON'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU.
YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT TO LAY FINGERS ON ME.

我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了

o.O it has been some time since i last blogged. I'm a busy person okay.
Well, school is okay. Exams coming, gotta work harder le. And, Mubarak is back(: yay. like finally. And Nisa joined our class cause she cant go up to her class on the 3 floor as she injured her muscle.

I don't know what to blog actually. Oh yah. Went to develop photos today. Then there was this woman. Wah piang, i first time go there develop photo already see her not happy. Then today we went to develop again. Then asked her for the password. Then she stand there and wait for the photos to come out. Scared i keep those photos immediately ah! Then cause the photos is i edit myself de such that many photos are in a single piece so dont have to spend so much money developing it. Cause it ain't cheap. Then when the photos come out. Then this is the conversation:
The woman: "Eh girl, these photos you put them together yourself or you do it here?"
ME: " i did it by myself at home"
The woman: "you sure anot? Show me your phone the photo."
ME: i was thinking: so you trying to say i scam you isit?
The woman: "Show me, cause if you did it here, must charge you. It's different price. Faster show me the photos"
ME: i was keeping my money into my wallet. Can't she freaking wait.
The woman: "show me. i must check. Otherwise if you do it here must charge you more."
ME: *wtf la. can't you freaking wait? I need to keep my wallet and the damn photos have to load right? "wait lah, my phone loading"

So she keeps her hand up waiting for me to show her the photos in my phone. Meanwhile, she keeps taking up the photos that have just been developed and keeps touching it

ME: *shows her the photo*
The woman: *she was like damn unhappy that i can produce the photo and can't charge me extra. Wtf.*

So ended up, we left the place. I'm super unhappy okay. Stupid woman. Keep touching the photos. Wah piang. Spoil the photos lah. I don't wish to have your fingerprints lor. Fish off.

Lessons in the morning tmr for maths from 9-11. Going out with sengie after that. (:
Next saturday(:

亲爱的,
有你牵着我的那些日子.
真的好快乐,
我舍不得.
可是时间回不去了.
爱你很值得,
只是...

求你说出口 分手的理由
但你却拖 拖 拖 拖到什么时候
如果要走却又为何停留
请你别拖 拖 拖 大声的说出口
请你要痛就痛给我个快活

oh, what's with today man. I'm posting 3 times. But whatever, it's my blog and it's the place for me to grumble about everything.
Can some people like shut her damn bloody naggings up and stop comparing. I swear, one day i might just get fed up and decide to do something silly. Whatever. this isn't the first time i feel like doing those things and it won't be the last time for sure. Just don't frce me to the dead end.

Maybe going out tomorrow. Need to develop some photos tmr. Some retarded people's photo. But i still love herrr.

Whatever, i need to coooooooool down like seriously. It took me 10million thousand years to change my temper to one that isn't so bad. I should say it improved alot. But nowadays, it's coming back. It's obvious that when i'm pissed and irritated enough, you should stop probing about what happened and instead make me calm down right? You should use some common sense. You used to be able to do so. What happened?

牵牵牵 牵手
永远十指紧扣
我相信 我会
永远在你左右

Had been going out with some dumb one for the past 2 days. Talked lot. She is made of pure retardness. Anyway, hanged out at tm on monday. Yesterday hanged out at parkway parade. We took bus 15 there and 31 back. She bought some stuffs. Talked alot. Then headed to tm to get stuffs then went home le.

Had lessons in the morning today. I was wondering who were those people in white and black jersey. At first i thought it was our school people. But when Zara and i went down to the canteen after lesson, saw those people. They were from tampines JC. I think got friendly match lah. Watched them play. I realised quite recently that when clarence play, he is very noisy .__.

I'm bored now. Anyone jio me out? I'm gonna be bored to death.

[ ] I have read a lot of books.
[1] I have been on some sort of team.
[ ] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[ ] I have been to Canada.
[ ] I have been to Europe.
[2] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[3] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[4] I have fallen down stairs.
[ ] I have been snowboarding/skiing.
[ ] I have played ping pong.
[ ] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] i have been on a whale watch.
[5] I have seen fireworks.
[ ] I have seen a shooting star.
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[6] I have been ice skating.
[7] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[8] I have listened to one cd over & over & over again.
[ ] I have had stitches.
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there
[9] I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects.
[ ] I currently have a job.
[10] I have been rollerblading.
[11] I have fallen flat on my face.
[12] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[ ] I have been in a fist fight.
[13] I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight.
[14] I have watched the power rangers.
[ ] I do / have attend Church regularly.
[15] I have played truth or dare.
[ ] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[ ] I have already had my 21st birthday.
[16] I\'ve called someone stupid. And meant it.
[17] I\'ve been in a verbal argument.
[18] I\'ve cried in school.
[ ] I\'ve played basketball on a team.
[ ] I\'ve played baseball on a team.
[ ] I\'ve played football on a team.
[ ] I\'ve played soccer on a team.
[ ] I\'ve done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I\'ve played softball on a team.
[ ] I\'ve played volleyball on a team.
[ ] I\'ve played tennis on a team.
[ ] I\'ve been on a track or cross country team.
[19] I\'ve been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I\'ve bungee jumped.
[ ] I\'ve climbed a rock wall.
[20] I\'ve lost more than $20.
[21] I\'ve called myself an idiot.
[22] I\'ve called someone else an idiot.
[23] I\'ve cried myself to sleep.
[ ] I\'ve had (or have) pets.
[ ] I\'ve owned a spice girls cd.
[24] I\'ve owned a britney spears cd.
[ ] I\'ve owned an N*Sync cd.
[25] I\'ve owned a backstreet boys cd.
[ ] I\'ve been in the newspaper.
[ ] I\'ve been on TV
[ ] I\'ve been to Hawaii.
[26] I\'ve eaten sushi.
[ ] I\'ve been on the other side of a waterfall.
[ ] I\'ve watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies
[27] I\'ve watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I\'ve watched all of the Rocky movies.
[ ] I\'ve watched the 3 stooges.
[ ] I\'ve watched \"Newlyweds\" Nick & Jessica.
[28] I\'ve watched Looney Tunes.
[ ] I\'ve been stuffed into a locker
[ ] I\'ve been called a geek.
[29] I\'ve studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[30] I\'ve not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[ ] I\'ve hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[ ] I\'ve hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[ ] I\'ve met a celebrity/music artist.
[ ] I\'ve written poetry.
[ ] I\'ve been arrested.
[31] I\'ve been tickled till I\'ve cried.
[32] I\'ve tickled someone else until they cried.
[33] I\'ve had/have siblings.
[ ] Ive been to a rock concert.
[34] I\'ve listened to classical music and liked it.
[35] I\'ve been in a play.
[36] ive been picked last
[37] ive been picked first
[38] ive been picked in that middle-range
[39] ive cried in front of my friends.
[ ] I\'ve read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[ ] I\'ve played Halo 2.
[ ] i\'ve freaked out over a sports game.
[ ] I\'ve been to Alaska.
[ ] I\'ve been to China.
[ ] I\'ve been to Spain.
[ ] I\'ve been to Japan.
[ ] ive had a fight with someone on AIM
[ ] i\'ve had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[40] I\'ve had serious conversations on any IM.
[41] ive forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[42] ive been forgiven
[43] ive screamed at a scary movie.
[ ] I\'ve cried at a chick flick
[44] ive watched a lot of action movies.
[45] ive screamed at the top of my lungs.
[ ] I\'ve been to a rap concert.
[ ] I\'ve been to a hip hop concert.
[ ] ive lived in more than 2 houses.
[ ] i\'ve driven on the highway
[ ] i\'ve driven more than 40 miles in a day
[ ] ive been in a car accident
[ ] ive been homesick.
[46] I\'ve thrown up
[47] I\'ve puked on someone.
[ ] I\'ve been horseback riding.
[ ] i\'ve filled out more than 10 myspace surveys.
[ ] ive spoken my mind in public.
[48] ive proven someone wrong.
[ ] ive been proven wrong by someone.
[ ] I\'ve broken a leg.
[ ] I\'ve broken an arm.
[49] ive fallen off a swing
[50] I\'ve swung on a swing for more than 30 mins straight.
[51] I\'ve watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[ ] I\'ve forgotten my backpack when I\'ve gone to school.
[ ] I\'ve lost my backpack.
[ ] I\'ve come close to dying.
[ ] I\'ve seen someone die.
[52] I\'ve known someone who has died.
[ ] I\'ve wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[ ] I\'ve done modeling.
[ ] I\'ve forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[53] I\'ve taken something/someone for granted.
[ ] I\'ve realized how good my life is
[54] I\'ve counted my blessings.
[55] I\'ve been asked out by someone and I said no.
[ ] I\'ve asked someone on a date and been turned down.
[56] I\'ve slapped someone in the face.
[ ] I\'ve been skateboarding.
[57] I\'ve been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[58] I\'ve lied to someone to their face.
[59] I\'ve told a little white lie.
[60] I\'ve taken a day off from school just so I don\'t go insane.
[ ] I\'ve been knocked out
[ ] I\'ve had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not
[61] I\'ve pushed someone into a pool.
[62] I\'ve been pushed into a pool


