Yeah, i know it's been a LOooooooooog time since i last blogged. But, suddenly when i was at the interchange waiting for bus to head over to Duncan's house. Suddenly, this person's post on tumblr dawned upon me.

It’s complete madness to hate all roses because you got scratched by one thorn.
To give up all your dreams, because one did not come true.
To give up on your efforts, because one of them failed.
To condemn all your friends, because one of them betrayed.
Not to believe in love, because someone was unfaithful.
Remember that another chance may come up.
A new friend. A new love. A new life. Never give up on anything.

Well, it's not like the person betrayed me or anything like that. In fact, it's nothing close.
But instead, why is the distance between 2 close friends being torn apart, just cause of another person? Yes, the person may have been the reason we met, and the reason we became close. But, that doesn't mean that when that friend is being condemned, i'm in this together.

No, don't be mistaken, i'm not blaming it on anyone. I perfectly understand what you mean, and how you feel. I'm not making things hard for you like, getting you to reflect. In fact, i told no one about this. NO ONE.

You don’t realize how much you care about someone until they don’t care about you.

I know i care. All along, i knew. But, i just didn't know i cared this much. Now, i'm unsure if you do. It's been awhile since we talked. It's been a long while.

After ranting for so much, actually all i wanted to say was.

I miss you)':
You and your nonsense.

I suppose you know who you are. Well, that's if you even see my blog):

Sometimes, when we look back at our past memories and decisions, we tend to wonder, are these worth it? Will we regret it? As much as i seem like a total bitch who doesn't give a fuck about friends who left. I'm actually honestly quite sentimental. As much as I often make impulse decisions, i often wonder if my decisions made then, were of correct judgements.

Years passed, friends come and go, some stay and made impacts, good or bad. I remember how i used to be a total rebellious child, in a way or another. It's not like i'm all goody good now. But at least, what i am doing now, my mum knows. When i go drinking at chalets, i don't have to lie or give excuses about it. In fact, i just tell my mum upfront about it.

Lying, Imitating others, Backstabbing, Heartaches, Heartshakes, i had it all. I experienced it all. Some friends were just there to make use of me. After that, i'm just nothing more than just an ordinary girl, that's of no value to them. While i had my truthful clique of friends, other imitated me, just to be accepted. It's not like i have anything worthy to be copied of. But i just hate it when they try to act close with you and all.

All my best friends know when i was backstabbed the worst. It was really indeed a lowest point in my life. Nevertheless, i'm thankful it happened. Although it wasn't a right timing. But it taught me things that the mind can never think of, and the heart could never accept it. The kinds of people, what jealously would lead to. Still, i'm thankful for those that stayed, those that had been there for me. For those that left, you are someone i cherish alot. Though i have never said anything about it, though i have never expressively showed anything, but i miss you.

I somewhat felt that, sec 2 was the best year of all my years in secondary school. Back when you girls are by my side, back when the littlest things could get us so hyped up. When pure innocence was what made us the happiest. Before all the other distractions came in. When we were so bonded together. Just us.

Poly isn't a happy place to be in. I'd be honest. It's saddening to say that, work can lead to damages in friendships. Sometimes, i do hope that if we aren't working together, would it be able to salvage anything? But it takes 2 hands to clap. Different working style, yet working together. Why force the working style when you can't really handle it. Isn't it much better to just, do something about it instead of damaging a precious friendship. Just over some stupid assignments, worth it, or not? Individuals have their own thinking. Mine, it ain't worth it.

Some friends aren't here to stay, that's the saddest part. Cause there's no entrance fee to a person's heart.

Alright, it's been ages since i bothered to really blog about something. Obviously whenever that happens, it means that i'm overtaken to do something else = drama.

King Of Baking: Kim Tak Gu. Quite a nice show i would say:D

Grown ups with Alan and Weijie today(: Should have left house earlier. Tsk Tsk!

It's a rather nice movie. Quite funny! Should go watch! For those who work at universal studios, far far away area, one song was in the movie. It's like, there's so many songs in the world, must it be this song?! When i heard it, i was like thinking, karma for talking bad about henry:S However, Alan who works like, 5 days a week, totally immune to the song. Only weijie and i noticed it:X

Swensens for ice cream after that(: Alan's treat, yummy~ Took over Alan's phone and talked to Henry. He asked me who was i, i said i was a ghost, then started talking some total crap. Serious crap i swear!

Went Kallang to meet Henry and headed over to Geylang for DimSum(: It's a famous stall over there. Only been there twice, but i loike their food:D It's like, for 3 person who had taken their dinner and supper, plus 1 who hasn't taken his dinner, we spent like..., 48?!

Chatted and cabbed home with Henry:D

I feel like i should be more diligient in updating my blog. It's pretty much, dead? Plus, im getting lazy!