SL camp

wohoo~
wondering why am i blogging when i'm supposed to be in the leadership camp?
hahas!
yaya.. i came home this afternoon.
was having gastric pain, feel like vomiting and headache as well..
oh crap..

shall blog about the camp.. xDD
MONDAY
woke up at 5plus..
almost cannot wake up in time..
meet jiewei and baoshan go school together.
yiyan decided to meet us in the morning.
the whole family is going to the camp except LENA and SENGIE

reach school sit there do nothing wait for ms lim to finish doing her stuffs.
chit-chatted around..
the moment they started talking, they started talking about why we are all there.
it was because your home/subjects teachers, cca teachers or because you are a councillor
blah blah blah..

first activity and last activity before we were spilt into groups.
had to fill in names in different boxes.
i only remember the first question very clearly..
name one sec2 who owns a pet tortoise.
zzz.
thats like.. obviously ME right?
nevermind.

after that we were spilt into different groups.
the whole family was split up totally.
i was in the same group with:
lynn, haimei, xinhui, farhan, jason & amirul
the student leaders with our group was:
rebecca, jobel & royston
yeaps.
played ice-breaking games.
lame as usual.
since when was ice-breaking games fun?
never.

after ice-breaking games was..
oh.. a workshop conducted by ms chia in the mph on.
different types of leadership.
damn stuffy man!
did activity instead of hearing teacher talk.

yeaps..
and... it's lunch time..
the food kinda sucks
seriously.
after lunch was another workshop conducted by ms halim in the ava threatre.
this workshop is about public speaking.
the air-con so shuang~
we were then brought to a classroom and each of us is supposed to talk for a minute to everyone.
we didn't do it. we just fake larhs.
soon, all of us were gathered back into the ava threatre.
mr desmond ng started talking.
talked the same thing as what ms melinda lim had told us in the morning.
but he said it in a super harsh way.
i find him quite cruel.

went back to mph again.
get ready for team-building games.
our first station was water bomb.
our team didn't score much cause the opponent kept throwing the water bomb under net.
so no points awarded.
we spent the most time at the last station.
nevermind.

after the whole thing, went back to mph again.
then, now we have to set up our tents and clean it.
our tent the flysheet was unsuitable for it. so swapped with another group.
after we are done with the tent.
we were told to go up to our bunks and get our waterbottle.
tokk quite a long time.
seniors not happy with us then complain lo.

kena pumping position for 20 mins.
zzz..
i didn't do larhs. cause had a bad bad bad backache.
see them so xinku i oso xintong already.
they had their dinner after that.
i didn't eat dinner. all thanks to my back.
lost all my appetite.

next after dinner was SKATEBOARD IT.
have to fix the skateboard then bring the member from the starting point to the ending point.
our group was in a mess!
hahas!

finish all that already then was reflection and can go back and bath already.
wee~!
at first very happy cause thought can bath.
but end up see the queue only baoshan and i sian diao already.
slacked outside the classroom.
chatted with jiejie.
i almost kicked his there.
opps!
played around then finally go and bath den listen to mp3 and sleep.

TUESDAY
hmms..
woke up at 5am again.
we were supposed to wake up at 6am.
but instead, we gt ready by 6am.
wee~!
slacked outside classroom again lors.

went down to mph at 6.15
15mins earlier then the time supposed to meet.
had our breakfast and some briefing.
i didn't take my breakfast again.
cause i don't have the habit of eating early in the morning.
xDD

left for sentosa at 8.
reached there pretty soon..

AMAZING RACE
our first station was sakae sushi.
took quite a long time to find it.
second station was twin towers.
it was the tower near the beach.
made a kite there.
third station was round and round around the world.
it was the carlsberg sky tower.
fouth station was burger king

zzz. the stations were like..
sakae sushi was, eg. point B
twin tower was at, eg. point C
carlsberg sky tower was at, eg. point A.
burger king was at, eg. point D.

it's like walking to and fro dunno how many times.
i left at the 4th station.
had gastric pain.
very pain. plus had headache and wanted to vomit.
but cause i didn't eat anything so didn't vomit anything.
we were supposed to carry out stuffs with us throughout the whole journey.
gosh. my bag was HEAVY!!..
couldn't tahan the pain already.
went home.
told my group they had to win the race!
and.. i left.
sorry people..
T.T

peace xDD

argh.. another day of being disturbed from sleep.
today was by my mum and the garang guni uncle downstairs.
i was so pissed off.
tried going back to sleep. but the noise was irritating me very much.
slacked and did nothing.
today is gonna be a oh-so-boring day at home stone-ing.