o.O i have done 62 things from the above before.
Signed out from school today as i hd rashes. Mummy brought me to the doctors. Waited for very very lonnnnnng. Went home after that.
And now, i'm busy stonning at home. I think i'm gonna sleep later. I got nothing better to do. And i'm feeling very tired. Maybe due to the tablets that i have to take? It states that it could cause drownsiness.

Nothing much. Super sian today. Woke up early in the morning to meet Farhan, Agassi, Zara and Heather to go make the class tee. However, when i was about to leave the house, stupid Farhan called me and say want to meet at 11.30 instead of 11. So, i went to meet Zara and Agassi first. Cause they already left their house already. Saw Jiaqi and Minhui. They were going to catch a movie before going to do their CIP. We waited for Agassi to finish eating. Meet farhan after that and went to meet Heather on the platform. Made our way down. Settled some stuffs. Many things still not settled yet. zzz.
Went home after that cause nobody can come out! Zzz! Boringgg.

Jiaqi just called me and tell me that she and Minhui want come my house. Actually i also don't know what they want to do leh. -.-

today had nothing much. fell asleep during mother tongue lesson. I was like super tired lah. It seems as though the moment i set my head on the table, i fell asleep. I don't even know why i seem to get tired so easily nowadays. No matter how much i rest or sleep, i'll still be as tired.

Anyway, after school, at 2.05. I got a shock. And that is, layhan told me that wulaoshi is not here then she told me that msyuanpin will be our examiner. Though during o levels, we won't know who on earth our examiner, i still feel pretty stressed after hearing that msyuanpin was my examiner. Stressed sia! I was so afraid i would screw up my oral. But i told myself that i must must must do well. Unfortunately, i really did screw up the damn thing. I was the first to be tested. so when msyuanpin asked me if i could start already, i felt that was i taking too long to read and she's getting impatient. So i told her okay despite the fact that i haven even read through what on earth is the last paragraph about. Reading was pretty smooth till the last paragraph. I totally crapped the entire thing through. Too many pauses and kept stumbling over my words. DAMN IT! After that it was conversation. I swear the question was okay. If only it was english oral, i swear i would have did well. Unfortunately, it was chinese oral. After the oral, i kept having the thinking that i went out of point. Butbut, when Heather came down and i asked her what she talked about, she also talked about the same things as me and msyuanpin say not bad. So i was thinking if i really did go out of point. However, i just kept thinking that way.

Whatever, actually i was really disappointed with myself. I could have done a whole lot better. How i wished i could jump off the building man. Wanted to tear cause it's part of mid-year. This it the worst ever oral i ever had in my entire life. Usually, no matter how terrible my chinese is, i won't do this badly. No wonder i just had this bad feeling the entire day. Argh, whatever. What's done cannot be undone. Must do better for english oral tomorrow.

After oral waiting for Clarence and Sengie. That uncle and aunty took 10000million years to finish their oral. Clarence's was 100000million years. Sengie's was %%^#$#% i don't know how many million years then she come down. zzz. After that slacked awhile in school before going to bb court to find Clarence and Ricky. Didn't stay long. Went to tm, starhub and nokia to enquire about my phone. Irritating thing. Had dinner at cs foodcourt after that. Talked alot. Told her loads of things too. We were really too naive to believe others so easily when we were in sec 3. We were totally being manipulated by her without even realising that she was the mastermind of everything. Just so naive. But sometimes, i should thank them for making me realise who are the ones who are really there for me when i was at my lowest time. They are what i define, true and everlasting friendship.

English oral tomorrow! I MUST really really score distinction!

Sorry that i wasnt updating, just couldnt find the time and the mood to do so.
The entire week of holiday was practically not even a holiday. Lessons everyday from day to evening. Holiday assignments to be completed.

This week was also no better.

