hmms.
know what?
i went for CO today!!1
HAHAS!

okies larhs
can't really wake up in the morning.
i wan to sleep.
was busy hugging my pig.
kena waked up by my dad.
got ready by 8.15.
tried calling jasmine.
cause wanna ask her wanna meet den go school together.
she didn't answer the phone.
nevermind.

reach mrt station at 8.30.
called jasmine again.
she is about to leave the house.
so waited for her at the platform.
wo0t.
we reached school at 9.02
thats pretty early.
jiaqi arrived at 9.05.
hah!

combine from 9-12.50
went out for lunch at the school opposite dere the hawker centre.
so many people.
tsk tsk tsk.
ate ice-cream with grace.
hehe!

went back to school at almost 2.
haha!
zhang lao shi toom the room next to CO room
the one with the air-con
it's the maths room.
wahhs.
so heng.
so shiok.
better then the other sections that are in the classrooms.
so shuang.

kinda slack larhs
cause zhang lao shi hungry.
den he keep asking for chocolate.
then he keep speaking in those kind of hong king accent.
so funny lors!
well. he's cute at time.
yeaps.

after CO.
walked to the mrt station with jasmine.
saw yiyan, nick and ah gong behind us.
then saw some other people.
then i kisiao keep on at there laugh.
hahas!

gu nan gua nu in a room together, anything also can happen esp when it's THEM.
hahas!
so funny lors.

then we keep laughing.
here's the conversation while we were on the way to mrt station.
ME:hehe! ehhs! gu nan gua n, anything also can happen.
AH GONG: aiyo. that time you all at chalet also mahs
ME: that one different larhs, we all so many people. nevermind.
YIYAN: [[takes out a monster sweet and gives to ah gong]]
ME: ehhs! i also wan! never gimme! RAWR!
YIYAN: lalala~
ME: [[dig into yiyan's bag the front there to get the sweet. can't find anything. only can feel plastic bag.]]
ME: i wan the monster sweet!
YIYAN: gave me the sweet.
NICHOLAS: eh! i also wan lehs!
they began snatching yiyan's bag or something like that. i didn't see cause i was walking in front of them
ME: turns head.
AH GONG/NICHOLAS: why all plasic bag?
ME: ya lors. why your bag so many plastic bag der?
YIYAN: cause scared they snatch my bag like now larhs!
AH GONG/YIYAN: [[meddles with the 2 yellow in colour plastic bags]]
ME: ehhs! yankeey! is it cause no money buy condom thats why use plastic bag and replace?
ME-AH GONG: yiyan is it no money then use condom to replace?
laughing out loud!

after that, inside the mrt was ah gong hitting stomach.
hah! quite light larhs.
ME: ehhs. hit lower lehs! hehe!

after alighting from the train, THEY continue their journet while the rest of us alighted.
jasmine and i went to buy CHOCOLATE ICE-BLEND.
nicholas went tm i think.
yankeey and ah gong went towards the bus interchange.
hah!
see ya on saturday~

peace(((:

seriously.
i'm beginning to understand everything lesser and lesser.
i'm beginning to understand myself lesser.
i'm beginning to understand you lesser.

i don't know what i want.
cause it seems that there is nothing that i can ever want.
whatever i want, will eventually not be given to me.

i feel like an idiot,
waiting for you and everything.
sometimes i just wanna let everything go and move on.
but whenever i try to do it, i fail terribly.
in fact, it comes back to me even more.
i will end up waiting again.
i don't wanna live my life waiting for something that will never come.

what i want, was just so simply.
yet it seems to difficult.
i just wanted you to be there for me when i really need you.
i just wanted some peace.
yet there seem to be no peace at all.
no matter where i go, there is no peace.
all i wanted was you to be who you used to be.

are things really that difficult?

no peace:(((

gosh~
i don't know how much lamer can my mother get man!
this was the conversation between me and my mum.
it is about the phone that i have been setting my eyes on, K800i.
the CYBERSHOT phone.