anyways for those who still don't know the pack list for the leadership camp..
you will have to bring:

CLOTHING
% t-shirt_ at least 3
% short/track pants_ at least 3
% undergarment
% swimwear_ 1
% shoes_ 1
% wet shoes/ sandals/ booties_ 1
% cap_ 1
COMPULSARY ITEMS
% 1litre bottle_ 1
% poncho_1
% towel_ 1
% torchlight with spare batteries_ 1
% toiletries_ 1
% insect repellant_ 1
OPTIONAL ITEMS
% sleeping bag_ 1
% camera_ 1
% medication_ if necessary
% sun block_ 1
% mosquito coil_ 1

yeaps..
that all..
but i seriously feel that the sleeping bag should be catagorized under compulsary items?
zzz.
nvm. it's up to you people anyways whether you all wanna sleep on the floor a not.

FRIDAY
hmms..
woke up rather late.
but was disturbed by messages that kept coming.
was finally being disturbed till i wake up.
argh.

slacked around here and there.
until i started on the princess hour.
and once i start, i got hooked on it.
watched until 5pm.
then i remembered that i was supposed to meet kok peng and the rest at the mrt station at 5.30.
packed my stuffs and went out of the house.
reached mrt station at 5.29
i thought that at least will have 1 person there already.
turned out.
no one was there.
messaged kok peng to ask him where he was to find out that he is still at home.
called garret and he said i would see him in 30 sec.
argh. whatever.
garret came and went off to buy something.
leaving his stupid umbrella with me.
zzz.

weiquan arrived after garret left.
kok peng arrived soon after weiquan too..
wee~!
waited for sujuen and baoshan for super long.
meanwhile me, garret, kok peng and weiquan were talking bout the sl camp on monday.
turns out that the haven comfirmed the venue.
wo0t.. great planning by teachers!
nvm.. complained bout the poack list too..
simply cause they didnt pass it to us.
but.. we managed to find out and pread the message.
xD

waited for sujuen and baoshan for a total of 50mins.
great. happy waiting.
went to pizza hut to take away.
the guys went to arcade to play.
while we went to NTUC to get drinks.
how nice of us.
we headed to festival park first.
the guys are still playing at the arcade and they later collected the pizza.
had lots of fun there with them.

baoshan cant stop laughing once she started.
maybe i should bring her to the doctor one day.
good idea!

talked about a lot of rubbish with them.
kok peng and garret later went crazy i think?
they started playing around with garret's umbrella!
causing baoshan to really laugh non-stop.

nvm.
my poor little slippers were bullied..
they were being used as instruments?
making noises. not music.
kok peng later threw it into the plants there!
ahh..
bullies~!
hurhur!

had a great time with them and i had to go already.
cause mummy will scold.
baoshan sent me to my house downstairs.
i sent her back to festival park.
then she sent me back to the mid point which was beside the garbage place.
zzz..
of all places the mid-point had to be, it had to be the garbage.
nvm..
went home after that.

talked to baoshan for a while before jiaqi came in too..
the 3 of us conference but baoshan left very soon.
jiaqi and i continued talking.
talk until about 1plus am or 2.
cant remember clearly..
hahas..
wo0t.
great record for jiaqi.
she can actually tahan until 2am.
hahas!

and.. i changed my blogskin already.
wee~!
finally.

THURSDAY
o.O
it's the last day of school already uh..
sad. T.T
which means we will have to spilt classes soon.
will know which class we are gonna go on o3november.
sobx sobx..

hmms..
was about to leave the class when ms melinda lim came in.
gave some of us a form and asked us to pack our bags for 3days 2 nights.
what the hell?
it is like so sudden man!
nvm..
after school went to the mac next to sumo house cause the one at princess was crowded and with people whom we dont like.
so.. ya.. changed to the other side..
talked alot of crap in mac while eating.
yeaps..

after that went to tm with sengie, baoshan, jessie and jiewei jiejie
walked around century square..
slacked hree and there.
baoshan and jessie left at 2
cause they had to go back school.

sengie and jiewei accompanied me go look around for present for my eldest bro..
cant find a suitable present.
so.. decided to just buy the cake.
after that walked around and jiewei had to go home liaos..
hurhur!

sengie and i continued walking around..
this is the first time ever that i kinda went shopping with sengie..
thats something very rare uh?
jiewei promised to take neoprint on the o8nov. when we go out for celebration for shan and gie birthday..
wee~!

while walking around with sengie, we saw this thing in urban concept and mini toons.
it was a total insult man! this is a picture we took of it..
they told us to..
sorry, you are no allowed to take pictures. you will have to delete the picture.
whatever..
u think i care?

isn't it disgusting and an insult to pigs?
eww~!