MONDAY 170308
Had social ettiqute lesson(apologies) and stayed back in school after that. Had dinner with clarence, xiao clarence and ricky at 445. Went to meet korkor after that. Bought some groceries and went home. Went i was about to enter the bathroom to bathe, there were fire engines at my house carpark. Turns out that there was a fire in a unit on the opposite block. Kaypoh-ed for awhile before taking my shower. Parents overseas, second brother overseas too.
TUESDAY 180308
Lessons was crap. Did oral practice during English to prepare us for the oral exam next friday): After school went home. Did loads of housework. Took down the dry clothings, folded them and did ironing for the pile of clothes. Wanted to do some Dnt but did Social studies project research and started on the powerpoint. Unfortunately, i fell asleep in fron of the computer after during 3and a half slide. My brother woke me up to ask me to go to bed.
WEDNESDAY 190308
Dnt in the morning was okay. It is one of the lessons with the least naggings. I'm gald about it(: After that had english did oral practice again. I had to go to different "examiners" and be tested. poor me. It's okay. The rest will have their turn too. Had POA test after recess, followed by physics and maths. Physics went to lab and learnt how to connect the live wire, earth wire and the neutral wire. Did vectors during maths. After school went to TM with sengie and JiaQi. Ate longjohn before shopping around. It has been quite some time since i went out with JiaQi. ohohoh, my dearest babes, only baoshan wast present. How sad, whenever i had Baoshan, JiaQi is not present. When JiaQi is present, Baoshan isn't. When can we all go out together? Anyway, went home and started chionging my socil studies project. Ended up sleeping at 4am.
THURSDAY 200308
Today was rather okay. Crapped with Mr luqman during ace lesson as usual. Chinese, did up the last remaining compre section of the test. I think i did terribly for the test on the overall, i was super tired today. After that was physics, did magnetism. I think it's really time for me to study my physics. Don't understand a thingy dongy. Looks like i'll need Ms Chia's help real soon already. After recess had social studies presentation, at least my effots didnt go to waste. After that Mdm mariamah asked us to write what is out role in doing the project. I could have written that i did everything, but just faked here and there with Heather and Zara so they won't get a big zero for their ca. Next was maths, did vectors again. Saturday rememdial will be on vector too. After which Mr Said will close the chapter and start new chapters.
Went TM with Sengie to buy pen ink refills, we were trying hard to resist stuffs at artbox cause they're really tempting man. After that went home.

Thinking of where to go tomorrow. Any suggestions? Nowhere to go, Singapore has ran out of places for me to go. Or maybe it's just that we cant afford it):

自从遇见你,
才发现爱了不起.
在心中写下的诗句,
真理那么美丽.
淹没了我的眼睛.

Dnt lesson stretched over 9 hours yesterday, from 0830-1730. Was really tiring. I re-did my folio right from the beginning. After lesson, it was raining. T.T Went home to leave my folio then went out to 450 basketball court to find Janus and Clarence. Took a bus down to 419 where i cut my hair and had dinner before heading home. Saw wenyong on the way. He lost his phone again-.-

Dnt lesson today again. But thank god, it was from 0900-1300 otherwise i might just die. I became Farhan's and Fadli's personal maid to help them buy drawing block and help them do sketches for ideation. Lol.
After lesson met up with Ricky and Clarence. Went to eat with them and ZhaoDe. After which went to singtel to help ah boy check out some stuffs. Followed by walking around at the Converse fair. Saw things that i want. How i wish i have loads of money now. Then i can go shopping all day long.

My life is practically so lifeless. So dead. Sometimes, i really wonder what will happen to me in future. I wonder where am i going to go after i graduate from secondary school. Sometimes, these thoughts just fill my head totally. There are times when i really want tomorrow to be the last day of my life. So that i can play the entire of my today away and not care about anything. So that i can truly enjoy relaxation and the company of my dearest. As what they say, only when you're on your death bed, then you'll appreciate and cherish whatever you've got. There are even times when i think, how do i want to die? I guess i want to die just like i'm falling asleep looking at a sunrise or sunset. Sometimes i really wish they can come true.

it's been quite some time since i last blogged?

saturday was spent stoning at home. Watched Gong Zhu Xiao Mei. hahas. 10 episodes in a day, 3 more to go! Find that it's nice.

Went out with clarence on sunday. We went to vivo and there were lots of ppl giving out either coupons or vouchers. We waited for Ricky there and called and messaged him several times but he never turned up. After we went home then we realised that he didn't have his phone with him so we couldn't reach him. -.-''' And also, we saw this cute cute CJ7 in the morning. I wanted it very much so he say buy for me. However, i told him that we take a look at vivo first before buying. Ended up, it was out of stock there. When we returned to Tampines in the evening, it was already out of stock. (What the hell! it was still full of it when we saw it in the morning, hurhur! T.T)

Monday went for the Malaysia trip. It was pretty okay. Nothing much to buy so didn't buy much stuffs. We smuggled chewing gums back(: When we were on the trip back, i was having this super terrible headache and bus sickness. But there were people screaming behind us. How i wish i could scream at them and ask them to shut the hell up. When we reached back school, they called and told me that the CJ7 i wanted has arrived but they are unable to help me do any further reservations. Went to eat dinner with agassi and ZhaoDe. ZhaoDe helped me buy the CJ7 first then Clarence return him. (Thanks baby! And thanks ZhaoDe too!) Had dinner with both of them before heading home.

Today, had lessons in the morning. 8-10 had physics followed by 1030-1230 chemistry. Zara and I were playing away during physics. But i swear we paid 110% attention during chemistry. After school went to tecc, had our lunch and did social studies project. Clarence and Ricky went to play basketball in the meantime. ZhaoDe went along to play, followed by agassi. Sengie came at around 3 plus. So she and Zara went along to play too. I was the only one left doing. So poor thing. T.T They keep coming back and going off to play cause it rained then stopped, rain then stopped and the process kept repeating itself. Did till 5 plus going 6 and i was tired. Started to go blog surfing with Zara. Lols. Super funny cause we keep saying things about someone's blog. Went home after that. BOREDDDDD

Tomorrow still got lessons, 8-10 chemistry followed by 1030-1230 physics.
Wednesday got DnT from 8-1600. What the hellllll!

将愿望折纸飞机寄成信
因为我们等不到那流星
认真投决定命运的硬币
却不知道到底能去哪里

I have been oversleeping these few days. Today, i overslept too.
But well, it was gonna rain in the morning. Had a quick assembly. But there was this resident taking photos of us. Wonder what that fellow was gonna do with the photos?
Went to the hall, first was the report on strengthquest. As a cohort, our strength was restorative. As a class, ours was includer. They didn't elaborate on that so i don't know what is it about. Had that was still stayed in the hall. Had looooong naggings o our results. About an half and a 10minutes of nagging. Then they gave us our result slips. I did atrociously horrible man. Did feel okay after that. I don't know what happened, i just didn't feel like talking to anyone else. But i was okay talking to people from my class. I'm weird i guess?

Had recess after that. They gave us extra time for recess cause they took 3/4 of the recess time. Had triple periods of social studies. Got some naggings too. After 3 periods of social studies we were released form lessons. Had lunch then assembled back. Headed to semakau island. Wasn't pretty much excited about it at first. Took a long bus ride to the marina south pier then transfered onto a ferry and off we go the island. The ferry ride was pretty long. But it didn't matter to us cause we were busy taking photos, looking at the scenery, enjoying the breeze. It was really relaxing. Arrived at the island after i don't know how long, we didn't even bothered to see how long it took to reach there. Fooled around on the ferry before reaching the island.

Upon reaching the place, realised that it was quite a nice place. Despite it being and island made up of rubbish, it's really a nice place. You can't even tell that it's made of rubbish. Had a presentation on it before proceeding to see the place. took loads of pictures. Shall upload them another time. It wasn't long before we had to board the ferry again. The going trip, we fooled around on the lower deck. So for the returning trip, we fooled around on the upper deck. The returning trip was much faster. Reached marina south pier and waited for the bus to fetch us back.

