I'm stupid, that's why.

I really can't put my feelings into words right now. I guess these helped a little. Too much for me to describe. It's just.... crap feelings. 

You really don't have to go to such measures to make me be there for you. I said i would, i would. 

You really don't have to pretend to be so down, just to get me to place you on the important list. 

You really don't have to try so hard to fit in. 

You don't have to talk so much bad things about them just to make me feel like they are really horrible for treating you like this, resulting in me wanting to do more for you. 

You really don't have to take sides, no one needed you to take sides. 

You really don't have to make me feel so pathetic. 

You make me feel like a total retarded idiot. 

Probably the last few to realize that my true concerns were being taken for granted, my willingness to go the extra mile is taken as a way to play a prank on me.

And my trust for you is eventually the source of my own misery.