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I used to type this to a particular someone. I guess i miss him now. Each time i think of him, it gets a little sour. 

Cause seeing you makes the world go round

Went out with Hunnypie on Wednesday! Happygirlmax_92!

School was crap that day, i swearrrrr, stupid presentation was kinda incomplete. My whole group was late. LOLOLOL, Fairuz the idiot, cheated my feelings by telling me he's not coming to class when he was already nearing class. Asshole. Gave me a panic attack for like 10seconds. Asshole. Anyway, we were so desperate that we told Sylvia to wait outside the class so that we can drag time, no need present yet. Thank god we finished in time. Tsk, see what last minute work does! ):

Headed down to Orchard with Clarence cause he wanted to buy something in order to use up his voucher, we spent quite awhile in Robinson trying to get something. Ended up, he settled for a FCUK jacket. Starting i said it was ugly, so it made him think very very long. Ended up i say it's nice and... off he goes to the cashier counter~ Lalala~

Anyway, i say this uber cute shirt, so i made him try it on. Awwwww! So freaking cuteeee max! Heehee! Couldn't resist taking a few photos<3

Nevertheless, we stopped by to eat Cold Stone. That day, they were arguing on the bus if it's cold stone or cold rock. Both shops apparently exists, only to realise that Cold Stone is the popular oneeee.

I don't really think it's that nice leh, quite over rated leh.

Headed over to Far east after that to find my flats! Found it at last! Hohoho!
Met up with zarabanana after that for dinner! :D

Still thinking which to get, where to go:/ Feel soooooo lost!

Instead of seeing me as just someone that they can take advantage of. Take my kindness for granted. There's a limit to my patience. I can be there for you when you truly need me. But stop taking it for granted that i'd be there to always clear up your shit. I'm not your cleaner. 

That being said, i don't think you even give a shit. 

Afterall i'm just someone you come to when others can't be there for you.

So much for a Happy Monthsary.

So much in my head. 

I disappointed you, yet i couldn't even say a thing to defend myself. 

Nothing at all. 

You don't know how it feels like. 

You don't know. 

You don't.

Sometimes i don't understand why do i have to live up to people's expectations, do what they tell me to. I get people telling me what i should do, what i must do, why can't i do things otherwise. Why can't i just do things that way i please to do it. Seriously, don't tell me who i am. And, initially, i thought we were more important than this. I see what we mean to you. I just don't see and feel things in the same way as it does. Maybe staying apart and keeping a part to myself was much better than this. I'll be fine, we'll just keep the memories and the best parts. Love you always. xoxo.

Drunkards.

Friday:
Met up with ZhenBang and Ricky to have lunch! Mac for lunch, what an awesome lunch! Headed to buy stingray at NTUC, marinated it when i got home. Usually the uncle will remove one side of the side, but this time, the uncle didn't! So, yeah, FML. I had to spend so much time and effort removing the skin. Tsk! Wonder if people even appreciate it man.

Saturday: 
Headed to buy food with people. I felt so out of place. So, don't belong there. No one from my clique came and help me. Clarence was playing maple. Seriously, fuck maple okay. Met with kind of shits. They are not the usual kind of people to think in the appropriate manner i suppose? I just didn't like being there. Headed down to Clarence's house after that. Felt much better after i saw Janus and Wenyong. It's like a relief. Afterall that's where my safety bubble belongs.

Janus set up fire, i cooked. They sat around. Honestly, i dislike people who don't contribute. Don't misunderstand, i'm not pointing fingers. Just, thoughts.

Drinking in the night, Ricky kept giving Zhenbangb shots.Don't feel like elaborating much. Cause it wasn't entirely an awesome night. Just, so many things to worry, so much constraints. Maybe it's cause we're with a bunch of people that we were not too comfortable with. Anyway, headed up to Clarence's house cause it looked like was gonna pour. Then, Zhenbang got high, He getting high i can understand. But, when others around him can't control him, then it's a downright disturbance to other people's family.

Headed down to the swimming pool area when they were getting way too noisy. Eventually, we were chased away by the security before we even started drinking. Zhenbang puked into the drain by the pool. Q walked in the other pool. Qi had a headache due to drinking too much.

Split our ways and headed to Clarence's house while they went over to Benson's house. Zara was right, we should have split up right from the start. If it weren't for Ricky who wanted to drink together, we prolly would have split. Then i probably wouldn't even have to seek your thoughts in regards to me bringing Q down-.-

Texas with the guys, while the rest slept. Ganged up to make Janus drunk:P it was as though we hit jackpot. However, we had to endure with his nonsensical disturbance to all of us. *Sigh* Mac breakfast!

Sunday:
Cabbed home in the morning at around 9! Slept at around 12-1. Woke at 4. Seriously sleep deprived! But, anything for HP! Sorta late for the movie cause we were off schedule:/ So we rushed here and there. But we managed to make in just in time. Really is just in time:D Jiewei was late though):

After movie, Lai Lai @ Liang Seah Street! It was supposed to be Ah Chew dessert! ): Headed home after that! :D

Ohhh, not forgetting WenYong's classic Solar bear! The bear runs on solar powers! So cute! I can imagine the bear! hohoho!