TO A PARTICULAR SOMEONE OUT THERE~
i really hope you will see this.
i wish you will know what im thinking:

honestly i wish that you won't quit student council.
simply because, i can't bear to part with you.
excuse me, we are seperating classes next year.
and i, will definitely be in a totally different class from me.
i will be totally not possible to end up in the same class.
which means, if you quit council, i will not be able to see you as much.
another thing is that, you are NOT like sengie.
you won't stick around mush with us.
you will be with some other people most of the time.
unlike sengie who will always find us during recess, you always find some other people
if you quit council that means i will only have a tinny winny little chance of seeing you.

so.. well.. great.
then our friendship will definitely drift further and further with each passing day.
i don't really know your reason for quitting.
but it seems to me that you are quitting cause she is quitting as well..
so.. is this telling us that you would rather be with her?

it is not that im selfish.
but it is really that i can't bear to part with you.
you aren't just one of those ordinary friends.
you are the SPECIAL ones.

argh.
nevermind.
i don't think you will understand how i am feeling now.
i really hope you will tell me..
i'm not quitting anymore already.
is that possible?

please. i wish you know who you are.
and you would read this asap.

well well well..
it is wednesday already.
tomorrow is thursday.
and, end of school term.
holiday starts.

and when school starts, we are all going into seperate classes.
some of you people might end up in the same class.
wheras, i will definitely be seperated from you people.
i will comfirm guranteen with double chop that i will miss you all..

can we still go out like how we are now?
but i got a feeling that a few of us will drift away.
i hope i'm wrong.
no more projects with you people.
no more crapping in class with you all.
i have seriously no idea of what is it gonna be like without you all.
sighs.. why is reality and fate such cruel things?
but it is something that has been decided..

I WILL REALLY MISS YOU GUYS!
can we stay like how we are now?
please.!

hmms.. today was rather dumb..
reached school at the usual timing and went for my morning duty..
slacked around cause some people were giving speeches?
after that went to choir room and did nothing..
oh ya.. we were seperated into groups..
as usual.. did our own "auto-swap"
ended up in the same group with lena, jiaqi, yiling, chuqing, yiyan, ryan
some teacher in-charge think she just come not even one year then yaya-papaya..
nvm.. placed our bag in some places and went for our "tea-break"
so lame. nevermind.
after that went to assemble in the parade square..
hear them talk crap and finally..
boarded the bus to little india
started soon after reaching there..
the first place was alright. BUT!
we had totally no idea what we had to do after that..
so we kinda.. slacked around?
we bought the hanna thingy and started drawing it on our hands yeah?
hahas.. yiling drew a pig on her hand.
i wanted to at first too.. but did not in the end.
i drew a smiley face :)
and wrote shan'
jiaqi drew a mushroom for me later..
cute ehhs?

im super bus sick..
aww.. felt like vomiting the whole day..
nevermind.
after returning to school..
err.. i should not say anything..
i would choose not to say anything.
cause it's super rubbish.
did our selection of subjects.
zzz.

after that went to lena's house to watch rob-b-hood.
aww..
the disc was horrible .. maybe it was because i was already not feeling well already.
and, watching the disc makes me feel even worse.
so, decided to sleep instead.
yar.. so while the rest were watching.. i was sleeping away into my lalaland
went home at 6.30
it started raining heavily.
crappified.
nvm.. and here i am slacking in front of the comp.
what a rubbish day..

i guess im still not over with how things are going to be.
don't blame be if i grow too much mushrooms.
anyways, they are of high quality. xD

The past

hais..
was talking to _______ online just now..
suddenly..
had many thoughts..
thoughts that i may not say..
but it doesn't mean i don't remember them, i don't cherish them..
honestly.. i really miss those times..
rather, the ones that were earlier this year..
im always hanging around you people..
i would tell you my secrets, and you'll tell me yours..
how nice..
always went home together..
crapped around lots..

