我假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到

我假装过去不重要
却发现自己办不到

I'm very proud to say that i finally managed to wake up on time to attend Monday morning's PM1 lesson. After weeks of being late. I'm finally on time:D
Sudden Mock test on Measurements. We were spectaculating it to either come today or wednesday. But ohwell, came today. Was average, not too good. With reference to notes already not sure how to do. Exams how! No open notes test leh! Arina jiayou~

After school, Mr TianHang came over Sp to pass me moolah for his lenses. &&, he eat KFC. I ate with him. And i totally regretted. It was awful! It just doesn't taste like usual:S In fact, it sucks?!

Home with Clarence(:

Tomorrow's gonna be a really long day again:S Like every tuesday(s) ): Lessons from 8-5. No idea why LeeMeeFah is still conducting lessons for CT when it's not tested!? Can't she just let us off and study for other modules before adding more tutorials on to us when it's not even a piority at this point! Measurements tmr is a suck havoc with HELLO(s). PM1 is gonna be fine. I will believe in it!

CGH after school with JL peeps to visit Evangeline~ Stay strong my dear girl! Everything will be fine!

ONE more week):

Love, i know you're reading this. Hi! HAHAHAH!
Btw, ben's an idiot. I swear you gotta agree with me!

Ohyeah, been a while since i really blogged. Not like i'm gonna really blog today. But yeah, been obsessed with this song since the day it was released(: You all must know i very on kpop one okay! Though my efficiency drops when i work:S

Also, i was feeling rather annoyed with this thing that is. I love being the only one who owns a particular thing. Unless i told someone else to get it with me. I just like me being unique that i have that one thing.
I know it's childish, but, i simply hate it when i say i like this thing, and someone else just: oh, i also like leh. We got the same taste.
Like please, when from the start, you had your eyes set on another item. Now you're telling me you like the same thing. And the worse is when you start saying, oh, i like this thing already, then Arina also like it.

Please uh, go fuck yourself in the face, thanks.

I met JIAQI love today! Haha, for dinner at Justacia. Our favourite place(: We headed over NewYorkNewYork too. But, didn't dine there. And, we bumped into Janus at Downtown too! So ended up talking together(: We and qiqi didn't talk enough): See lah janus! Tsk!

Life hasn't been all great. Yes, it hasn't. I kinda feel like it's going down. Just like how it did in sec 3. It might be worser? But i know i have a lovely group of friends who will be there for me. But, sometimes, it just doesn't quite motivate.

Had a hard time trying to sleep last night. By the time i could sleep, it was about time i should wake up already. Ohwell. Ended up sleeping till a little late. Isn't very late though.
School is as sucky as ever. Especially measurements. Catch no ball.

Just when i thought i know how to do up to seperate calculations, they come out circular measurement. Please ah architects, design building that are square/rectangular can already. Don't so many pattern. QS very hard to calculate you know! Plus, more ex also!

After school, dinner-ed with Clarence at school, cup noodles(: Home!
Ohyah, when i went up to platform, wanna take train home, i missed the train. Then the next one took 2mins to come. And it hasn't got much people! So there were rather lots of seats! Happy~ If only everyday was like this. Which definitely won't happen. Hee!

Stonning at home.

JIAQIlove!

Take lotsa care okay! Don't overstress yourself! Meet up soon and tell me all your troubles! I'm waiting for you~

xoxo;
Arina(:

Thursday was alright, only had A&F. Went for lunch with Jasmine @ Sakae Sushi, cause i had been craving for it for a longlonglonglong time(: She came over in the night to watch Shrek the Third and Shrek: The halls.

Friday: I overslept for Contract Procurement. So decided to just forget it. Then, was preparing to go to work, weijie called me saying that John Chan wants my donation card by hook or by crook today. I was like, WTF. If i were to train down, i would have no time. Ended up cabbing down with jie. Passed the card, which was like a $2 thing, spending $18 on my cab. Then, mac-ed in school. And cabbed down to work with weijie and jasmine. It wasn't very ex. Pretty pleased with it(: worked till 8plusplusplus 9.