MOTHER: shan, i buy for you the K800i then you change phone with da korkor okay?
ME: what the.. i want K800i. then you say buy for me. then buy already ask me to change with korkor.
MOTHER: i was thinking of giving him the K800i, then you take his phone.
ME: ... you very bo liao lehs. i want K800i. then you say buy for me then ask me change phone with him. isn't it equals to buying the phone for him.
MOTHER: ...
ME: if he really want that phone. then he still buy for jiejie for what? might as well he keep himself.
MOTHER: aiyah.
ME: aiyah. i don't know what you all thinking larhs. so lame one.

seriously.
i don't know what parents are thinking.
whats' the point of buying a phone that came out last year when you have other choices avaliable that are almost of the same price.
zzz.
lame people.
nevermind.

frustration))):

oh man~
didn't have a nice sleep.

slept at about 3 last night.
talked on the phone with kaijing~.
had to put down the phone cause my mum woke up.
and i almost got caught.
xD

i woke up at 6am.
for no reason.
thanks to my dearest brother's handphone.
i wonder who would send call him so early.
he was still sleeping soundly.
sent a message that i had finish typing at 3am but forgot to send.
thats dumb.
nevermind.
fell asleep back again soon after.
the recipient of the message replied me pretty fast.
i was pretty surprised.
but i was still in my sleepy mood and i forgot what i just sent.
so, yes.
half awake, half asleep.

10am.
"SHAN!! WAKE UP!!\
HELP ME FIND THE ERRICSON CHARGER!!
YOUR DADDY AT SINGTEL NOW"

great~
wake me up from my sleep just for one dumb charger.
mum was nagging away.
i don't know what she's talking.
all i know is that she asked me to look for an erricson charger.
den my mum started taking the chargers at home and ask me whether is it the right one.
most of them she showed me was nokia ones.
zzz.

yak yak yak~
finally.
she left the house.
but i can't go back to sleep already.
the sleepiness is kinda gone.
zzz.

later Sijie coming to edit somethings.
then going for some council outing with em.
honestly, i don't wanna watch HAPPY FEET
i will watch larhs.
but not on a sunday at TAMPINES MALL!

nevermind.
can't change anything already since they already booked the tickets.
and..
i'm off..
byee~

peace(((:

hmms..
woke up at 12+ today.
watched a lil bit of goong.
then on comp.
started getting bored after about 15mins.
slacked in front of the computer.
did nothing.
i was rotting in fact.
after 3/4 of rotting completed,
i was seriously bored to death already.
bout 2plus like that,
jasmine came online.

ha!
here come my saviour.
talked to her for a while.
then decided to go over to her house.
but we have no idea of what to do at all.
in the end, i decided to go to her house and bored to death together.
lalalas~

hmms.
actually go there also don't know do what.
then we watch It All Started With A Kiss again.
after that watch the "jui dui superstar"
then watched the 9pm show.

ate the instant noodle - indo mee goreng, for dinner.
after that simin laopei called me.
ask me want go work on saturday mahs?
yeaps.
decided to go.
then after work, go home slack, change.
then go for the council outing.
i'm wondering what movie they will watch.
hmms.

anyways, for those that their exco[s] haven call them,

TIME: 4pm
MEET AT: Tampines MRT Station
GOING: Movie
THINGS TO BRING: Yourself, $9.50 for the movie ticket.


yaya..
what are the movies avaliable now?
1. Casino Royale
2. The Nightmare Before Christmas
3. Happy Feet
4. Flushed Away
5. STEP UP
6. The Grudge 2
7. Open Season
8. Deck The Halls

zzz.
the only movies that i will be interested in are,
% Casino Royale
% The Nightmare Before Christmas
% Happy Feet
% STEP UP
% The Grudge 2

i doubt they will watch The Grudge 2
they rest of the movies that i want to watch are either NC16, M18.
zzz.

i wanna watch ERAGON

peace(((:

TUESDAY
poof.
i wasn't a great day for me yesterday.
damn sway.

first, it was the night before.
i was complaining to my brother that i was feeling super sick.
nevermind.

woke up the next morning, super early.
got ready and meet simin laopei.
bought mac breakfast and eat.
took bus 8 to telok turau primary.
the bookshop aunty really vey friendly.
much more friendlier than some people.

start work at 9.
work and work.
had lunch at bout 1 plus i think.
ate i-don't-know-what.
simin buy for me wan.

don't know why, but i was having fainting spells the whole day.
keep on like want to black out like that.
dunno why also.

books kept falling on me.
X_X
one word, SWAY

then open the books that time, accidentally kena cut by the penknife.
small cut.
quite lucky larhs.

legs got blisters!
T.T
X_X
SWAY.

after work went to tampines mall with simin.
zzz.
keep feel like vomiting on the bus.
finally reached tampines after the loooonnnggg bus trip.

went to tampines mall.
she went to disturb her friend at long john silver.
hahas!
evil.


simin bought something for me.
i bought for her something as well.
actually we bought the same thing.

ARINA
there is a lil sotong in front of the name.
reminds me of JIAQI
see! jiaqi! i treat u so good!







went to mini toons, urban concept.
then went to century square.
ate HAGEN DAZS ice-cream.
actually i prefer swensens.
but swensens close liaos ler..
T_T

after that went to take books from andrew.
hahas!
he say i fly his aeroplane.
cause i meet him 7.30.
den late.
sorry larhs!

while on the way back home, tummy start to very pain.
den reaching home that time gastric very pain.
at home eat dinner.
den slack here and there.
tummy still hurts like siao.
T_T

talked on the phone with MY LATEST BOYFRIEND
hahas!
something miraculous was that, while i was on the phone with my latest boyfriend, my tummy didn't hurt a bit.
we were talking about boyfriends.
then i kisiao.
started laughing for no reason.
then started singing the barney song.

I LOVE YOU,
YOU LOVE ME,
WE ARE HAPPY FAMILY.
WITH A GREAT BIG HUG
AND A KISS FROM ME TO YOU.
WON'T YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME TOO~!

i know i'm crazy.
then we started doing the "euu" version.
cause i remember that time we send jiaqi home.
then jiewei and i started talking about the retarded person finding trouble on sengie's blog.
and the song goes like this..

" II LURF EUU,
EUU LURF MUAHH
WE RE HAPPII FAMIILY.
WIF A GRREAT BIIG HUGG
AND A KISS FROM MUAHH TUU EUU.
WUN'T EUU SAYY EUU LURF MUAHH TOO~"

huh.
"nice" uh?

well, the "muahh" reminds me or.......
MUAH CHEE.
yeaps.

my latest boyfriend and i were laughing like some crazy idiots.
while we were about to put down the phone,
my tummy hurts like siao again..
hurhur~!

peace(((:

aww.
crappalicious day.
couldn't wake up in time.
woke up at 8.
prepared myself and left the house at 8.30
thought that i might be late.
i was 15mins early.
zzz

today very busy.
so many orders.
stupid aunty.
nevermind.

meet agnes at tm.
pei her go buy white shirt, black skirt and court shoes.
went home at bout 5.30.

ahh..
i'm so tired.
so sleepy.
i wan to orhorh..!!
zzz

peace(((:

i regret not treasuring the times we had together.
they were so fun.

since last year to this year.
i believe and hope it will still continue.

we went through bits and pieces of life.
though we often argue about stupid things,
you were there when i needed you.

i know it will still continue.
we may not see each other as often in the following year.
but you will always be with me.
cause if you believe that the friendship is true,
they will always be with you deep down in your heart
even though they may not be sitting next to you.

i swear to always be there for you.
we may not see each other so often.
but we can catch up with each other on the phone.

promise me we will okies?
if only, will you always regard me as your bestie?

peace(((:

lalala~

MONDAY
woke up at 7.30
reached opposite chongzheng at 8.30
waited for jingkai to come down to pei me go in the school.
he called me on sunday to go down work.
hmms.
not bad larhs. can earn my holiday fare.
asked him whether can ask shan go down also a not..
but then he say cannot.
enough people liaos ler.
sorry shanny.

got to know 2 girls.
simin and yiin shin.
cool.
funny & friendly people.
hahas.
we keep cracking jokes with the voucher/money.

after work went to mac with them, sit down and slack.
then went home liaos ler.