it has been a long time since i really talked to you.
it has been a long time since i seen you.
it has been a long time since we went home together.
it has been a long time since we spent the whole day messaging.
it has been a long time since we told each other our secrets.
it has been a long time since we spent time at the void deck.
it has been a long time since we crapped with each other.
it has been a long time since we even said a proper hello to each other.

really miss them..
what does our future hold for us?
can we still have those times that i cherish so much deep in my heart..
you may not know this.. but you are the second dearest person to me..
i dote on you more then i dote on them. that's one thing for sure.
well.. that's something you will never know..
i don't know..
i don't know if you have even ever missed those times..
maybe not..
i wish we could have those times back.
i dare not speak.
i dare not ask.

maybe it's about time we should slow down our pace and take a good look at those around us, as well as those who are already fading away.

the past so sweet; the present so bitter; the future?
what does the future hold for us?

MONDAY
got back almost all our results..
gosh..
horrible results..
shall not mention anitink bout it at all..

went to kfc with sengie, baoshan, lena and yiyan after school..
yiyan sent me and baoshan until 201..
we saw ms soh's car pass by while on the way home..
at night was horrible with my horrible voice..

TUESDAY
got back the rest of the results already..
had some cricket and music thingy in the comp lab..
argh..
so boring..
almost fell asleep..
zzz..
went back to class and did nothing for 2 periods..
zzz.. how boring..

WEDNESDAY
went macdonald with jiaqi, baoshan and lena..
i shouldnt be at mac eating alrights..
im having a cough.. and should be no chicken..
but i ate machicken..
im having a sore throat..
yet im eating french fries..
argh..

went to lena's house after that..
slacked..
watched thirteen and house of fury
went home after that..
dont feel like going school on thursday..

THRUSDAY
yeaps..
and that today..
checked marks in school..
ahh..
i dont even feel like seeing at all man..
it just makes me disappointed alrights?
after that had 2 periods of free periods..
accompanied yinghui to go find teachers for stuffs..
met jiewei, yiyan and jason on the way..
we sat down at on the stone table at vb court there..
slacked..
saw ms ho..
then all of us went back to class..
slacked a while then recess already..

recess was funny...
we were argueing with jiewei..
they were shooting ice here and there..
shoot until jiewei fall down..
hahas..
xDD

after recess went back class for some board games thingy..
no one brought board games so did our own things..
played heart attack with jiewei, yiyan, jason, tsz wing, lena and jiaqi..
some people just keeps on purposely adding pressure on our hands..
zzz..
made it super hard for us to take our hands out from the "stack"
after playing heart attack..
played the scissors paper stone thingy.. den beat the hand one..
played with lena..
she hit me 3 times on the hand..
i change hand..
another 3 times..
byebye liaos..
changed person to play with..
but.. i was super dumb lors..
i played with JIEWEI!!
zzz..
lena was 3 kills..
jiewei 1 killed me..
with internal injuries somemore..
zzz..
played all the way to com lab..
did the criket and music thingy again..

after school..
played with jiewei the slapping of hands thingy again..
ahh..
never ask him hit he oso hit..
hurhur!
very pain lors..
this time even more painful man..
got internal injuries also..
and.. also a mark there..
it is 6 pm and the mark still remains..
aww..
my poor little hands.. 3 bows to you my darling..
went to eat with jessie, jiewei and yiyan..
yeaps..
and..
i tink im on pills again..
wee~!

planning to go vivocity tomorrow with my family..
hahas..
gonna be fun..
more slapping on the hands with jiewei jiejie
wee~!
and we'll play till siao siao..
nvm..
i like it.. and thats the way it should be man!.. xD

oh sian-ed..
hurhur!
the chalet is OVER already
zzz...

