I mean, fucking serious.

First, you keep rushing me for a freaking answer. I don't wanna just anyhow give an falseful answer and make everything worse. So, i say i have to comfirm with others first. Then, you ganchiong go and rush to book the fucking room. Now, it's my fault that the room will be left empty. Wtf uh, seriously. Then i obviously will go up with them cause that's where my companion will be. So, you're expecting me to be going with you, i stare at you, you stare at me. Then, what comes outta it? Then the last day, we leave and go seperate ways. God damnit. Seriously.

Then now you tell me, say i don't even wanna go up with you, then now there's an empty room for one night. My fault is it? You wanna settle everything so fast without comfirmation. This is what you get loh-.-

EXAMS OVER!

Yes, that's what we've all been waiting for! Alright, tired. Lazy blog. Will blog tmr if i'm at home. Lovelove~

Today's another long day. Work at 10 today. Met bryant at 8 at outram MRT. Been hearing him say 习惯就好. End up kena say back by me(: He's been saying that cause of the show/song.

Breakfast had honey star at Take Five. Then headed back to outlet. Siva thought Sandra, me and Bryant were late. LOL. Anyway, did stock taking. Mix with a little hard labour. All the way till lunch. Then, Din came back driving the van. We asked him to take us in the van. Muahaha, played around in the back of the van with Sandra, Bryant and Valerie. Lunch at Take Five again. After that, took shuttle bus back. Then we asked for the bus driver uncle's number so that he can fetch us often. Cause our place is so far far away:S

Went back to work, stock take at dry store, ice cream frm Friar's, shopping at Fairy GodMother. Instant Noodles at Take Five. Slack around, stock take again, Labour work, carry juices out to van and carry mix in.

Went to wardrobe to change out, waited for Bryant and JunLin for an hour. Met up with Weijie at harbourFront then cabbed down to Katong to meet BaiXiang. K-ed. Happy(: Super lot of nonsense(: Cabbed home>.<


Labour work):


Sandra, BeeLee, Valerie.


Bryant.


Valerie the mad one.


Bryant & I


Sandra, Bryant, BeeLee, Valerie and Din.


Troy(:


Friar's icecream. Make ourself de. Mine considered very good.





Madness photo:S Okay, shall go take a rest. Tired. Nights world(:

OMG, tired today.
Gonna be a short post. Cause it's 3.20 now and i gotta wake up at 6 am tmr. How sweet. Shitass.

Worked today. Played with Bryant's hair while waiting to see our schedule. We tried to make Guan Yu's hair. Concluded that it's impossible to use wax. Must use spray to be power enough. Left Goldilocks at 11.15. Predicted that by the time we were to change out and get outta USS, there's not gonna be any bus/trains left. So, we decided to take night transport home(:

I was the first to reach home. Compared to weijie and bryant. Ended up, when to meet Jasmine. Sorry uh, miss her too much>.> Chatted for a long long time(:

Cause we don't mean the same to you anymore. Still the same? Not quite the same actually. What i'm angry with? Everything. Yes, i know i'm not making any chances for you to prove.

One more day(:
One more day till you're back(:
I'm counting down the hours(:
Don't wanna say this, cause you're supposed to know.
Nevertheless, i miss you!
Life without you so weirdddd. :S

Anyway, yesterday, woke up at 5.30am to go for training-.- I didn't managed to sleep well. Met up with Catherine and another guy who doesn't have the pass and went for training. Ended up around 3.30.

Then, headed back to outlet, suddenly say i off-.- Cause i've been working 7 days in a row without off. So, was told to go home. But, they had a shortage of manpower cause last minute changes caused some of them to be unaware that they had to work. So, went off to change at wardrobe. Hui Er, Clarence, WeiJie and I took our time to go back. Haha. Cause we were tired in a way or another.

I was cashier. First counter somemore:S Anyway, was rather sad at the end up the day. Stuffs couldn't tally. Kinda disappointed with myself:S

After that, chionged to wardrobe and change out then rushed to city hall meet Clarence. Headed over to Jiewei's house. I was hungry. Cause i ate at 12pm. And it was 10pm at that time. We couldn't reach Janus at all. Concluded that he fell asleep. Jiewei and I started spamming his phone with calls and messages. HAHA! Finally decided to call his house. He got down after Clarence and I finished bathing.