Walls or Bridges?

People build walls because it's just piling up pieces of bricks, nothing much. Don't even have to worry about it crashing down, cause it hardly happens. People don't build bridges cause it takes time and effort to reach to the other end. You need 2 parties building the bridge in order for it to work. It one fails to, the bridge falls apart, comes crashing down, entirely. Moreover, you need to maintain the bridge regularly to make sure it doesn't rust and crash. So tell me, why would anyone even want to build bridges?- Weijie

Found it totally true, Weijie told me this after seeing the quote above. Why do we bother building bridges? Sometimes we get tired building it, maintaining it. It's such a chore! But we can't possibly all live in solitary? We all hurt people, people come and go. Cause there's no such thing as an entry ticket to a person's life. You can barge in when you like, and make your disappearing act as and when you please. Just wished that sometimes, you could tell if the person is here to stay or not. So you wouldn't have to waste time entertaining them, putting in feelings and effort, only to find them disappearing again.

Anyway, these few days have been tiring. I'm just so tired, God knows why. Ohwell, been hanging out with a friend whom i'm glad came back. I'm open to friends, i tend to give too much, tell too much, fall too hard. I need a god damn-ed bubble to myself. Seriously. Sometimes it gets scary when the past comes catching up with you, for the good and for the worse. But it sure felt nice when these memories fill us up. Makes me feel like we could go on indefinitely.

Shall go sleep soon and post more on another day. Been real lazy these days.

On a side note, really *cross finger* hope that Baby passes his driving! <3 !

I want to blog, but i'm tired! ):

Guess i'll just wait another day then i blog!

Till then, Miss me! <3!

When annoyingness gets the better of you.

Lessons before 9am are never my thing, i swear. Lesson at 8.30 today, i woke up at 7.45! Naiseeee. I took my own sweet time to prepare and drag myself to school. Ended up, sat beside elle and started talking about East Spring Primary people! The world is soooooo small. Jiewei recognizes her, she recognizes him! Her way of identifying him is super classic. Heehee! Shan't post here, later Jiewei paiseh. *wink wink*

Waited for Clarence at station after class ended~ While taking the train back, i wanted to rest on his shoulders. But seriously, i think my beloved is getting more annoying by the days. He didn't wanna let me rest, so, he started tickling my leg. When i held his hands, he'll use another hand, then use his bag strap. Oh, seriously, from queenstown all the way to simei keep annoying me man! So i asked him when does he keep annoying me. He told me he needed some self entertainment-.- IF HE WANTED SELF-ENTERTAINMENT, SHOULDN'T HE BE MAKING HIMSELF?! Where's the logic yo!

On the train for Simei to Tampines, he swore he won't disturb me. I think he thinks he's very cute! One station, HOW TO REST?! OMGSXSXSX!

Lunched at Mac and roam-ed around. I found the hokkaido cookies that Lennie used to buy for us from hokkaido! But, it's like... super ex! $27.80 for 18 pcs, it's super nice! But had to resist it! ): While walking home, bumped into AKY, that Chao Keng warrior. He's on "leave" till Tuesday. LOLOLOL.

Home to nua! Shall blog later!

Ohyeah, btw, kinda hate the new blogger template sometimes cause it's soooo restrictive, like no transparency settings. So, i hate to manually applied transparency to the bg photo so that it doesn't look sooooo outstanding. And i realised my font size was wayyyyy bigger than usual, no wonder it looked weird! ):

To your advantage

Nods! Recently, someone told me:
"Eh, Arina! Whenever i want _____, i comfirm will think of you."Seriously, i feel disappointed in this sentence. It's cause this person will only think of me when the person wants something that is obviously to his advantage? I have to do other shitsx, while they only rip the benefits of it. Like what the hell? I'm like the sparetire? I'm like being taken advantage of? Nope, i don't know how to feel like I'm the candle and they only come to me in the dark. I don't like being taken advantage of. I'm nice to my friends, so i hope they don't make us of the kindness to take advantages. Obviously, that is clearly impossible. I mean, with someone around that is so good to take advantage of, who wouldn't?! I like the one clearing shitsx.

Alright, changed my blogger background! I think it's pretty much screwed up! But, just deal with it, it won't be long before i change again. LOLOLOL, I can't stand living with the same background forever! I loved my previous bg!

Anyway, school's a retard as always. Richard is still not done with the papers, not that i really care actually, i'm just curious about my marks, that's all.

Went home to cool down before meeting up an old friend! (like i very old like that). Love those good old times. Despite all the disputes, all the up(s) and down(s), i still think that some friends, we'll be on their side afterall. I may have missed out alot, but we can catch up on the details!

Then, when walking home, walked under the MRT track, damnnnnnn unlucky! Don't know what shit drop on my clothes, i strongly believe it's part of a bird shit. Oh man, fuck this shit seriously. Gross shit. Okay, shall stop this shitting shit:/

Shall go sleep soon!