THURSDAY
arg..
woke up early in the morning just to go to school for the listening comprehension paper..
for a freaking 30 mins paper..
wasted my few more hours of sleep just for it as well as my mrt fare..
nevermind..

after the paper went to 201 meet baoshan and her mum to buy the things needed for the chalet...
spent quite a period of time in the market buying the food..
after buying things from 201..
went to shan hse and leave the things..
then we went to interchange to buy the remaining things needed...
buy already then we went back to baoshan hse again..
then sengie called my phone and said she was outside my house..
asked me to open the door..
but i wasnt even at home..
so.. yarr.. asked her to come over shan hse..

den she reach shan hse already then i went home to pack my stuffs and bathe while waiting for jiaqi and janus to come over and help carry the stuffs..
they reach already then meet them at my hse void-deck..
took a taxi down to aranda cause we realised that it was not possible to take a bus down at all..
sengie and jiaqi were a total embarassement in the taxi..
they were damn noisy and were.. fighting?

reacher aranda and called lena..
went up the chalet and placed the things then went down to fetch the rest of them..
yeap.. and the unlucky thing is that i saw my bro..
nvm.. not affected by it at all..
my mood remains the same..
super duper hyper dyper..
xDD
went to pick jiewei jiejie

bout 6 plus..
me, janus and yiyan sent sengie to the mrt station..
cus she had to reach home by 7 o'clock..
on the way back to the chalet janus and yiyan played swing..
wth?
nvm...

after that went back chalet slacked..
slacked until bbq time!
went downstairs and they bbq-ed..
hahas!
yiyan made the marshmellow catch fight..
damn funny lors..
after bbq went upstairs and watch movies..
watch final destination..
was super gross..
den after that watched another movie..
forgot the title..zzz

played blackjack..
jiewei was banker..
totally funny..
i was laughing for no reasons at all..
nvm..
was metally unstable afterall..
i wasnt using my own money when playing blackjack..
i was using jiewei's money..
hahas!
i was looting his money..
loot until very shuang..
played till 2am i tink..
if i never remember wrongly..
den they ate cup noodles..
then they started laughing for no reasons again..
irony ehhs?

slightly towards the early morning..
i went sot by growing too much mushrooms under the table...
nvm.. siao liaos..
opps.. =X

okies.. i slept on the damn sofa..
nvm..
slept for a while.. den woke up..
to realise that janus and jiewei were sitting opposite me?
went back sleep again..
zzz.. too sleepy larhs..
im lacking too much sleep okies?

FRIDAY
hmms..
all of us went out of the chalet at 10plus..
wenbin, janus and jessie left..
wenbin went home.. but he said he would be back..
jessie and janus went home for a while.. then.. went for volleyball..
the rest of us went for breakfast..
hahas..
they said they wanted kfc initially..
but changed their idea later cause kfc has no air-con..
and the weather was super duper "cooling"
right.. cooling..

ended up in burger king..
after eating..
went to pasir ris park..
jiaqi and lena rented bicycle..
yusen, jiewei and yiyan took the key from me and returned back to the chalet..
sengie, baoshan and i slacked around pasir ris park..
talked bout stuffs..
got bored soon after..
so, we too went back to the chalet..
we dropped by cheers..
need to buy serviettes and grill..

sengie and i tried buying alcoholic drinks..
were totally embarassing
please show your ic.. thank you.. xD
thats what the cashier told us..
nvm..
bought onli the serviettes..

went back to chalet and slack around..
at bout 5plus..
jiewei, baoshan and i went to cheers again!
to buy the grill..
we pay the money..
he holds the stuffs..
xD

jiewei and i were argueing on our way back to the chalet..
started the mini pillow fight in the room..
baoshan joined in..
then yusen..
then yiyan..
then jiaqi..
the fighting time cut into the time we were supposed to go see the sunset..
aww..missed it..
nvm..
the pillow fight was super interesting!
i kena whacked until very jialat..
but jiaqi was the most jialat one..
three vs one..
yusen, jiewei, yiyan VS jiaqi
very funny..
had lots of fun..
but the place was in a mess..

after the pillow fight..
all of them went down for the bbq..
i stayed in the chalet to clear up the mess..
went i went down finally..
den they told me..
no more charcoal.. -_-'''
went to cheers AGAIN..
with baoshan, yusen, jiewei and yiyan..
saw ms sim and mr tan..
zzz..
i was having kinda attitude..
cause was kinda unhappy with some things...
attitude was soon over..
returned back to bbq..
i took the food upstairs and ate with shan..
hahas..
enjoyed ourselves..
very much indeed..
they came up soon after we finished the food..
cleared up and slacked..
left all the couples alone in different places..
really very sian..
ms soh promised to come over at around 12 midnight..
but she never came..
nvm..