Nothing much then. Thoughout the trip, we forgot about our results totally until we reached back school. But! The guy that did the presentation for us who is also the guide, was handsome. I swear he was. Unfortunately, he's married. But, nevermind nevermind. Also, he's like, twice our age. But he looked like he's only in his twenties. He's really handsome(:

oh, today was a super boring day as expected.
Firstly, i overslept. Until when clarence msg me that he left the house and he's on the way then i wake up. And that's like 6.40? WTF.

Xie lao shi wasnt here today so no mt lesson. YAY!
English was okay. Cause we watched a movie on NAZI. get to continue with it tmr. That's the nicest EL period for this year so far. POA was crap. Seriously wish that Ms Jeanie Wong faster come back and teach. I don't want this kuku teacher to teach. I don't understand a shit at all. After that was chemistry. I broke my first test-tube in my whole life. Got rather emo after that. Actually i don't know why too. I just feel very emo although it's just a test-tube? Nevermind. I'm weird(:

After school slacked awhile. Had fish sandwich for lunch simply cause there's like no more food left. The stall with dishes left have no rice left. The stall with no dishes left have rice. But the 2nd stall don't want to sell us the rice. Dots lahhh. After that went to cs to eat my mango pudding. Saw amyy and jiewei while walking back home when we were walking out of the door at tm.

Went home, bathed and use comp. Talked to clarence before he went for his tuition and i fell asleep! -.- Guess i was really sleepy.

Nothing much today. But someone is back! YAY! Like finally after 2 months of fun.
Had lessons as usual. Cross country is at pasir ris park again. After recess was messaging some people. Then the person suddenly asked me how come i can msg during that time. I was practically laughing away. During Ace did voting for prom. School organising commitee gave us choices like masquade(oh, whatever, i don't know hoe to spell it), glitter and prince&princess. My class came out with all kind of weird weird themes such as pyjamas, terrorists, superheros, geeks&pimps, rock&roll, emo, retro, the last one i can't remember.

After school went to kfc. Then back to school to do work. After that had dinner with dearest one and xiao clarence.

Well, tomorrow's gonna be a really dry day i swear.

You used to tell me, 'Good friends are there for life, treasure them'. I think that i should be saying the same thing back to you now. I don't know why. But i feel that you changed. You're no longer the person i used to care so much for. You're just like a total stranger to me now. Even saying hello can be the hardest thing to do. Perhaps we were too close to comfort. The other you used to say, 'Don't be biased towards your stead over your friends'. I should be saying the same thing back to you. If you aren't confident on keeping your promises, don't make them. If you aren't gonna stay by what you say, don't say it in the first place. Seeing you each time makes me feel so uneasy. We used to be so close. Then suddenly because of certain people, we are now worlds apart. We used to hang out together after school but now, your presence seems non-existing. How long has it been when we last went out and hanged out together? I can no longer keep track. 52687;543934.

Today is friday!
Like finally. Which means, tomorrow i can sleep till the sun shines on my butt. I need to replenish my sleep lah. But it seems like no matter how long i sleep, it isn't enough lor.
Anyway, i stayed in school talking to Justin and thinking about the council camp games. Chatted till 6. BaoShan was released from band. About 7, we went to 201 to makan dinner at macdonalds. Wanted to wait for clarence. But he wasn't gonna eat dinner with us cause he have to rush off for his tuition. Ricky and Clarence came down to find us before he go for his tuition. Finished dinner. Slacked around. Justin went for his meeting at TECC. While Baoshan, Ricky and I headed home.

At around the carpark before Festival Park, Ricky said this to disturb a group of secondary school NPCC people. 2 guys and 1 girl.

NPCC= NATIONAL POLICE CATCH COCKROACH.

Headed home after that.

I don't know what wrong with me sometimes. I really feel like going straight up to your face and tell you that i'm super unpleased with you. Feel like telling you off and yet, i'm still standing tall, not sheding a single tear. I want to be the strong girl who can control her tears. I wanna tell you. You changed, changed into a person i don't know. You used to care so much for us. Now, you don't seem to give a damn. From the best of brothers and sisters, we've fallen to become total strangers. Why is this happening to us?

Nothing much today. Lessons as usual.
Got back geography results. The entire class failed. However, Agassi managed to pass after adding a few marks. After school went to tm and then to find Ricky at 450 basketball court. Was with clarence, baoshan, segie and ivory. but sengie didn't go with us to the basketball court. she went home. nothing much today lah. l:

today's lessons were crap.
Had a test during chinese then got back our common test results. I guess i did quite badly? After that was triple periods of english.
Ms Jeanie Wong came back. i was super happy. there's hope for my poa already. She helped to drag time also. Goodgood.

After recess had triple periods of POA. Then followed by chemistry. Quite some things happened during chemistry. Shan't mention. Lessons ended at 3plus. Went to eat sakae with SENGIE,BAOSHAN,RICKYand CLARENCE. Some unhappy things happened on the way there. I think i was just in a super terrible and depressed mood. Even when i smile and laugh all the time, it doesn't always mean that i'm happy.

After sakae went to popular with them before going out seperate ways. Baoshan went to Whitesands for her theory lesson, Ricky came with us before running away with jasper when he saw them. Sengie when home. Clarence sent me home before going home for his tuition.

And, his dad is back! so i don't have to wake up at 5.30 anymore. YAY!

Time for some pictures.((:


Change Airport Terminal 3: layhan&me

kissy kissy

sengie and me with kissy face

baoshan, me and sengie! the trios

o.O the kisses. DEARIES for LIFE

english lesson: zara and me :t

a proper photo.

zara's madness during english lesson

chemistry. REDOX

SHOPPING&OUTINGS

sengie and me. on the train.

clarence and me

kissy kissy face(:

i intended to take clarence. BUT, spot that girl there.

ricky is not avoiding the camera, e's merely running away from baoshan's paws.

peace!

ah boy, say no fuck.

ah boy and me :D

ricky, me and clarence

baoshanny.

red and yellow ferrari

red ferrari

yellow ferrari

the back of the yellow ferrari. Cool right?

clarence&me


clarence with the clip

ricky, whole day play game only.

baoshan's monkey face with sengie's kuku face.

sengie; my nightmare!

ricky with my clip

ricky with my clip on acting cute only.

ricky, baoshan and sengie's kukuface.

a proper photo of them((((:

that's all for today(:

had common tests last week.
really hectic week.
lagged sleep like mad.

shall update photos soon.
lazy to blog.

oh, i'm in a good mood. For a reason.
But, i'm also pretty sad. Shan't say anything. Not gonna say how i feel too. Cause it's pretty pointless when you can't understand.

Realised that i haven't been blogging for some time. Common tests are here and over. Somehow felt that i haven't really put in enough effort. Not that i didn't put in any effort. It just isn't enough.

Many things change over the years. Even things that we firmly believed in forever. I used to naively believed that if we continue the things that we do, probably, it'll make forever possibly. But somehow don't feel this way anymore. Though i say forever, it don't mean the same way as it does. Things changes, much less humans, feelings, friendship and relationship. I guess thats how couples end up breaking up?