Saturday: Work): Then SHREK: FOREVER AFTER! I tell you, from the start of the day, i kep telling Roy that i so wanna go watch shrek today(: &&, my wish came true. And thanks to my dad's safra card, i only paid $8 for the ticket. Happy~

Sunday: Work):

Monday: School, stupid PMM lecturer super guailan. Hate him ttm. I feel like he's wasting my time. He should just fuck off and head back to him CapitalLand. So what if he's got experience, he doesn't freaking know how to teach! Was totally annoyed during Measurements today. Ohwell.

Bet tmr's gonna be a sucky day, as much as today. And friday i have work cause it's vesak day. Then i'm on examination off(: yessss baby~

HAPPY 3rd YEAR ANNIVERSARY DARLING~!

Today, had CRS exam. Exceeded the time given): sad sad sad): Measurement was fine. After school went festive hotel to do PMM. Stupid module + stupid lecturer = super no feel to do = don't even wanna talk about it now.

Went back tm to meet sec school classmates. Happy! Mass gossiping session. Miss those times in sec school man! ): Heather is seriously my full-time gossiping partner. Irregardless in sec school or now. hahahha! Mubarak damn cartoon uh, he and his, i'm-staring-at-you-innocently-look.

Went home to charge my phone, zhaode and zara came(: Watch teevee and chatted. Left at 10plus to airport!

I think the night part gets more and more eggcited(: Not as high as i expected leh): dinner-ed at XinWang HongKong cafe(: It was what i had been wanting since morning la! Damn happy! Cabby home!

Bear hugs! FTW!

Yes baby, i'm done with CRS! At last!
Alright, bed time. Hope i don't over sleep tmr. All the best to me for tmr's CRS exam! (:

Seoul garden @ tm at 6pm.
Changi Airport @ 10plus pm(:


One more day till it's O V E R.
One more day till you're back.
I miss you love!
I miss you special one:D

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Updated!

Ben just messaged me! OMG OMG OMG! :D Eggcited ttm. Actually, he texted me at 1.10am, but i was saving works and totally ignored my phone. Now's 1.30am. Anyone thinks he'll reply again? Hmmm. Can anyone tell i'm super super egggggggcitedddddd:D Awww, i'm smiling to my phone and computer screen like a TOTAL retard. Thanks uh ben. I hope you see this and feel guilty for delaying my sleeping time(: So if i have lack of sleep or look stone tmr, you are responsible for it:D

Wait, i thought you don't have roaming?! How come you can message me uh? Nevertheless, he just made me forget my stress momentarily. Better than nothing((:

Jie, i miss you loadsssssss tooo! Though you never message me, but we telepathy! (: Higher tech! Haha! I love you, you love me. We are happy family~ Blah blah blah. MISS YOU LIKE MADASSS!


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UPDATED AGAIN!

He did reply me(: Muahahaha, i'm so happy now i can go sleep while smiling. And then, i will dream of taeyang/jang geun suk. Muahahahaha!

The next time you see me blogging, is when i'm freaking done with CRS. ah, fuck. stupid shit. Clear instructions were not even like given? FML when there's exams and tutorials to be completed.

"A lot of the pain you are experiencing right now is actually fear. Fear of things being different then how you liked them, fear of never finding love again, fear of being alone, fear of having to fill your time differently. We’re afraid of the unknown."

It’s Called a Breakup Because It’s Broken.


Maybe i'm just afraid. Then again, i just needed some assurance.

Was in a relatively okay mood the entire day. Until now, i feel rather annoyed as a matter of fact. It's like, how unfair the whole can be. The best always gets the best, the worst always gets the worst. But as much as you thought your dad and mum were biased towards your siblings, you fail to realise that you are much more fortunate than any others out there.

Ah, fuck. No mood to blog now already. Zzz.

Ben, i need you now.

Weekends are over soon, this weekend is exceptionately special. Why? Cause it's the only i have since quite a while? Friday night was spent lazing around at home.

Saturday went out for lunch @ Fullerton hotel. Met up with jiejie, ben and clarence for k. After that, meet up with Jiewei for dessert. Super depressing. Cause we were heading to the dessert place with high hopes.