TUESDAY
yeaps.
woke up at 11
not enough sleep.
still feeling sleepy.
watching goong and then prepare myself.
yeaps.
great news.
im going for CO
miracle ehhs?
yeaps.

i specially took an off to go.
cause i promised jiaqi to go already.

meet jasmine at 1.35
went to mac meet jiaqi and huaihui.
went up.
something wrong with the instrument.
nevermind.

combine until halfway.
went out of the auditorium.
went to the toilet to slack.
with JIAQI,SERENA,XINYI,AGNES
called shan to ask her go to the concert on sunday with me.
yippee.
she is going.
and jiejie is going as well.
wo0t.
i love them.

break time went to seven eleven with jiaqi.
bought pizza.
the type that u heat up in the oven.
yummy.
jiaqi bought another mashed potato.
but no time already.
so she had to faster eat the hot hot mashed potato.
hahas.
she looked so ccuuttee..!!

nevermind.
co ended at 6
jiaqi and i slacked around.
both of us ate ice-cream while on the way to my house.
for a while only larhs.
then after that her daddy come send her home.
lalala~

i will miss her lots cause next year different class already.
T_T

intending to go out play lan with jiejie den go watch concert.
hehe.

peace(((:

lalala~

SATURDAY
damn sian day.
wake up at 11
meet jasmine jiejie at 12
took mrt to harbourfront.
den took the shuttle bus to sentosa.
bloody hell.
it was raining.
i wouldn't have gone if my mum didn't drag me there.
and i went along cause jiejie went too.

horrible day at sentosa.
slippers was dirtied by sand and muddy water.
shall not say much about there.

we took 65 back to tampines.
the bus ride was 1 and a half hour.
starting of the ride very energetic
was taking pictures with jiejie.
after that sian diao already so slept in the bus.
couldn't sleep well simply cause the air-con was too cold

went to cs after reaching tampines.
jiejie and i thought we were going home.
went cs accompanied our mum[s] to walk walk around.
met jiejie's friend and the boyfriend.

went to hagen dazs.
was waiting for them to allocate us the sit.
then suddenly jason pop out of no-where.
den me and jiejie chua tio.
GRR!.
jialing jiejie oso pop-ed out of no-where after that.
ordered a Fondue and all of us shared.
den ordered another Chocolate Journey.
yummy!

den went home already.

peace(((:

SUNDAY/TODAY
hmms.
woke up at 1.
messages and phone calls kept coming in.

then there was some idiot calling my house looking for me.
but actually some prank calls.
the person got my brother pissed off and i got the scolding.
*!#&$^@#*

got myself ready.
mummy came back.
then i quickly eat.
then jiejie came up with the GOONG disc.
wee~!

went to jason's house wait for him.
mindy was playing the laptop with the penguin game.
so lame!
then we all sit down and see jaon help mindy play and earn coins.
finally went out of the house at 4.
i left mine at 2+
lazed ard at his house for bout 1hour plus.

went to take mrt to dhoby ghaut.
went to play dota.

in fact.
i don't play dota 1!
that stupid jiejieweige larhs!
argh.

played for 2hour and 45mins.
then went to eat mac.
along the way hear ppl sing song.

after that go home liaos.
talked bout wad to do at jiejie's chalet in the mrt.

thanks to jason and jiewei jiejie
im kinda hooked on dota already.
zzz

peace(((:

wo0t.
so long never talk to germaine already.
hahas.
talking to her now.
she is so sweet.
hahas!
it's so nice to talk to her again!
wee~!

hmms.