What that used to be a sparkle, eventually dies off.

Not that you don't love each other anymore. it's just that the honeymoon period is over. Honestly, i have no idea why i suddenly feel so emo. Just that many things are going through my head. Can't stop thinking about stuffs.

Anyway, going out with sengie and baoshan tomorrow i guess?
BOO-

oh, whatever okay! SHIT THAT CRAP! FUCK YOU.

AND!
There is also today.
Had CNY celebration.
Practically, we have nothing to do until like the ending?
So we slacked lah.

After school, settled with janus, clarence, jiewei and baoshan where to go.But nothing was settled. We walked out of school and jay-walked.
And i heard from clarence that the security guard uncle saw us and complained?
Like what the hell?
Janus went home. Jiewei went home to have his reunion lunch before meeting amyy.

Practically, we slacked the entire day lah. Walked tm and cs several times.
Clarence and i went to try on the rings.He refused to let me know anything.

But, though we slacked.
It was pretty fun.
Much of it was thanks to RICKY.
Pure entertainment for us.

oh, today's chinese new year eve.
but, whatever.
honestly, i don't like chinese new years.
i merely like the holidays as well as the hongbaos.
but i don't want to go bai nian
i wan the hongbaos to send directly to me.

anyway, shall talk about these few days.
020208
i woke up at 8am for his sake.
cause i had to go to the market to get stingray.
had bbq at pasir ris park in the evening to celebrate jiewei's birthday.
met ricky, kokpeng and jiewei to go buy the food.
was rather worried cause it was drizzling.
giant before meeting baoshan at bedok.
then went to shengsiong, bbq wholesale outlet and ntuc.
bought all the stuffs.
went home to get the stingray that was marinated in the morning.

jiewei's dad was already waiting downstairs.
headed down to the pit.
not long after reaching there, jiewei forced me to accompany him to fetch yiyan.
talked along the way.
bought ice before coming back.
anyway, the bbq was alright on the overall.

we had to start the ice under 3 umbrellas.
but managed to start a wonderful fire.
thanks to KOKPENG

xiaoclar came down late, follwed by sengie, then amyy and finally, clarence.
bbq-ed a fooled around.
peiyun and i kissed in front of jiaqi.
so she went to find minhui to come kiss in front of me.
but they failed terrible.
cause they couldn't stop laughing away.
played alot.

then we drank vodka.
xiaoclar had reaction.
his ears and his neck all turn red.
and his back was also itchy and he kept wanting to scratch.

some things happened.
cried pretty much.
but, it's over la.

after that drank red wine.
cut and ate the birthday cake.
many people left.
sengie went back by cab, ricky went home too.
yiyan went home together with garret and xiaoclar, his dad sent them home.
kokpeng just suddenly ran off?!

all that was left was jiewei, clarence and janus who came down after his reunion dinner. as well as minhui, jiaqi, baoshan and me.
jiaqi's dad sent me home. baoshan and minhui went to her hse to stay.
jiewei's dad sent janus and clar back to clarence's hse. janus went there to stay.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY; TEO JIE WEI.

310108
oh, yesterday was an utter rubbish
lessons were boring to the max.
after school went out of the school to the void deck.
those people were spraying the fog.
therefore, there were lots of cockroaches and yucky insects.
called jiewei.
then he came to meet us.
after that when we were halfway thru to the mrt station, clarence called and said he finished his test already.
so we meet him at mrt station.
sengie and i went into the pharmacy. she went to look for plasters while i was looking for vitamins.
after clarence reached, we went to tmr.
sengie and i ate LJS while jiewei and clarence went to walk walk.
saw some people.

after that slacked around.
last bus not least, MY MOOD WAS RUINED.

010208

today's lesson was crap.
especially during PE lesson.
mr halim couldn't come for lesson.
and my relief teacher was caveman.
fcuk him lah.
you come kaopei him when i was standing up and reading the newspaper.
then i got fed up.
so, i sat down and read.
then he had to come over and say.

"you attitude hasn't improved at all. You better change your attitude, let me tell you."
*can't be bothered with him. packs my things under my table.

"do you want me to send you to mr ow or bring you to see ms chua?"
*i was like thinking. what the fuck is your problem?*

"what's more you are a student councillor and a student leader!"
*i keeping the newspaper already what* i told him.

"do you want me to send you to mr ow or ms chua?"
*i was thinking. didn't you just said that just now? fuck off of my business will you?*

like what the fuck can?
i had been in a bad mood since the day before when some fuckers ruined my mood.
hell to him man! as well as those motherfuckers!

chemistry was fun.
maths was okay.
went for lunch with jiaqi then came back.
i was unknowingly involved in the CNY duty.
i just knew it today.
done lots of things today.
tired day like shit.

&tomorrow is the fun.
but i still got to do so many things.
dead and tired now.

oh, yay!
i changed my blogskin, like finally.
have been wanting to change blogskin.
not that i dislike the other one, i just wanna have a change.
so, i'm happy now((:

anyway, today was crap lah.
i swear okay.
had 2 periods of chinese.
i was busy trying to keep myself awake by drawing on other people's hand.
i scribbled on ZhaoDe's hand his name as well as a barcaode.
And also, a auper ugly smily face.
i drew on bobby's hand as well.
i had a fun time drawing his fingers:D

after that was 3 periods of english.
managed to skip one period cause ms zahira forgot about the lesson.
after recess was 3 freaking bored period of crap POA.
honestly, i don't like her.
diao si mi diao.
dig your eyes out lah.

after that was chemistry.
we are all trying hard to stay awake.
we managed to get through it man.

after school went out with baoshan, sengie, clarence and jiewei.
managed to book the bbq pit already.

oh yeah baby, it's just 4 more days away.
till then...

&silly boy,
if you want me to accept her, make me.
But, i just have a strong feeling i'm gonna lose you. Though you assured me upteen times. I just feel that way. Sometimes i just don't feel good about it. Maybe i'm overprotection towards you for i dunno why. I know i don't have the right to. But i just can't get that feeling away. I also wanted to look from another side of it,
that you have a ** now, I should be happy for you. But i just can't stop this feeling. Few times while in class or other places, when i think about how i'll miss you if you're always with her, i just feel like crying and hoping you'll tell me time and again that that's not gonna happen. Even when typing this post, i really feel like crying. Even though, when in school, I punch, hit and scream at you why is it her? You don't know how much emotions is running through my mind. Can i tell you i'm just trying to be strong. By doing all that, i can control the tears and tell it to not flow. But yet, when i'm in front of the computer or in bed, i don't have to hide it. Sorry if i'm being mean. Maybe i'm just being too over-protective of this silly boy.

sorry silly boy if i'm mean or if i scream and shout at you)':

oh, crap.
I tell you, i'm hating my life.
Seriously.

oh, arina.
You'll have to buck up if you wanna go into the course you want.
I tell you, i seriously need to settle down, stop playing and study.
And, i really mean STUDY.
Enough of playing for four years.

