You're irreplaceable

Tuesday, March 06, 2012

Uncertainty

Don't know what's gonna happen after poly life. Life is so uncertain:/
Anyway, so much been going on in my life. Feel like i need to sit down one day and blog a really long post out:/ Too much to write, overflowing emotions. But when i look at this space, BLANK. Very awesome. Many emotions i can't describe. Someone, /find my emotions and blog it all out for me please!

I'm be back soon i hope! Till then, ..!

Monday, February 20, 2012

Living your expectations

Yes, it's like 4am in the morning. I have to head to school to study tomorrow, and yet i'm still awake. All thanks to a dumb university application. Yes yes, i applied. So last minute i know. Quit all the naggings people. It may sound easy, JUST APPLY ONLY LA. But you have no idea how much is there to consider. No idea at all. So quit all the passing remarks.

I really have no idea what i want. Even up till now, i have absolutely no idea. Just gonna apply first. Cause.. apply loh. Other uni(s) can wait. Wait till after my exams okay? Don't come disturb me with it:/

Sometimes, I don't know why am i doing this. What is the reason and rationale behind doing this. Is majoring in this course what i really want? I have absolutely no idea. To many, it seems like my life is a typical Singaporean life. But, i don't know what i want, i see no goals, no future. Is my future only bright if i have that piece of paper? It's not only about what i want. I have to live up to so many expectations. Living up to everyone's expectations. Often i ponder, what i did, isn't what i really want. I'm just doing it cause.. others want me to do so.

Therefore, conclusion? Just live up to their expectations again. It makes the world more peaceful. Maybe that's the direction that i'll head towards. Living expectation.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Track of time

There's just so much going on this year. All the up(s) and down(s) to my friends. This year is indeed torturous for me.. I mean, it's like my final year. I don't even know how my future will be like in a few years time. I don't know what i want in life, what i want out of myself. Just, fuck this shit. Moreover, we are all going to be separated from all our friends. I mean, we can say stay in contact and all kinds of cliche words. But we know at the end of the day, we are all going to drift apart:/

Really is mental stress. Got to worry about results, worry about drifting apart, worry about future:/

I really don't wanna graduate. Just feel like it's the end of the education cycle. Whereby Uni is just an optional, not like after primary, you move onto secondary, then to poly/Jc. If i didn't meet this bunch of awesome people, i probably wouldn't give 2 fuck about graduating. But no, i met them. They brought upon a different meaning to the mundane poly life.

Fuck this okay. And now i'm feeling so troubled. Cause i can't get this nonsense out of my head. I don't want to look forward to anything. Especially this nonsense. I don't wanna get happy over absolutely nothing. Or rather, just my own imagination:/ Really think i should stop this shit before it gets wayyyyy too out of hand. By then, it will be nothing but hell.

On a side note, Bali trip has been confirmed! Air tickets and accomodation set. We're ready to go! ^^

I CAN DO IT!

Friday, January 27, 2012

Gone.

Been so long since i last blogged.

I'm so tired. So so tired. Mentally, physically and spiritually:/

JUST SO TIRED.

Tired of being a friend, tired of being a best friend. I feel like I've been keeping myself under pressure from everywhere. Doesn't pay to be nice. Ever. But i'm a sucker when it comes to friends and people i keep close to my heart:/

Things are just different. I just feel like i lost you. Each time i think of it. I feel like crying. Without fail. Guess i just gotta let it go. People don't come to stay in our lives forever. As much as i wish and miss, hais.

谁能打开我的心结。

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Life's been great

A late MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Okay, i feel like i'm wishing to myself only. Since i think that noone else reads this blog anymore. I mean it's like sooooo dead! :O

So apparently, out of many study sessions, some just don't work out at all. Went to study at Woodlands library with these mad people, ended up being super unproductive. Headed over to Kallang Leisure Park to have dinner with KaiXiong while oppa plays at the cage.

Like a act cute only.

There was free starbuck on the 2nd last paper. We studied till it was time to head over and get some caffeine to refresh our worn out brains. So, we decided to add some fun to the dead and boring queue. Hafiz and Oppa wanted to place it as "NAPFA" queue. But decided that it was too mean. So they changed it to cheapo queue. Heehee. Hasif got us a place right in front already cause he reached early. But we are a group of 6 i think. So it's kinda mean to just cute the queue. So we decided to just queue up ourselves(: Such awesome people! Then got this guy just come and talk to us then cute our queue-.-

Apparently some people really damn not auto, never even donate anything to salvation army >:(

All of us with our Starbucks!