Mahjong. Kept losing at the start. Then, at a certain point, started to feel very unwell. Feels like i'm super dehydrated. My whole body was very cold. But my face was very hot. I felt like my face was burning. Took break. After resuming the game, i was super unwell. But, still had to like, tahan. Started winning all my losses back with 自摸，满台。 Heng shit.

Went to koon at around 7 cause Janus had to go off. I feel more comfy sleeping on his bad after he changed his bed(: Woke up at around 10 plus. Went home at 11 plus.

Then, instead of sleeping, i watched 3anGuo. Watch halfway, go koon. Wake up watch 3anGuo, watch halfway go back koon again. LOL. Bryant inspired me to watch 3anGuo again.

Work again tmr:( Feels kinda like i've been chionging work. Actually, i wish can break one more day:S


Receiving your words and messages are like receiving roses with thorns. As hurting as it is, i teared.

“ You were never supposed to mean this much to me. “

That pic, it's what i'm supposed to do now.

Oh, same routine. Work again:S Finally kena server. Like happy only(: HEES! didn't take dinner, just went to the seats at the back and talked to Katherine(: The wind super shiok. We were not allowed to take our phones today): Siva checked): Nevermind. After work, Sandra passed me my phone, there were 6 messages. 5 from Eddie, 1 from Weijie. All about tmr's training-.-

Training at 8.30 tmr:S I need to wake up at 5.30. How sweet. Now's 1am. IF, i go to bed now, i will have 4 1/2 hrs of sleep. If i don't, i will have less. Super sweet yeah?
Training from 8.30am to 4pm.
Work from 3pm -9pm
Equals = 8.30 am to 9 pm.
After that mahjong with Clar, Jan and Jie? Shall see if i'm tired ttm anot. Cause i got work from 3-9 the next day. Shitass. Feels like this week i've been chionging work. Damn no life. Where's all my drama. I'm putting them all on hold. Including my HwangTaeKyung! How could i do this to him):

Anyway, i was happy to receive your message. But, happiness don't last forever. Your words sting. It wasn't meant to hurt this way. You weren't supposed to mean so much in sucha a short period of time. I'm super tired. But you ain't talking, i can't sleep. I just feel guilty? I don't know what you're thinking. Ohno):

Fake smiles and deceptions

Ohgosh, tired shit. There wasn't really a crowd today. Managable ba. Was super bored at work. But after break, too over at the front and things become more fun. Talked rubbish with David about Horoscope. LOL-ness.

After clearing up and while eating the food, we were having lots of fun. Cause we were making out a story to make ourselves believe where Bryant and David went to. Total craziness. All the wrong stuff aka, above 18 stuffs. But, the girls are the one contributing the most. We were the ones we started it and made it super super wrong.

After changing at wardrobe, Katherine "lost" her badge. We missed a bus asking the wardrobe personnel to open the door. Ended up, it was in her bag. Haha, kena suan-ed by all. Missed the bus, the next bus was full. So, we decided to take the guests bus. Which was actually meant for casino. Ended up saying that all of us are underage and worst still, our attire is comfirm CMI to go in. Haha, Slippers and Sandals. Bermudas and Shorts.

Took the last train from HarbourFront to Outram, I think. Was talking about SanGuo with Bryant in the train. Yes, we're getting all of them crazy with us soon(:
While waiting for the Outram-Tampines train, we told Bryant what happened while he was away. Meaning we told him all the nonsense we said. Tsk tsk, Bryant, now, even if you were to jump into the yellow river also can't clear your name. Haha!

Life's tiring having to put on masks, put on fake smiles. Deceptions & Hypocrites.

"Wanting to be someone you’re not is a waste of the person you are."
- Kurt Cobain
锁上心房，不让任何人接近。
应为害怕受到伤害，
害怕心碎得不知要如何去收拾。

Work today's alright. My voice is going haywired:S Reached home around 12. Super tiring. Just, mentally tired ba. Been talking to Nick since i got online. Talked alot. Made me think super lot. My brain is supposed to be hibernating now!