And also, i really feel like quitting **
I mean, i don't even know what made me join it in the first place.
First and foremost, the reason why i started to dislike it was the *******.
I just don't like them lah.
Secondly, i just somehow or another lost intrest in it.
And i seriously feel that it's pretty pointless forcing me to do something i don't wish to do.

oh gosh.
what have i been doing man.
it just feels like i'm wasting my time away.
just can't get myself to settle down and do work or study.
yet, i'm feeling very stressed.

seriously, i have no idea why.
o levels is in oct/nov but i'm already feeling kinda stressed.
what the hell is happening to me man.
i'm gonnna have more whitre hair growing man.
zzz.

i am bored.
i swear i am bored.
just thinking of my dnt folio makes me boreddd

oh, muahaha!
i went shopping with baoshan today.
i bought a skirt.
hello, i bought a skirt.
can you believe it, arina is buying a skirt.

okay, actually i don't know what got into me.
i just suddenly feel like wearing skirts instead of jeans and all that.

but, i bought a skinny jeans as well.
don't ask me why i bought a skinny jeans.
cause my mum told me to buy a jeans.
but i couldn't find any jeans that i wanted.
so i just bought a skinny jeans.
sort of like.
just buy and let her see only.
bought black.
at least i'm still normal.
haven gone into the gaga stage of wanting to buy a PURPLE skinny jeans.

and i saw lots of people from our school today.
swayyy.

he only thing worse than a broken heart,
is knowing you'd give him another chance.

):

&&my dear,
Take care of yourself for goodess sake. Your sore throat if still not okay by tonight, you better get yourself lozengers. Otherwise, i'm gonna ask other people to help me buy lozengers and ask them pass it to you. I see you ah, so poor thing. So many injuries. Okay?

& i'm losing you.
Now, i finally feel how you felt. I guess you felt this way.
Some things are hard to explain. Some feelings are meant to be beyond any words descriptions. Don't force me to tell you how i feel. I'm sorry, it cannot be fulfilled. Cause even i cannot tell myself how it feels like. All i can say is that; it isn't a nice feeling. Not at all.

&some people can be such hypocrits.

&&before i forget, HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO HEE YAN TING!!
<33;LOVED

school's really lifeless.
POA lessons is one of the worst.
DnT makes me go madddd.

school was okay today.
had 3 periods of social studies but it was okay.
volleyball people went for their tournament.
they lost today.
but, buck up tmr okay?!
JIAYOU!

after school had cwc meeting.
had that the class t-shirt can get the cute cute design that me and zara wanted so much.
after that, me, sabrina, firdaus, sengie and xiao clarence took cab down to temasek poly to watch the vb match.
first time watching them play.
((:

somethings made me really pissed off today.
some people are really such irritating asses.

OMFG;please lah. It was a class meeting. Can't the motherfucking hell of you speak in english? Wahlao, we don't understand right? Make so much noise.

Seriously, sometimes, i think that the world is better off without people like you.
Can't you all even show the slightest respect for the teacher?

Every single design you all complain. Then which one then can? The first design you all say very against religion. We turn it around you say it's satanic. Please lah, like suck mfk-ers like you people would give a damn about your religion. Isn't smoking and taking drugs against your religion and against the law?
Then why you still take? Such serious stuffs you all can take it as okay. can a damn bloody design be harmful? Use your asses and think lah. Then the second design, you all don't want cause you say very weird. Then what better ideas do you have man. The damn bloody design will fade off after your wash if you wanna put the photo.

Another thing is, killing your own people is equivalent to commiting sucide right? By speaking bad about ******, will that do you any good? Take a different point and look lah, idiots. It has been as long already can you just motherfucking try to accept? Motherfuckers.

oh crap.
damn sad lah.
wanted to change my skin just now.
and that skin is the same as my handphone the skin leh!
it's " the finest of saint valentine"
i was still thinking of using the theme till end of valentine's day)):

anyway, chionging my dnt now.
damn sad lah. thinking of dnt and it makes me go...
SOBB SOBB!
i'm stuck with dnt!!

the volleyball players, tmr your volleyball East Zone tournament are gonna start.
all the best ya!
but, at the same time don't neglect your studies cause you'll bemissing lessons.
especially the sec 4s.

&& to my dear
You ah, you yourself know very well that you have that old back injury that might come back every now and then. Don't overstrain yourself okay? Don't keep on tahan then don't want say also. Take care of yourself lah. Before i really go buy the salonpas big big plaster that is meant for backaches for you. Don't worry too mush about me also okay? Take care((:

130108
yesterday was a terrible day.
i swear.

but, well, we celebrated janus's birthday for him yesterday instead of the actual day.
me, clarence and baoshan bought a puzzle for him.
then we bought cake and pizza.
delievered the pizza over to jiewei's house.
before that baoshan, jiewei and clarence were too busy playing their dj max portable on the psp while i was sitting there reading someone's smses.
jiaqi, janus and yiyan were outside watching alien vs predator and talking about maths.

the pizza arrived super late.
then we ate the pizza and cut the cake.
then somethings happened lah.
then after that go home le.

*Seriously lah, so what if you're my *******?
I hate guys who have to resort to violence when they know that they are losing in an arguement, simply cause they have nothing else to say to prove that the other party is wrong. I dont find myself really in the wrong. Just because nobody else usually answers back at you, you think othat you yourself is almightly. Please, take a look back at your actions. we're in this plight all thanks to you. You're the one who got all of us into this shit and there you are, always showing that fcuking face. Fuck that.*

&& to you, i still don't plan to let go. But i give you my best blessings. I know that you have her now, but that don't mean anything to me. It's a matter of what you mean to me. I only wish to keep the best and the happiest memories. You used to be a part of my life. And you will continue to be one, just in a place of a bestie. I know that we can't fully hide all the scars but i guess we've made up on the overall. Afterall, you're someone else's already so i doubt you'll have extra time for us. All the best; everlastig my dear((:

140108
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANUS!

nothing much happened today.
nothing very interesting too.
all i know was, assembly was dragged for very longggg.
and i saw someone who told me about himmm((:

oh, mfk-ing hell lah.
bitch you.
sorry for the crude language.

omg lah.
can't you even take it as a form of joke?
to the extent that you have to complain to that mfk-ing person?
i'm surprised, to think that you're in that class and you can't differentiate what's a joke and what's serious.
complain for all you want man, mfk-ing mfk-ers.
whatever.


school's boring.
along with that ton of homework.
gosh, spare me man.
1. Phyics(alomost 300 qns)
2. Dnt folio
3. POA control wroksheet qn 9,10,11
4. POA textbook pg 328 qn 3,4,7
5. Social studies(notes for causes, conflict, consequences)
6. Maths textbook pg 32&33 qn 5,9

all to be handed in on monday except social studies.
sian.
zzz...

True friends got your back,
fake ones stab you in the back.
True friends stay by your side through thick and thin,
Fake ones leave you when you need them the most.
True friends are ok with who you like or date,
Fake ones go chasing after them,
it goes to show fake friends aren't gonna be there in the end.

friendship; such a nice yet lethal word

well, actually, neither do i actually know who is really my true friend.
At least for that very least, i do trust jiaqi, baoshan, jiewei and of course clarence. I guess i do trust sengie pretty much too. Otherwise i wouldn't have talked to her so much. And the friendship between us for 4 years isn't wasted.