Nevertheless, after the stressful exam period, life's been pretty good, had the most awesome ever class chalet. Never felt this bonded with a class before. Really love them to bits and pieces.

Portobello Mushroom with Morzerella Cheese (Whatever you spell it)

Added with Tomato Puree!

Just look at the amount of alcohol :O

Popping pills in the chalet!

Just kidding. They are Tic Tac(s). It's the special Christmas Edition ones. They don't taste nice. It's cinnamon i think. Taste like.... meh.

A toast!

Just before checking out! One final photo!

So, holiday isn't exactly holiday when you're in Year 3, dreading on wanting to chiong finish FYP report. Just had to camwhore a little so we don't feel so dead right? Right(:

Work @ Clarks with the awesomest peeps!

Although the management screw up, the boss kinda sucks, unlike Leslie:/

But thank god for these people, they make everything sooo much better, even though Zara, Michelle and I got separated from them): But so glad that the rest of them can click so well! *wink*

They were giving out clarks t-shirt. So yanhui took and tired on.

Looks like the latest baseball uniform fashion uh!

Second last day of work at Clarks, so we headed to 18chef to have dinner! All the girls squeezed into Mandy's car, while the guys took a cab there. Heehee! Had fun gossiping away also!

On the day of set-down while we have our break:D

After the last day of work, we wanted to hang out in the night, so we decided on going to Sheryl's house. Since there's like no one at home. We made it into a house party. Hell of a crazy one. Awesome!

There's too many of us. So we have to take 2 seperate trips.

While waiting for others to come up, just had to take photo.

Cam-whores.

My beloved oppa at work. Heehee!

Chocolate Fondue!

What are you guys thinking?! It's just a Fondue House Party yo! :D

The master chef that made all of these possible! <3

Alright, you guys are right, it's impossible for my class to have a house party without the booze:/

Ta-da!

Tequila shots!

In order to make this....

He did this!

The more noise we made, the more tequila and gin he poured and stop pouring orange juice >:(

And the next day, Weijie had driving, Tiffannie, YiYan and Jiamin had work in the noon, Oppa had to go to school for Inter-Con official, Zan had to go school for FYP. Most of them failed to do what they were supposed to have done:/

Guess what, in the night, they met up for another round of drinking. Like some alcoholics. So we are like hungry monsters also, so we decided on eating Nihon Mura. We only had 30 mins to order cause we went in late. So Clarence went to order quantity x7 for everything even though there's only 5 of us! :O

There was so much food that we just can't finish):

The guys all had christmas hats! Heehee, so cute! :P

Zara bought Jiaqi and I chickies! Heehee. My chicky is the one in brown, hers in pink.

My chicky's nose was at the verge of dropping so she kept laughing at mine. End up, her chicky's eye went missing. Of course I laughed back at her.

Then, my chicky's eye went missing too-.-

The next day, after doing FYP, oppa managed to scam Elle to come down to town and have dinner together. We are such lame people. We headed to town just to eat.... Wendy's-.- LIKE TAMPINES CANNOT EAT LIKE THAT! Who's idea!

After that, just cause we bullied Weijie, so he treated us to Gelatosimo! Actually i think oppa treated too!

On Friday, Yiyan, Zara and I met up for dinner after my FYP. After which, we took the car and sent Zara down to her friend's 21st chalet at Goldkist. I tell you, she like a princess okay. We park car accompany her walk to the chalet then walk back and slack in the car. So camwhore again! ):

Then, after she was done, i walked back in to fetch her out while yan took the car nearer to the entrance pavement. After that, we headed down to 112 Katong to fetch Oppa and Zan cause they just finished work!

Supper!

Had to head down to Bukit Timah to pick Sheryl. And so that Sylvia can follow us. Cause she doesn't know how to get there. So... the initial plan was to go 126 for some porridge. But ended up, we headed to Upp Thomson Road for Prata house. Ended up, there was an ice-cream parlour next to it. And guess what?

The shop is owned by oppa's friend. So... He treated Zara, Sheryl and I ice cream while the others when to park the other car. Apparently yanyan almost knocked someone down. Tsk! Cause he was using Sylvia's car!

Then, the next day was Christmas Eve!

Checked in at River View Hotel Junior Suite. Like some atas kiddos!

Then, oppa called and asked how was the room. And checked if there was any HDMI cables for the television. The TV in the living room was concealed in, so we couldn't check. I walked into the room and check. When i came out, this is what they did,

THEY TOOK OUT THE ENTIRE BRACKET! =.=