checked out on saturday..
went to lena's house to stay over for another extra day..
slept in the noon..
evening woke up and watched dvd..
lena fell asleep in the media room..
after that..
went up..
slacked..
baoshan fell asleep real soon...
yeaps..
super fast..

next morning.. bathed and went to vivocity at 3 with her parents..
gosh..
it was super big there..
went home at 8pm..
xDD

sian-ed..
next day got school..
ahh.. i dont wanna know..
we were getting back all our results..
hais..

hands breaking

zzz..
today went to ntuc with baoshan..
bought the stuffs needed for the chalet like serviettes and plates..
den also bought some of the food and..
the chickon! actually.. it's chicken..
xD

buy that time..
got trolley push..
ok larhs./
but then after that..
go home that time..
carry all the things home..
siao liaos..
heavy until dunno like what..
me and shan carry until hands pain like siao..
den at the festival park there the carpark..
the plastic bags that shan were holding tore..
then the drinks drop on the floor..
zzz
managed to tahan until festival park..
den her mum come down and help her take..
while i walked home..
argh!
so heavy!!!
hurhur!

shoulders are aching now..
den hand very pain..
zzz
nvm..

chalet is tomorrow!!
wee~!!
xD

too much laughing causes harm..xDD

jus realised something..
too much laughing actually causes harm man!
MONDAY
had art paper..
my drawing was quite sucky..
but the painting was kinda okay larhs..
so.. hope that the painting can..
yar.. cover up for the horrible drawing..
xDD

after school went to find ms soh to tell her about the chalet..
yes!
she promised to come..
xD
after that went to take bus with sengie,jiaqi,lena and jessie..
cause wanna go tampines walk walk..
on the way to interchange..
jiaqi, sengie and i were having a so-called "fight"
but i am the innocent party..
nvm..
they continued fighting until they gt scratches on their hand..
den they were complaining here and there..
lols!
it continued wjhen we were on bus 18..
sorry-i-dont-know them..
opps..=X
sengie alighted at her stop while the rest of us alighted at tampines interchange..
went to kfc..
den went lena's house..
i was training her ice mage in the media room while the rest of them watched princess hour..
played halfway den her laptop..
"preparing to hibernate"
zzz
went up her room train..
cant believed i actually trained 80% for her while finishing 2 quest for her..
phew!
after that laughed non-stop with jiaqi and lena until jiaqi "heart pain"
lols!
had a great time there..
after that jiaqi's dad send us home..
reached home at 7..

TUESDAY
yeap..
thats today..
meet jiaqi, jessie and baoshan go play badminton..
very funny lors..
played and laughed at the same time..
zzz
after that went mac and slacked...
laughed more..
yeap..
with them i can laugh bout every single thing..
laugh bout wad?
eg: ppl push/pull the door.. jiaqi toking bout sth no link to what we are toking..
nvm..
after that went to cs..
dunno wherer to go..
so we stood next to the escalator outside BATA..
crapped about shop names..
BATA = buy and throw away
BOSSINI = bo seng li aka no business
hmms.. after that then go home already..
zzz..
it seems like im having kinda throat infection and a little slight cough..
argh.. of all times.. must be now..
what the hell..
nvm..
it shall not affect me in any ways..
cant really be bothered..
xD

countdown 2 days to the official end of end-of-year examinations
countdown 2days to our CHALET

yeaps...
and im looking forward to it alrights?
tmr going buy some of the stuffs for chalet lers..
hahas!
have fun~!

we swore to never hide secrets from each other.. thats our promise..

I'm trying to find truth in words, in rhymes, in notes, in all the things I wish I wrote, 'cause I feel like I've been losing you.

well..
i was chatting with sengie on msn..
they we were toking bout something..
den we can read each others mind!!
hahas!

great..
at least we werent sisters for nothing for the past 1 year 9 months
right?

yeah..
and im realli looking forward to the chalet..
can creat havoc inside!
xDD


and.. another thing..
the haze is really very bad man..
argh..
hate it.
it's making my nose very uncomfortable..
zzz..
hope this ends soon..

shan <33>

hmms..
sorry people..
this post has been deleted liaos..
xDD

hais..
sometimes.. im just so damn disappointed with you..
trying to make you feel how i feel..
but i just totally fail to do so lors..
i failed as a sister.. a daughter.. a friend.. as well as in.. studies
just a total failure..
i know that..
maybe many would be happier if i had never existed..
they wouldnt have to be worried?
they wouldnt have to nag?
they wouldnt have to try and give me everything i want...
they wouldnt have to endure my nonsense..

i dont beg for your forgiveness..
but i still hope that should i leave the world one day..
i would still wish that i leave without regrets..
without worries..
but i would want to bring the memories along with me..
into the grave..