WEDNESDAY
went out at 10.15 to meet the rest of them.
while walking to baoshan house, red ants went into my slippers.
argh. i hate them okies?
i kena bitten by them before.

went to mrt station to meet them.
sengie called me while i'm on my way, telling me she saw lena
i was shocked. cause lena told me she will be meeting us at vivocity.
it turned out to be really lena.
when me and shan reached, saw lena, sengie and janus only.
wo0t.
what happened to the rest?

jiewei was the last to arrive.
he reached at 11.
all of us were wearing black
except JIAQI&JANUS
ignore jiewei who's wearing the international gay colour shirt.

went to vivocity.
reached there at 12 exactly.
the movie starts at 12.20
wo0t.
nice timing.
watched the convenant.

went up to the wading pool upstairs.
sengie and i went into the pool and played.
jiaqi went down eventually.
cause sengie and i keep saying she hum.
hahas!
we dragged janus, yiyan and jiewei in.
i damn suay lor.
first time
went in.
jiewei started splashing water at me and sengie also.
got a little wet.
nevermind.
second time.
yiyan pushed me into the water while we were trying to drag him in too.
i'm half body wet already.
i got a cut on my hand.
pain sia.
third time.
jiewei took the water bottle and started pouring water on me.
almost totally wet.
he hit exactly on my hairband.
ouch. really pain.
i almost cried.
fourth time
yiyan pushed me in again.
this time i'm really all wet.
not a single spot of my shorts or shirt is dry.
zzz.
this time i got a few cuts on my leg.

kaos.
aren't i sway?
nevermind.
sent sengie to the outram mrt station.
then went back to vivocity to find them.

went to lena's apartment after that.
played heart attack, then something about frogs.
lena played with the lights.

jiewei, yiyan and janus played with the hippo, doggy and tigger.
poor soft toys.

one frog,
jumped into the pool
dom.
two frogs,
two frogs,
jumped into the pool,
jumped into the pool,
dom.
dom.

became like this.

one pig.
kena roasted
ouch.
two pigs,
two pigs,
kena roasted,
kena roasted,
ouch.
ouch.

became the worst.

one hippo,
making love,
ahh~
two hippos,
two hippos,
making love,
making love,
ahh~
ahh~
[[with super lots of sound effects from yiyan]]

lols!
lena's dad sent us back to tampines mrt station.

janus, yiyan, jiewei, baoshan and i, sent JIAQI home.
wahhs!
da pia sia.

after that the rest of us walked back to baoshan's house.
then yiyan, janus, jiewei and i pei yiyan go bus stop wait for 291.
jiewei went straight and walked home after that.
janus went to take bus.
and i went up.

hahas.
the day was fun.
but the price for the fun is that.
i'm grounded for 2weeks.
until jasmine jiejie finish her o'lvls.
she is the only one that i can go out with.
T.T

nevermind.
i will think of ways to go out one.
xDD

peace(((:

REPLIES TO TAGS ON TAGBOARD~

SENGIE: hahas! that pic suits you what. and i thought that was your favourite face? hahas!
what you want to do at vivocity?

LENA: so is 1 or 3? or you want both? yarr.. sentosa de. 10.30 meet at tampines mrt station.

BAOBEII: it wasn't anyone's decision. it was just that the only two characters left was renge and haruhi.
i think most likely will go watch bahs.

SENGIE: we shall discuss it on the train tomorrow okies?