Reach there, they jitao tell us closed already. Depresssseeeeddd): Headed off elsewhere to have dessert. While walking halfway, we were deciding whether to eat dessert or to go drinking. Ended up we decided that we should just stick to eating dessert. Went to a rather famous place(:

(* Ohyeah, of late, we're been kinda looking for all the fabulous food around. So, yeah, great experiences coming up. We like machiam some food critic sial. *)

back to it, go there, superrrrr long queue. But i would say that we were rather lucky, go into the shop only, got seats for 5 cause some guest just left. Luckkkky(: Nice dessert!

Headed to take bus, was strangled by teo jiewei on the way back. Swear i could "die in his arms". Bus-ed all the way back tampines. was deciding where to go, btwn jiewei's house to drink or go home sleep. Ended up going home. Reach home jitao sian. Lots of things, but yeah, shifted my lappy out to the living room to watched Nodame(: I was kinda annoyed while shifting my lappy out. So, while plugging in the adapter for my laptop to the power plug, i almost broke a bottle of chivas and a bottle of Vodka Raspberry. Stunned for awhile! ):

Was supposed to send love and ben off today, but i decided that it felt damn weird, so yeah.. i didn't go. But i was damn nice to stay awake till Ben has to go prepare to go airport, then i go and sleep. Texted him and love before i sleep. He replied and i typed halfway and i dozed off-.- And he didn't tell me the return flight number! Depression.

Okay, shall stop here for the time, i can't stop feeling that i haven't done my CRS essay. I'm feeling super no feeling to write the damn-ed essay/ article. Whatever. I think i will do on tuesday night.. )':

This is for you, that someone special to me(:

Don't you feel torturing to see someone you love keep smsing someone he/she just met?

♥.

It upsets me to see you sad. It seems that your mood kinda affects mine in a way.

Cheer up ('',)

I'm here for you, 24/7.

Fill my thoughts in. Thanks.

Random Photos!


The 3 Ferrero Rondnoir that Clarence gave me. Behind it is my new backpack:D

Banana Split in large Martini Glass:D


Just see how big it is.


Ben damn greedy leh, can't wait to eat it.


It's soooooooo big:X

I know i promised that pictures would be up, but, still thinking about it. Cause yeah, that's why. So, not sure whether to post up or not.

Nevetheless, weijie and i shared a graduation bear for her! It's the first graduation bear that i give ANYONE. Moreover, this bear is a bear that i will never give anyone, cause i love it too much. It's just, too adorable to be taken away for me. I mean, i'd rather buy for myself then to give anyone? But, as a matter of fact, i bought it for her:X I guess it's a natural reflex reaction. Afterall, she's the only one worth of it.


Smiling from ear to ear after she got the present:D


Forever friends - Graduation bear!


Love you ttm!


I've graduated:D


Jasmine: xoxo.

I need a drinking session sometime soon. Anyone up? Tag on blog. HAHA!
School > SIM > Jurong Point > M hotel > Esplanade > Home.

Late for school today. LOL, kinda a usual thing? I know i know, time to wake up earlier Arina. After class, bus-ed down to SIM to meet TianHang and Jiejie:D waited for them to settle things, cabbed down to Jurong Point to catch Robin Hood :D M hotel for dinner after that:D Steamboat!

Esplanade after that, pictures up tmr! Gonna go sleep soon, i hope. Haha! :D:D:D

photos for drinking:D
@ kbox
@ Brewerkz (outside)
@ Brewerkz (inside) no included yet.
@ Crazy Elephant.


@K Box MS

Jie & me @ Kbox.


Me & Weijie.


Jasmine

@Brewerks

Brewerkz


Golden Ale


We ordered a jug of it:D


Bill for 1st round):


Lychee Martini! I help him order de! Cause i wanna drink. LOL.


Golden Ale


Vodka Martini


Golden Ale, Bottoms up! He made me do it too):


Cheers!

@ Crazy Elephant



hello~


Sonnys.


Brother for Life okay!


:D


:P







:D:D:D:D
Chalet! You better make my wish come true!

"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. you learn that love doesn’t always mean learning and company doesn’t always mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren’t always considered contracts and presents aren’t always considered promises. After a while you learn that every sunshine burns if you get too close. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. You eventually learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, and you really do have a purpose in life."