Another one that i really regard as a best and true friend, is my jiejie, jasmine.
Though i don't really know if she regards me as one too. I mean, a friendship of 15years and still counting is definitely not easy. Not everyone can maintain so long. But i guess, between us, she's the one that has been giving in more. No words can ever describe the friendship between us.

many friends come and go,
the best and closest friends stay.
But have you ever thought;
Who's the true friends?
You'll only see their true colours when somethings happens.

I've learnt that the best and closest friends might not necessarily be a true friend.It's not totally about how trustworthy the person is. But also about the amount of trust that you place in the person. It's pretty untrue to say that you can't trust the person at all. And it's not even possible to say that you yourself is/is very trustworthy. Others can't judge you. But neither can you assume what you think you are. You won't know how they see you as cause everybody thinks differently.

gosh.
pretty long since i blogged?
well, was out till very late for the past few weeks.
to enjoy myself to the max.
it's already 2008 already.
many things happened in 2007.
good things, bad things, memorable moments, sad memories and regretable memories.
may 2008 be a better year for all.
and to those who are taking their major exams this year, all the best.
chiong ah!

well, school reopened already.
on the first day alot of people kena haicut by barber.
but i haven't really attended lessons so haven saw them yet.
was an OGL.
the orientation was okay lah.
i was in charge of cougar 3. they are called ice lite.
sounds very maple kind.
lolol!
my group has jasmine, ivory, cynthia, valerie, heryani, fabian, kaiboon, malcolm, cheeyong, benson.
first day was boring.
but the second day was okay. all thanks to the captain's ball, they enjoyed themselves very much.
third day was fun. such a pity that the timing is so short.
even the sec 1s were saying that they havent fully enjoy themselves today.

however there was this particular person that everyone disliked. not only my group all the OGL, but even the other group members as well as other OGLs who are not taking them.
he is really disrespectful and keep answering back at us.
there were a few times when i really feel like sending him to the DM man.
but, other than him, there is one that really resembles someone.
andand, there is also none other than me and sengie's favourite; malcolm!

left early to go home with sengie and get some stuffs before meeting clarence, jiaqi, yiyan, weeting, along with yihui, ngai bok and daphne.
saw the vb boys at cs food junction outside.
then saw the 4e5 devina, serena, wanlin they all inside.

after eating then they went back to school while i went home. zun was crapping all the way.
-.-"

oh, maybe i shoud blog today, suddenly have the mood to do it.
many things happened this year.good things and bad things as well.
nobody can predict what will happen tomorrow.
we never know what might happen to us the next day.
maybe i should write something for every single person that is dear to me((:

lets start from FAM.

JIAQI
knew you since secondary 1.
my dear and dearest laopo.
you have been through with me the good and the bad times.
you are there for me when i am at my lowest point to cheer me up and tell me everything is okay.
and also, someone who always love to bug me about coming to my house to cook korean noodles. or even just coming to my house to slack. and also, your love for barbequed stingray made my mother marinate it with more chilli.

still, thanks for always being there.
希望在我的每一个明天里都会有你。
no matter how many laopo i have, you'll always be the one that means the most to me((:

BAOSHAN
ah girl ah, want to find you is as hard as trying to find the president leh!
but, i love you!
your laughing is contagious hor!
even if one day, when the rest of us graduate, we'll still keep in touch okay?
don't think that we'll just forget you when we graduate.
we can still have lunch together often okay!

JESSIE
you don't have internet!

LENA
my dearest nu er.
many things have happened and i swear we aren't as close as ever.
but one thing for sure that i must say is.
you mean something to us even when you don't realise.
you may think that it didn't mattered when you didn't come for the FAM chalet.
but, we missed you okay!
pretty disappointed that you didn't even came to drop by.
the atmosphere was just different without you around.
noone to scream at us when we keep making noise when watching the movie.
noone to complain that the stingray isn't spicy enough for you.

we may not be the closest of friends. but you do mean something important to me as well as to FAM.
i'll still remember how i helped you choose your sc shirt.
the card you gave to me and jiaqi for mother's day last year along with a packet of lollipop.
the time when i accompanied you to the doctor at 300 plus and you asked me if you could eat macdonalds.
the fact that you were angry and worried for us when we're injured proves that you care.

the time may not be very long.
but the memories do last.
lennnnaaaa; aishiteru~!
do take care of yourself okay?

SENGIE
my dear gie gie,
you are really a silly girl.
many things happened to us this year.
but, sometimes misunderstandings may help to bring each other closer.
so i hope, we'll understand each other better okay?

among so many of us,you are the one that has the same kind of temper as me.
sometimes i wonder, how have we come so far?
whatever it is, i hope that, we can still be friends forever.
can hyper together when we are reaching our limit of tiredness.

i'll be there for you when you need me okay?
my ears are here for you to pour out all your unhappiness.
my shoulders are here for you to lean on.
just hope that jiaqi won't be jealous yah?
you are loved((:



shall stop here today. will continue with the rest on another day((:

o.O
changed my blogskin. thanks to JASMINE GAN HSIO YAN!
she decided which skin for me.
heh!

oh, it has been like alien years since i blogged.
well, shall blog about yesterday.

met clarence at about 12.30
went to converse to get back the converse bag that they held onto for a week.
after that we went to bugis cause he wanted to see jeans chain and belt.
didn't find it eventually.

jiejie and jason wasn't ready yet.
so we had to go over marina square to book the kbox before them.
while we were at marina square, was deciding whether to take the normal k or to take kdinner.
eventually decided on the kdinner. simply cause it was much worth it.
then we went into the room, waited till jiejie and jason reached.
we were happily singing till around 7 plus 8 then we started to get food into the room to makan.
clarence and jason sure made their money worth.
they ate lots and lots of sashimi.
all the food there are by sakura.
hmm, paying a little more to eat sakura food, quite worth it lah.

at 8 plus.
a waitress came in and ask us if we wanted to play a game.
so we were like.
anything lor.

jiejie and i went out to play. clarence and jason were standing behind us.
the aim of the game is to pour water into a floating glass that is inside the pail of water.
if the glass sinks, you lose.
and, the winners have a surprise gift.
as for those who lost, you'll have a surprise drink as well.
played for rounds, we managed to survive till the last few.
jiejie lost, had to drink that surprise drink.
it's brown in colour.
then jason helped her drink.
after that he's stomach felt pretty unwell.
then clarence came and tell me.
"eh, jason say the drink taste super terrible, got coffee and milo still got other things."

i lost 2 rounds after her.
i was like,"oh fuck, must drink this damn thing"
then i shake the drink, cause it's inside a test-tube like container.
then i finished in one go.
my god, it tastes super terrible okay!
mine is worse than jason's.
mine got coffee and milo and still got i think tobassco.
wahlao!
1. I don't take coffee
2. I take spicy food buy tobassco is a definite nono.

my stomach felt unwell after that too.
but, it was pretty much fun lahh.

took mrt and went back.
were talking about what happened when we went to vivocity the previous time, "flying granny(:"
then when we reached tampines mrt,
jason went to the bank to deposit money.
i was outside writing on the misty glass surface while jason was inside trying desperately to erase it.
jiejie and clarence were watching us from the back.
when it was jason's turn to use the machine, jiejie went in.
clarence went in too cause got aircon.

i went in after that also.
guess what i did?
i went in and said:"robbery, draw all your money out for me or die!"
they stared at me.
and i didn't realise that there was someone standing next to jason.
i was like, "opps, what the hell did i just do?"
and jason was, "haha! later the door lock ah! cause they sensitive to the word robbery then we all kena lock and arina will be taken to the police for attempting to rob."
-.-
went home soon after that.
took 38 with jiejie, jason and clarence.
chatted on the way and i was the 1st to alight.