LENA: ehhs! wahlaos.. what me sia. nevermind.


today is a totally horrible day.
i slept at 2.30 last night.
woke up at 7 this morning.
3 days in a row that i'm waking up so early in the morning and sleeping at 2.30

went to aunt's house to help clean the place.
her new house.
quite nice larhs
but i will prefer it to be black rather then white.
i only like the blue light.
that's the thing is consider the nice-est in the house.
yeaps.

after that came back tampines and went to doctor with mummy.
near jiaqi and jessie's house there..
hahas!
zzz. i'm quite dumb lors.
i couldn't have bought the medicine.
but i forgot simply cause i was on the phone with the birthday girl, sengie

came home after that.
zzz. today is a bad day.
that for sure.
many things happen.
aww..

still haven decide where to go tomorrow.
the answer will be out tonight.

peace(((:

hais..
GUYS!
unpredictable freaks.
one moments they are treating the girl so good.
the next moment, treat her as though she is nothing to him at all.
seriously.
they don't seem to give a damn bout our feeling okies?

girl, don't think too much.
i'm here for you always.
that's my promise to you.

i regret telling you those things.
i feel as though i'm the one who did something very wrong.
i'm sorry.
if i didn't tell you that, perhaphs you will be a little more happy then how you are now.
i'm sorry girl.

sengie

peace(((:



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wo0t.
i wanted to give 1 of them to sengie.
but i cant decide which to give ehhs..
T_T

i like all of them~!

friends forever to my whole family~!
family forever!

yeapyeap.
finally got my adobe photoshop disc from daddy already.
i was playing around with it just now.
edited a few pictures only.
wanted to load up here, but decided not to in the end.
cause lena doesn't like seeing her own picture.
weird.
and jiaqi will kill me for putting that picture up.

edited the picture that baoshan, lena &sengie took while on the way to lena's house on bus 2.
edited the picture that i took of jiaqi while on the train coming back from NUS.
it's one of my favourite pictures of her, but she thought that i took the picture for fun initially.
nevermind.


decided to upload this.
HA.
since he doesn't view my blog.
for those who seen it.
shhh~!
don't tell him!
xD
nicholas is EMO-ING
it goes well.

another picture is a retarded picture.
much more of a coincidence from where it came out from.
i just seem to like it. (((((:



yeaps.
it's a ice.
some way. somehow, janus bit this out.
quite nice larhs.
it wasn't planned.
he just bit it.
quite a genius larhs


i hearts you <3

i just like it.
don't like your problem.
xDDDD

hmms.. oh ya..
there are several plans as to where you all wanna go on wednesday.
people~!
please leave your choice on my tagboard hors!
thank you~! xiexie!

1) go vivo city watch movie [The Convenant], slack around see what you all wanna do.
den in the evening, MAYBE go lena's house.
on the condition that:
- lena allows.
- you all want.

2) go safra and play pool - by baoshan.
meet and go safra play pool, bowling or whatsoever you all can find there.
after that, i don't know already.

3) other places avaliable that can go walk walk - by janus
- bugis
- orchard
- esplanade
- suntec
after that maybe go lena's house also.
same conditions apply as the first.

yar.
thats all.
the reason why i'm placing it here is because i have no idea what to do about it.
and. we are having a confernce tomorrow.
please call~!

peace((((:

what the fuck mann!
parents are so the that UNREASONABLE lor!
i asked you whether i can stay over at my friends' house.
i merely asked!
was there a need to scream and shout and every fucking thing?
all you do everyday is to scream and shout and nag about things that are totally unrelated.
you seem to be too free and must find someone to scold.
ever heard of this phrase man!
you don't talk, nobody will think that you are mute.

fine!
no staying over right?
i told you i will come home in th night then, but slightly later.
i told you nicely and i even bothered to explain to you why.
then the shit you tell me?
6 o'clock must reach home.!
you wait long long larhs
don't take her and compare with me.
she is she, i am me.
i have my own life to live, i don't live like her.
if you wanna start comparing, i also can.
it's not cannot win you.
is don't bother to argue with you.
you also don't hear reason one.
tell you so much also a waste of my time nia.
i rather talk to him larhs
at the very least, he talks reason at times with me.
you, don't even think of talking reason larhs
everything is rubbish to you

explaining works no use on you..
totally.
it's just a waste of time& saliva.
cheebye larhs.