I'm tired.. I'm a just a puppet of fate...

aww.. shall start with the few-days-in-one-go entry again..
yeaps..
hmms..
WEDNESDAY
had geography paper..
actually didnt really study cause..
slept.. den didnt manage to wake up to study..
zzz
shall not mention much bout exams..
they suck alrights?
hmms.. after the paper..
went mac with..
jiaqi, sengie, baoshan and jessie
hahas..
cus i wanted to eat mac breakfast..
xDD

after eating.. we did something to the poor advertisement of mac..
the one with the woman publicising for the cuppacino..
it was sengie's idea..
but it turened out rather nice yeah?
these are some pics larhs..


this is the original picture!



this is wad sengie did to it
pathetic right?


she went home and edited this!
nice ehhs?
credits to chong sengie!!

took pics wid qi and seng..
hahas!


shan' and seng


the CRAZY peoples!
qi shan' seng
i <33>

after that went home and slacked a while lors..
then slightly later then went downstaris study science with shan1..

THURSDAY
shall not mention anything bout thursday.. zzz...

FRIDAY
hmms.. had mother tongue paper1..
okie okie larhs..
maths was horrible..
i tink i will fail it as usual..
zzz..

went to tm with lena..
accompany her go buy maple prepaid card..
den after that meet shan'
accompany her go pierce ear tgt with her sisters..
aww..
nvm..

after that.. shan came to my house..
she played comp while waiting for me to get ready..
after that then go lena's house lors..
hmms..
hugged the hippo..
lols..
still prefer my PIG!
went home at bout 11.30..
reached home bout 12 plus?
yeah..
den bathed and..
yes.. still sitting infront of the comp..
zzz...

I'm trying to find truth in words, in rhymes, in notes, in all the things I wish I wrote, 'cause I feel like I've been losing you.

argh...
haven been blogging for quite some times ehhs..
"studying" mahs
zzz

hmms.
monday had maths paper1 and lit..
maths.. quite ok larhs..
noe how to do most of them..[[i hope?]]
lit was.. ahem..
rather.. to me.. super difficult..
i tink i will flunk it..
aww..

after school took train to pasir ris to take 403 to see see der chalet with baoshan and janus..
hmms..
realised 1 thing..
dun ever take train or bus with baoshan and janus..
they can took make you super pai seh that you just wanna stand further from them and say..
" i dont know them"
yeaps..
went on the bus..
wanted listen to mp3 der..
but janus and baoshan took my mp3..
zzz
so was looking out of the window thinking bout things..
yeahs.. something that has always been there..
nvm..
arrived at the chalet..
baoshan is super eyes-got-stamp.
went to see..
blah blah blah..
okies..
i feel like fast forwarding..
on the overall..
monday was pretty fun..

tuesday.
had mother tongue paper 1 and SOVA
mt paper..
i write der ying yong wen until left 3o mins to write my zuo wen..
zzz
the 2nd cher in my class was mr ow..
argh..
zzz..
SOVA paper..
total crap..
dunno how to do..
instead of doing the paper..
i was looking at the train..
yes.. the train that moves everyday on that god damn track..
after school waited for baoshan..
zzz;..
den after that went home liaos lors.
played maple.
cus i was super sians..

nvm..
fast forward until dinner time..
korkor came home.
talked to mummy a while..
den he asked me this..
shan.. when u going chalet?
den i say 12,13,14..
guess wad he told me?
ARGH!
he is going ARANDA chalet on the 11,12,13
zzz..
i feel like killing him seriously..
he told me aranda full house for weekdays lors..
den now he tell me he booking weekdays..

so i asked him.. if wanna book now.
can help me book?
he points the middle finger to me..
yes..
in front of me..
and.
he's out again..
stupid brother.

but he can be quite fun and nice when he's in a good mood..
but not when he is in a bad mood..
okies larhs..
i wanna stop liaos..

maybe try go study a bit of geography..
buais!

These memories are playing like a film without any sound...