Anyway, work tmr again. i feel like i'm so no life. Opps:X
Alright, lazy blog liaosxzzz. Blog another day when i feel like it.
OR
when i off day(:

HEE! till then. Love ya~

When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you, & it doesn’t mean that they are bad people. It just means that their part in your story is over."

CNY is super boring, like as usual. Woke up early in the morning(AGAIN). Totally not enough sleep man. Been waking up at 5, labour days, then, back home really late and tired shit. Went temple to pray with parents. FYI, i totally dislike the smell of the josstick, it makes my nosey wriggle and makes me feel really irritated. Then, went suntec to see the horoscope. Will post pictures of it later on(:

Went over uncle house, stone, watch teevee, then went over hospital to see another uncle. Oh, sian-ness. Back home now. It's the only thing that makes me happy. Cause i can watch drama! Did i mention? These few days i was so tired, the moment i reached home, i didnt even bother and want to turn on the computer. MY DRAMA! MY DARLING!

ohyeah, exams are over. Except for Building Services paper which falls on the 24th. So, yeah, these few days working over at Resort World Sentosa (RWS). Not gonna talk much about it. Just, interesting things happen(:

I happen to see this thing a while ago. LOL-ness. It's dumb, but kinda true sometimes. Just, typical.

1. Girl + Boy = Girl - Best Friend
( Girl meets boy, girl leaves best friend )

2. Girl - Boy = Girl + Best Friend
( Boy leaves Girl, girl runs to her best friend )

3. Girl + Best Friend = Rebound
( Girl and Best Friend back together, she’s a rebound )

4. Girl + Boy = Girl - Best Friend
( Boy comes back, girl leaves best friend again )

5. Best Friend = 0
( The Best Friend is the victim of the sad story )

Alright, shall go do my things already. Working tmr and i have no idea when is my off day:S Cause i just agreed to work on my off days (>.<)

EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS:S
I thought after tmr's last paper (*excluding BS on 24th), i could like, enjoy myself for a day. But, nooooo! I got work after that! OMG, major sadness. Yes, hiding in a corner crying my eyeballs out.

ITP was alright, screwed up some parts though.
ECTP was slightly better than i thought it would be. But, i was sooo dumb. I merged 2 drawings into one when they asked for formwork. Very smart.
D&D was ): Cause i didn't even finish. Should have done isometric before doing perspective. I re-drew perspective 3 times! I can't believe what i was actually doing man! This is what happens when exams damage your brains. The air con was so cold, couldnt't even draw properly:S
Tmr is Law, omgness, i haven't even started on it. I am so screwed:S Kill me thanks.

Did i say i love ben's voice. Haha, like how i like li sheng jie's songs. Don't tell him, later he yayapapaya. And, when he sing, he'll go (eg. 生日快乐，我对自己说，蜡烛点了，寂寞亮了， blah blah blah blah.) Funny loh.

We went K yesterday(:
&&JustAcia(((:
LOVES!

I'm gonna run outta life soon. Exams, work, work, work, CNY, work, work, work, x100. When can have a life?
Having a life = Watching you're beautiful all day long, crying eyeballs out. Don't mind watching 100 times. Yayness.

i am effing tired. That's all i can say.
Stonning process continues...

I've got lotsa things in my head now. Got mixed emotions now): I got like, so much work that is yet to be completed. Then, term exams are round the corner, CNY's coming soon. I got so much to do, so little time. no motivation to do so.

Now, i'm feeling so nostalgia. I just feel strings of remorse. I mean, i'm not feeling sympathetic. I'm just feeling these remorse coming back. It's not the first time, it won't be the last. Afterall, when someone has come close to your heart before, irregardless of what happened in future, it will still affect you in a way or another. I just feel regretful that things turned out this way? It could all be fine. I'm bringing the fault all upon myself. I know, the decision to leave was suggested by many. But, i could have stuck on. It ain't sympathy making me feel this way. Nothing to do with sympathy at all. It's just... Guilt perhaps?

It's okay if you all don't understand the post. It's just a place for me to rant my inner thoughts.