School every weekdays, work every weekends. what a great life. I think i'm becoming a robot? Nevertheless, previous friday, went Kbox with Bryant, Tianhang, Jasmine and Weijie. Drinking session after that. Saturday was pretty much the same. Drinking and slacking away:S Cab fair kills.
Monday to Friday is crap cause there's school?

Went to clarence's house on Wednesday with Ben:D to watch IP man. cause clarence and i didn't watch the first part. Dinner-ed @ his house and cabbed home. Yesyes, lazy people): Friday went to watch IP man 2 with Jasmine, Ben and Clarence. Dinner-ed at XinWang HongKong Cafe. In case you don't know. We are kinda crazy over XinWang. For god know what reason? Then, slacked at mac @ Whitesands. We were talking about desserts. Headed back to Downtown in search for desserts. We wanted to head somewhere else. But was quite hesistant cause no carrrr!
dessert @ downtown:D Awesome!

Saturday, work, dinner @ Carls Jr. with Baixiang, Alan and Jasmine.
Sunday, work, dinner @ LJS with Weijie, Bryant, TianHang and Jasmine.
Sian, stupid food. Like, super no like.

Couldn't wake up this morning, so yeah, skipped PM1 lecture. Went at 10 for CT tutorial onwards. Supposed to train home with darling today. Ended up going down to M hotel for dinner with mummy, daddy and Ahyi. Home at 10.

Aww, i'm tired! Pictures up soon!

因为你 我可以永远在这等待

I'm damn nice today. I swear i was. I pei clarence today, while he went for his VB trials at 1930 when i end school at 1700. I was pretty much stonning at FC 5. Janus came down SP too. But he was at the sports hall watching Clarence play. Was planning for it to end by 2130. Ended up, he came over and tell me that he have training. Ask me to go back first. By, i was thinking, i already waited for like, 4 hours plus le. Might as well just wait uh. I think i'm damn hardcore la! I sit there practically do nothing. Just didn't have the mood to do anything.

They ended up 2215):
Trained home with Clarence, Janus and clar's vb friend. Apparently they all saw each other before during tournaments-.- Walked home alone. Saw a stupid cockroach. I know it's random.

Alright, sleeping soon. Before i oversleep again.

Today is a dumb day. I had lesson at 8. I woke up at 0730. Called Weijie and said that i would attend PMM tutorial at 1100 instead. I went back to sleep, with the intention of waking up at 0900 to get ready. I woke up at 0905. Thought of lazing for another 5 minutes. I ended up waking up at 1045. LOL, damn tired la!

So, now i'm in class, attending the 1300 lesson. Haha, later ending at 5. Then dinner with Clarence and wait forhim while he have vb trials at 1930 later. Anyone wanna come down and accompany me?! Be niceee! :D:D:D

To whoever it may concern,
I do feel weird when i don't talk to you. Cause you're not just a passing phrase of my life. I promise i WILL be there. Cause a friendship like ours, it doesn't have an expiry date.

xoxo;
ARINA

Today school was sucky, like all mondays. Monday blues. I didn't really doze off in class. I was like, doze off during break. Then, measurements, all i can say, nothing went in today. I really wasn't feeling too well. TianHang came down to SP to find me and weijie to pass me things to pass to jiejie. It's a complicated thing. Trained home with Clarence. Meet jiejie for dinner with mummy(s).

I just suddenly feel a little down? :/ I don't want/like being a passing phrase of someone else's life. I mean, no one likes. But somehow, we inevitably becomes a passing phrase of their lives. But the point to it is, how to we even sustain it?
One day we might run out of topics, one day we might have bad mood days and unknowingly hurt their feelings,
one day they may just feel that we're not worth their care/concern,
one day.. there might be just this one day.

I never liked touching on this topic. I hadrly talk to anyone about such topics. Cause it makes me feel sniffy. And that, everyone promised a life time warranty from the start.

It's just how sad some friends have an expiry date chopped on them from the day you knew them.
Some, you forgot to check only to realise it much later.
Some, you mistook the expiry date for it and it gave you a really bad tummy ache.
Some, it comes with a life time warranty.

Not everything comes with a life time warranty. It's just how sad it is. I can see many expiry dates from the day i knew them. Sad sad reality.