我轻轻的尝一口
你说的爱我
还在回味你给过的温柔
我轻轻的尝一口
这香浓的诱惑
我喜欢的样子你都有

i'm gonna just leave everything behind.
don't wish to look back into unhappy things.
everybody makes mistakes.
i guess i made too many.
so, i hope to be forgiven.

&i'll have another fresh start.

我的视线已变得很模糊。
我已不懂得分辨事情的对错。
不懂得如何去解决一切的问题。
对于以前的我，要解决问题一点都不难。
可是对于现在的我，简直是要了我的命。
我也很讨厌现在的我。
我的脾气变得更暴躁不是因为友情或感情上，而是自己家庭方面的问题。

对于你们，我这两天想了很多。

对于____，我敢说，
我从来都没有骂过或想过你是个三八婆。
可能是我在骂别人，或只是随口说别人。
可是，我很确定，我没理由骂你。
还有，你问，我们是否有把你当作我们的最好朋友。
想了很多，我也不是赶着要回答你的问题。
我真的有把你当成我的好朋友。
只是，如果我和你之间残生什么问题。
我不知道要这么样更你开口解决。
我也从来没有更你当朋友因为你钱财上和物质上的富贵。
我们更你作朋友是真的要和你当朋友。
我更没有说，不是我的错。
如果我不认为是我的错，我更本就不会道歉，我也不会说：要起火，是需要两颗石头。

走到船头，自然直。

oh. wow. i hoped and prayed you'll say out everything that you were unhappy about. i'm not such an idiot that i couldn't see that you don't like me. even since i stead with him, you attitude towards me totally changed. I said you can get money from your parents your you still work. yes, i may sound very mean. but please, if i really meant it, would i had taken the application form for you? i would even bother finding anything for you. i can't get money from my parents during the holiday. and you said, given your family circumstances, you should work more. hello, why do i want to find a job so quickly? cause i know very well my family circumstance. nobody knows about my family circumstances. not a single soul, not you, not jessie, not baoshan, not jiaqi, not even clarence. hello, you talked about me behind my back too. i know that. but i never did i say a word about it. i thought you were my best friend too. i admit. i did talk bad about you before. but thats when something serious happen. other than that, when other people talk bad about you, i speak up for you too. you yourself did it too. so don't say others. you do talk about people that don't even say bad things about you. you may have forgotten. nevermind. And, i talked bad about you, simply because you started it first. i know i changed. i have become more hot-tempered too. when others give me attitude or whatsoever. i only say that the person attitude. but i don't say anything else. and you say you changed cause you had enough of people treating you like crap? then please, who treated me like crap first. finding me when you need me. throwing me aside when you don't need me. treating me like nothing but someone for you to fall back on when everyone else are not there. many people can see that, you think i feel good? treat me like crap when you have someone else. so, that what a best friend should do? i'm amazed. very interesting. you were the one who started it and now you are asking me why i did it? since you don't like the feeling too, why did you do it. i would rather you say everything straight in my face then telling other. you don't like it, neither do i. if you hate a guy to interfere, tell that straight into his face. i don't know a thing he said. so why tell me? don't i have the right to cry? everyone has. even a newborn baby. i didn't blame a single thing on you. don't put words into my mouth. who is the one fabricating tales here? i didn't drag anyone in too. i told him nothing. but he kept asking, wtf do you expect me to do? who is the one who went around telling others about untrue facts. you started badmouthing me, and they turned against me. so, you didn't mean it? fine. i knew everything. but i just kept quiet. i tried to make up to you. but you didn't even give me a single chances. since you don't even give me a single chance? why did i give you so many in the past. i did not say a single thing about you making untrue assumptions. right, you are the princess, no one dared say a fking shit. right, i make a shitload. very well. all those true comcerns are crapshit. thanks. get this into your stubborn head. i dare say this. when i say concern for you, i meant it. those were my truthful words. if i really meant to backstab you, i wouldn't even bother. i can just simply make more untrue tales about it. i would admit it if i made a mistake. i don't push the blame to someone else. i would think that you're the one putting me in hell now. i agree that friendship isn't proven by how much you cry for a person. i have never cried for jiaqi, i have never cried for baoshan too. however, they are still my best friends. sorry, even since this year, somewhat near the middle, i am totally unsure of what am i to you already. i asked you several times what i meant to you. you told me you treated me like your best friend. however, i don't feel so. i simply feel like i'm someone for you to lean back on. but, i told myself it's okay, you have your freedom to hang out with whoever you want. but i told myself to be there whenever you need me. and, i had never ever said it was YOUR fault. i did not say that. so if you're unhappy? why find me when i'm not the one? simply cause he's my boyfriend? then if your boyfriend makes me unhappy, i should take the blame on you too. i bothered to apologise, cause i know it's my fault. and you meant something to me. i know friendship isn't jugded by how much the person is there when you need them. but please, even if i bad mouthed you, i had never ever told your secrets out. and, they were only minor ones. after that, i would clear up with whoever i had told bad things about you. don't be too sure that you wouldn't bad mouth about people that didn't do anything wrong to you. you started it, i didn't say anything. when i started talking about you, it was when i really find it unfair that i have to tolerate everything that's wrong and when the fault isn't mine. please, if i weren't bothered with your actions and your words? would i have cried. if i didn't give a fuck about this friendship, i wouldn't have apologised. if i didn't give a damn about your feelings, i wouldn't have wanted to clear up everything. i hoped and wished that you'll tell me everything that you're unhappy with me about. i spent the entire night thinking. doesn't this friendship mean something to me. some tell me this friendship isn't gonna work out. why didn't i listen to them and just leave everything aside. i bothered. i cared about this friendship. i'm willing to change. but, please. i'm not god. i can't just change overnight. i don't want things to become this way. therefore, i apologise. i meant it. you were one of those i really cared for. one of those close to my heart. so, why is it that you didn't think you were in fault too. it takes to stones to start a fire, it takes two hands to clap. when you did wrong, i lent my hand to clear up everything. so why is it when i did wrong? there isn't your hand to hel me clear up the everything? 我只能说，对不起。但旁观者清。