he everything also can.
happy happy don't come home also can.
i even bothered to talk to you, still scream and shout.
say i never respect you.
please larhs!
go back and think about when have you ever respected me in the first place?
i never scold f language in front of you very good already okies?

ask me don't go out.
don't go out stay at home do what?
stay at home see people's face for what?
happy happy treat you good.
unhappy then scold here scold there.
fuck off larhs!
whole day ask people study study study.
nov, dec holidays is for you to relax larhs
study somemore one day go siao then good larhs
fine!

of all days you must come and yak yak yak, must be today.

kbkbcbcbknnbccb.
fuck off.

i will talk to him myself.
i don't need your fucking irritating comments by the side.
it irritates me, totally.

okay~
i apologise for misunderstanding you okies?
it's all my fault for misunderstanding you lar..
but i still wish you all the best.
must take care of her hors!

yeaps.
today wake up super early.
slept at 2.30 and woke up at 9 okies!
it is like so early larhs!
zzz..
i have insufficent sleep already.
maybe i should sleep earlier tonight?
no i shouldn't

i still have to wake up early again tomorrow.
oh gosh.
when can i have a nice nice sleep whereby i won't be awaken up unnecessarily.

meet baoshan and went to tanah merah mrt station to meet my other daddy..
just to get the adobe photoshop CS2 disc.
den go to school to get the appeal form.
actually why i take it i also don't know sia.
nevermind.

went back to 264 for eat lunch and then after that baoshan went home to change her clothes cause she was wearing school uniform.
after that went to cut my hair..
hahas!
ok larhs..
quite satisfied le..
then went to tm and cs walk walk see see.
and buy something too..
hahas!

after that went to meet shan's mother to accompany her get some things then go home liaos lors..

argh!
i just hate to see you okies?
it just piss me off to see you.
i don't care what others will say.
they are not in my position.
so they can't comment.

nevermind.
tomorrow is o711.
it's sengie's birthday.
soon-to-be birthday girl: CHEER UP GIRL!
i'm always here for you alrights?
don't think too much already larhs.
but if you need someone to talk to.
i promise to be there to hear you out okie?
love you always. <33

well oh well..
and i feel like a stupid idiot here.
waiting in the night.
waiting for a phone call that might never come.

i kind of understand how it works.
but bloody hell.
couldn't you be a nice soul and tell me in advance that you're not calling.
not calling tonight, tomorrow and for the rest of the time.

it's only the beginning and it's like that.
i expected this to happen.
i just didn't expect that it will happen so soon.
i am a human too okay?

everybody is waiting for that little something to come.
yet i'm waiting for something that will make me feel better.
yet i'm waiting for something that will never come.
and i'm waiting for you to tell me that i'm not forgotten.

is it really that hard to say it?
is it really that hard to expect of you?
i knew there was no assurance.
i trusted you not to forget.

but in the end it seems like you really forgot.
forgot about every single moment.
what else more can i say?
till then..

my blessings to you. may you last forever and prove that the feelings for her are true.

hais..
great..
it's like so early in the morning.
i can't believe i'm actually online at such a time..
usually i will still be sleeping okay?

there is like.. so little people online larhs..
pathetic lors..
my reaction is super lag now.
nevermind.

hey~
why am i so damn troubled over you.
how should i be feeling now?
happy or sad?
i'm like damn confused.
living is like such a misery lors..
i'm better off dead.
just bang the head against the wall larhs..
hais..

can someone just take a gun and fire into my heart?
i don't feel like living a minute longer.
every minute is a torture.
hais~!

hais~!
i guess my heart was really torn..
nevermind.
it's worth it.
i guess.

i'm finding it hard to have a good talk with you.
a talk whereby i won't end up so unhappy.
a talk whereby i won't end up crying.

fine.
that bloody cold shoulder.
it's just like such a short time only and i'm like nobody already.
so you like this way of doing things eh?
great.
just treat me as though i beginning to be a nobody.
what the fuck man!
it is like so bloody sudden.
talk to you then reply me a that kind of i-don't-give-a-damn reply.
wtf!

i'm beginning to have enough of it ok?
i don't want you to treat me like that.
treat me as though i am something for you to take and leave as and when u like it.
where is the old you?
long gone i guess..
though it's just like so recently.
fine!
cast me aside when you have others.
bloody hell.
i'm a human for your information!
i really feel like screaming in right into your face and hope it gets into your brain.

geez!
maybe i should just go back and grow more mushrooms.
just hide in the hole and spend all the time growing mushrooms.
i don't wanna talk to the current you.. i wanna talk to the old you.
please can?

my heart tear

hmms..
yesterday went to lena's house..
jiaqi was the one who suggested going to her house..
but instead, she was talking on the phone..
lame right?
lols!

i was helping lena playing maple..
then i kept using this phrase!

MY HEART TEAR
zzz..
nevermind.

yeaps..
while we were in yoshinoya yesterday waiting for jiaqi to finish eating..
lena, baoshan, jiewei and i were talking about the family and OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOST CLUB

ouran high school is defined by
one, prestigious family and
two, wealth and prosperous people who have much time on their hands.
Therefore, this ouran host club is about these handsome guys that have time giving hospitality to these lovely ladies who also have time and profit off them.

well well well..
i decided to change that~
since it doesn't suit our family..

our family is defined by
one, very best friends and
two, very cute people and true friends who are there for each other all the time.
Therefore, this family is about these fun& retarded people that can't stop laughing and growing mushrooms.

wo0t.

hahas..
proudly introduce our members.


Tamaki Suoh
SENGIE





Kyoya Ohtori
LENA





Mitsukuni Haninozuka
ARINA





Takashi Morinozuka
JESSIE





Hikaru Hitachiin
YIYAN





Kaoru Hitachiin
JIEWEI





Haruhi Fujioka
JIAQI





Yuzuru Suoh
JANUS





Renge Hoshakuji
BAOSHAN






yeaps..so thats who and who our family is..
xDD

hais..
today sucks larhs!
woke up at 9.40 after sengie called me.
i was supposed to meet her at 10.30 and im still sleeping at that time.
sorry larhs!

okies.. so.. i met baoshan at about 10.20
reached mrt station at 10.30
called jiewei jiejie to ask him where he was..
told me he's on the bus and will only reach 15 minutes later..
end up i told him meet him in school.
i had no choice since sengie can't stop calling me.
my mood was alright at that time..

saw sengie and lennie at bedok..
went to school with them.
lena told me i was in 3e3.
my mood already sian diao already.

reached school.. saw the class im in..
i really sian diao already lors..
den see those in the same class as me..
no good friends inside at all lors!
hais..
feel like crying liaos lors..
sengie and i went to the volleyball court to slack as well as to avoid people..
we talked about some stuffs..
hais.. boys! some complicated people..
zzz..

after that
baoshan, lena, jiewei and i
went to bugis lors..
wanted to buy things..
ended up not buying anything..
meanwhile, JANUS and JIAQI went to pasir ris to buy things too!
after that then they come find us..
ate yoshinoya..
played there too!
had a fun time..

after that went to lena's house lors..
slacked around here and there.
then went home already..
i took lena's jigsaw puzzle home as well..
planning to fix it at home..
yeaps!

today really very sian diao lors..
i think if jiewei never "somehow" managed-to-cheer-me-up,i would be crying instead liaos ler..
hais~!
zzz...

i wanna know how am i supposed to live without you..
i wanna know if anything is gonna change after today?

please tell me what to do can?

& the day is coming.
it's coming very soon.

all of us will split into different directions soon.
but, im thankful that you people said we will be together always.
i hope it will be true.
let's stay this way.

& the day is coming.
very soon very soon..

i have a feeling i will be seperated from you.
we will not be as close anymore.
i need you.
thats true